posted January 02, 2021 04:13 PM
Hiya:
I have some 5th harmonics in my chart—six Q/biQ, according to the vanilla Astro.com default.
If I add the Liliths and Vesta (which I love to do, especially since it sets up a virgin/***** dynamic at either end of the MC/IC axis), plus psyche (conjunct Pluto ) and Pallas (Mars) alongside the two prenatal eclipses (the solar half, on Venus; the lunar, so it won’t feel bad), the number goes up to 15 or 16 but a lot of those are redundant, owing to their relation to the original planets’ quintiles.
If I add Aura it makes a cool looking starry thing— Aura is conjunct two of my Liliths but one degree closer to the spot that ties off an incomplete triangle. It’s just three asteroids hanging out together—no planet— but it’s pretty!
Otherwise it looks a bit like an extremely dehydrated person took a big ol’ leak smack dab in the middle of my chart..
Also— I don’t know if this is a even A Thing or not— but yesterday I noticed that my descendant is at 144’42” relative to a 360’ 0-Aries start output. ??biQ, sort of. Or not?
Anyhow. I’m weird—Certifiably so! I havdx, plus I can legit say that some people either really don’t get me, or really don’t like me. Or both?!
I was recently bullied out of an organization which I’d been a member of for several years, a result of speaking truth to power, after holding my tongue for years. . I’m wiser now, but at the time I really didn’t get that some people prefer compliance to kindness, excellence, integrity. live/learn.
Anyhow, I write/ draw and needed to write about this— but in attempting to tell this story, I was becoming mired in the claylike thickness of the situation’s depressive miasma. So I started working on a project that used an entirely different modality to tell a story, one that could use existing pieces in a sort of sequential, yet whole and layered way— so in telling, it was not growing longer like a line, but outward, upward, further, beyond, like a sphere—using music and symbolism as a post-or meta- modern literary criticism of myself/through this history, including all the things I’d written in that matrix, tying it back to the rest of my life, as the text. Its artistic and philosophical and literary, but also therapeutical, giving a kind of meaning to my life where none had really existed before.
I also facilitated the eventual destruction of this organization by holding them accountable for their actions. Not an outcome I wanted— i’d have preferred to be reinstated under just conditions— but it wasn’t my choice. After consulting with a lawyer specializing in the issue I brought to bear, they chose to commit organizational suicide instead.
Should I credit this whole deal to the quintiles? As in, my own natural way of being, making me blind to my otherness?? Or maybe the Use/Abuse of Power? Reversal of fortune? The polarity or the pivot? The creative spark to find the best way back from the brink?
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Basic:
Venus Q Pluto both biQ Asc
Jupiter Q Uranus
Mars biQ Chiron
Node biQ Saturn
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Lilith & frenemies:
Venus/PNE Q Pluto/Psyche both biQ Asc
Jupiter Q Uranus
Mars biQ Chiron
Mars/Pallas Q Lilith (x2) biQ LE
Lilith (o) Q Mercury
Saturn biQ node
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Add to this aura:
Venus/PNE Q Pluto/Psyche both biQ Asc
Jupiter Q Uranus
Mars Q Aura biQ Chiron
Mars/Pallas Q Lilith (x2) biQ LE
Lilith (o) Q Mercury
Saturn biQ node