posted October 31, 2020 12:00 PM            

A percentage of people get more cynical, bitter, unhappy, etc as they get older. It's like the world and it's harshness breaks them down over time. Sometimes an ailing or failing body can contribute.

But if a person starts off a sour puss (very serious and towards the pessimistic) from earlier on, it's most often connected to strong Saturn and/or Pluto. Very strong Mars can indicate a self sensitive type of person. Meaning they may laugh at jokes, may smile, etc, and certainly don't mind making fun of or being sarcastic to others, but when it comes to themselves, they are more uptight and serious, and have a hard time taking themselves lightly (usually lots of pride and ego).

And Moon can be rather self sensitive as well, but in a different way than Mars. The Moon though is a bit lighter than Mars, Saturn, and Pluto--she has moments of downright hilarity and silliness. Otherwise, all of these 4 symbols have a tendency to be over self sensitive and/or self conscious.

If Venus, Jupiter, and/or Sun is strong simultaneously, this will offset/counter balance some of that. People have a lot of misconceptions about Solar energy/meaning. A true to form Solarian is often a rather jolly and light hearted (though also intense and passionate) person. Look at the Dali Lama--he's a Solarian and he is pretty jolly.

And that's the key, is being more light hearted. I have Moon conjunct Saturn. From about age 7 to 12 especially and to a lesser extent till 21 or so, I was more attuned to Saturn. Over serious, self sensitive, more self centered in general--major guards and walls up around my heart. I didn't ever talk about anything personal with most people. I mostly just observed and kept hidden/within. On the outside, I was a stone surrounded by stone walls.

It was miserable. I was miserable. Went through some stuff, decided to make definite changes, and increasingly became my more true self more and more, which is much more combo Solarian-Jupitarian. It was a noticeable shift. I was full of joy, so much lighter. During my partner's college years, we hung out with a friend a lot, and the rare times that I would be in a bad mood or the like--they took it extremely because it was so unlike me at the time. It was like my Soul had been released from bondage. I still have a very serious and intense side, but the balance tips to lightness, joy, optimism, etc.