posted March 01, 2021 08:10 PM            

Sun 19
Mercury 7
Venus 3
Jupiter 0
Pluto 25

I recently went through a Pluto square moon Transit (my moon is 21 degrees Libra) and I feel completely dead inside and outside. Despite my long-term chronic depression, I managed to start rebuilding my life a bit.

Anyway, I study my chart almost every day so I noticed Pluto will start to square my stellium soon.. and I don't think I can take it.

I guess my question is:

How do Transits affect people with stelliums?

If it's a bad transit, are those people destined to live miserable lives?

I feel like I'm definitely going to be one of those people who had so much potential, but got lost somewhere and was never able to recover.

I lost everything. I lost every relationship.. including the ones with my parents. Granted, me and my mother are doing pretty good these days fast-forward, but the old connection we had is definitely gone and things will never be the same. That really applies to everyone in my family. Friends either vanished, showed their true colors and I vanished or life just took us in completely different directions. Either way, I have no friends anymore. The family I thought I had and took so much pride in was a big lie. I am completely alone. I do fine most days and I'm super numb at this point so I don't cry anymore unless something major triggers it and even then I'm able to snap out of it. I feel like I'll never feel or know love again. I feel like I'll never be attractive or enthusiastic about life anymore. It's that bad. And up until this point, I didn't want to really admit any of this, hoping things will change.

FYI: transit Saturn is in the middle of squaring my stellium also so I'm aware of the extra drag but it still doesn't change much. I still felt the same before Saturn.

posted March 01, 2021 08:26 PM            

I myself have a stellium in Leo. The bad transits, yes, are bad. However, at the same time, when there are good transits, those are really really good! Life is really quite funny. It gives us what we radiate. It is no question that difficult times give rise to depression, isolation, alienation. It's truly terrible. But, there is always hope. Always, always, always. But we must take the first step and believe that things can be better. And once we begin to believe, to have a little bit of faith, little by little, life begins to reward us--even in the middle of bad transits.
That's the whole purpose of human life--to transcend. Yes, we are born and some things we cannot alter, but we most certainly can transcend. It is difficult, but by no means is it impossible. You are stronger than you think.

Maybe see if there's one thing each day you can do that will improve your tomorrow. Just one thing. It's as difficult and as easy as that.

posted March 02, 2021 03:10 AM            

Astrologically, what is probably needed at this time is a thorough exploration of your natal chart + progressions + transits ... to put your life into the context of "where I have come from; where I am going to and where I am now".