posted May 11, 2022 03:02 AM            

Would it be revisited?

Any experience with that?

posted May 12, 2022 04:50 AM            

(PLEASE DON'T QUOTE FURTHER)

It is very hard because he says that he has feelings for me, wants someone like me as his partner, doesn't want to break up but doesn't see a future with me because I'm 8 years older. Earlier he said it didn't matter but apparently it matters very much. He says it matters not for our relationship but for the kids' question. When I suggested we try for a kid now he wasn't into it. And that he wanted 2 kids. So he initially said he was 50-50% about going on but worried if we are wasting time with each other if there's no future. He said it would be a perfect relationship if we were in our 20s. That it was his best and most significant relationship so far and that he liked me more than others he was dating. Then I took offence etc.

I don't know if he was sugarcoating the breakup with the nice words or if he really meant it.

It's a Virgo Moon & Venus guy.

What bothers me is that Progr. Jupiter & Moon, and later Venus were on our Progr. Comp. Antivertex. Tr. Valentine on our Comp. Asc. It should have been something nicer.

Tr. Saturn on our Comp. Antivertex square to Nodes and loosely square to Comp. Saturn (4* separated). And this tr. Saturn is right on his MC. We started dating when tr. Saturn was on our Comp. Asc square to Comp. Venus.

Now Progr. Comp. Moon was square Pluto, it is passing it soon. It will get opposite to Jupiter (on my natal Sun) & on Comp. Asc square to Comp. Venus. But then what to expect when it will square Comp. Saturn?

posted May 16, 2022 05:32 AM            

And what happens if people get back together during retrograde Mercury?

posted May 16, 2022 11:10 PM            

Especially with Mercury being the ruler of his Sun and Venus, I'm sure he's more sensitive to the retrograde, even in shadow phases, and that accounts for his changing mind and indecision. I highly doubt the reason he gave was the real reason, because probably he doesn't know the real reason. His inconsistency reads to me as inner confusion.

I also think tPluto square pcMoon is at play. I'm not sure what to advise about pcMoon square cSaturn other than the obvious testing of commitment.

posted May 17, 2022 05:37 AM            

Yeah I'm holding myself hard not to contact him. He just sent a meme a week after and I replied with a smiley.

I am quite surprised that you think it was not the real reason? so you think this reason is not serious enough? To me it seems serious and unsurmountable...

He is a Libra with Moon and Venus in Virgo, so I guess his pendulum of doubts should now be on another side of the spectrum. Like he doubted our relationship while we were together now he should doubt our breakup, as long as I don't contact him first. Unless he has entirely made his mind.

PcMoon is square c & pc Pluto but right after will be opposite cJupiter on cDsc and then it will get on cAsc square cVenus...

posted May 17, 2022 08:34 AM            

With the eclipses and everything too, plus he’s still messaging you (obviously can’t help but think of you when he sees something, wants to share with you) I just would wait and see. He’s already flip flopped on this issue. I wouldn’t be surprised if someone else planted the seed of doubt in him rather than it being his authentic belief.

posted May 17, 2022 09:01 AM            

Yes he went to his country and saw his family before that. I think they might have discussed that.

I just want a genuine mutual relationship with my soulmate (or Twin Flame, I don't know). Would be nice if this could somehow align with 3D journey of having a family and a kid...

He is not a believer in anything so I was surprised that during our breakup talk he said he believed in soulmates and thought that we were 100% soulmates.

I am inondated by synchronicities and numbers, and since the breakup I see a lot of 69s.

Then we met accidentally where we were not supposed to meet, it was a question of 5min overlap. I ran away.

My friend travelling in his country saw our names subsequently on a road. Then saw a box in her mom's house where it was literally written - "his name - wherever there is a baby".

I started watching a Pick a card youtube video and fell asleep, it was thunderstorm - woke up to a thunder exactly at the moment when the video was saying that he had regrets about how he treated me and wanted a 2nd chance.

I don't know anymore if it's him specifically or just my obsessive nature and inability to let go (Cap Venus square Pluto; Chiron close to Dsc).

I am generally obsessive and I had other person's name following me everywhere in my other connections. Numbers started a couple of years ago when I was obsessed with someone else but they were different, more 1 and 0 combinations, now it's still them plus all over the place with triple mirroring combinations and a lot of 2s. And now 69.

posted May 17, 2022 12:04 PM            

Ok the following is very much a reflection of where I am also at/have been in my own journey so do take it with a grain of salt and only take what resonates… I may be totally off base, in which case, I apologize. I want to help if I can though.

Trust your intuition, trust your guidance - whether it is a TF thing or not (I’m skeptical of that ideology, I think it can really play on us vulnerable and obsessive types, especially those with insecure attachment or CPTSD) you seem to be the wiser, more conscious and spiritually evolved person here so please do not doubt what you know deep down! All the answers are within! The synchronicities are confirmation of your inner knowing, but he also has a responsibility for his part. You’re probably right about him, but will he meet you halfway? That is what’s beyond your control, and grasping at astrological straws is one way we sometimes try to soothe ourselves and create a sense of control over someone our brain is addicted to/believes it needs for survival. But we have to release what is beyond our control. We might know the truth but the 3D might just not catch up. Or not in time.

Which is why, at the same time, it’s so important to detach… with obsession and clinging, there is clearly inner work for you to do too, which I am sure you constantly do anyway. Here is what helped me with the obsession (with the guy you were helping me with this past year!):

1. Eliminate magical thinking (that means TF ideology - [url= https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_Irq2k9uJc&t=1s]watch this[/url] because whether TFs are “real” or not, getting out of the obsession is the best way to attract regardless)
2. Identify and meet unmet needs (that your SO seemed to promise - this will transform any relationship from one based on needs exchange to a genuine and freely chosen love)
3. Identify and live out qualities/traits (both “good” and “bad”) of SO that were repressed in me - I did/am working on three kinds: a) qualities I lack but admire in him, b) qualities I dislike in him that I also possess (hypocrisies - these can be tricky as the same quality might manifest in opposite tendencies in each, ie perfectionism can manifest as manic activity OR as procrastination/avoidance), c) “bad/naughty” behavior I repress but secretly desire to act out (like partying, etc - can be seen as shadow work or even skipped developmental stages)
4. Rewrite painful stories (that SO appeared to solve)
5. Separate SO from the Dream - [url= https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KMxUD_XbRs]here’s what I mean[/url]
6. Work on attachment style - [url=https://www.youtube.com/c/BrianaMacWilliam_Attachment_Romantic_Relationships ]this woman[/url] is so worth binging and she has a free shirt quiz on her website you can take to find your style - there are plenty of others online you can take to confirm
7. Don’t repress - instead, accept feelings as they come, as they are

I would really use the solo time to go inward because that is always the only solution… the astrology can be revealing but getting too deeply invested in every data point is just the mind’s way of trying to distract itself and avoid the deeper issue. The obsession IS the distraction, not something we need to distract ourselves from. It is a SYMPTOM, not the cause. And the inner work can ONLY bring us closer to our authentic path and persons anyway.

People choose not to be with their TFs all the time because the 3D just doesn’t line up for whatever reason. Whatever he is to you, we have free will and a responsibility to do right by ourselves and follow our nodal purpose. We must above all act in self respect.

posted May 17, 2022 02:47 PM            

Huge huge thanks, this is very therapeutic! will definitely work on it! I do believe that the key is inside anyways, actually to TFs it also applies. I've watched these videos on youtube that reaching samadhi on one's own actually brings TF back. It was recommended like the only path to the reunion.

The thing is there was strong energy resonance and I cannot reproduce it on my own...

Yes he is from a traditional country, from Iran (will edit it later, please don't quote). I am from another country and we're in the third country.

posted May 18, 2022 04:37 PM            

If it helps, New World Allstar on YouTube really emphasizes the same. Even though he is a twin flame coach, his whole system urges you to get out of TF ideology and focus on ascension. He has some helpful content if you're interested. He emphasizes samadhi also.