posted July 06, 2022 02:06 PM            

This is gonna be long.

In regards to a previous post about where one met one's spouse (I think). I responded that I've always met boyfriends, and now my husband, in work scenarios and that is odd since I have an empty 10th house and nothing really pointing to love at work. So AGAIN, being perplexed with my natal chart, which kinda makes sense ASPECT-wise, but besides that not so much, I moved the TOB back 2 hrs and BOOM.

Now I will tell an honest story about how my life has been and how I've always behaved and the 2hrs back TOB will make sense.

My parents fought ALOT! In front of me. And they never cared that I became scared or sad. Ever! They used me as punching bag in the middle and relied on me to keep the peace. Keeping peace was something I learned very early on and I also learned how to VERY, intricately, read everything from emotions to tones of voices to facial expressions. This I also managed to calculate along with what times of the day/night things happened. What my parents created was a "machine". I can now very easily navigate any situation and can equally well read people's intentions based on what they say, how they say it, when they say. How they use their hands.....are their eyes moving a specific way when they say specific things...do they use a different tone of voice at certain times...Nothing escapes me, just so I can keep the peace/balance. Extremely exhausting! That elephant in the room? I knew it was coming before it came..Welcome Libra Pluto 4H conjunct Libra IC.

I've never understood the Cancerian love for family. Family for me is WORK. I am excellent at work and extremely detailed. I become depressed if I can't work or if I'm bored at work or if I feel I haven't accomplished well enough at work. I get anxious, worried and I feel like a loser. I have worked since I was 12 yrs old and I've worked hard since then. For 32 yrs. Welcome Capricorn Moon 6H.

I have issues with people. I feel them always wanting more from me and I can't give it to them because I've already given everything! I am very kindhearted, and bighearted (Leo Asc) and when I meet new people you'll see a big smile . I'll be open, funny and warm. I'll be like the Sun in an otherwise dark (for many) world. I'll talk about myself and I'll listen to you. I will REALLY listen and you will feel it. What happens after that is that I will walk away because I'm drained and you will want more. I will feel extremely agitated by this and most likely lash out and feel very ****** . I always feel I need to give more and I can't. Loud noises, strong lights and smells disturb me and I get equally disturbed if my thoughts are interrupted. I think alot..and I think about many abstract things that don't make much sense.
Yeah..and then we have the neverending search for the perfect partner...the alcohol (so so much)...the drugs...the sex I shouldn't have had..the escapism...the forgetting about everything else once in a relationship....not knowing my own boundaries for what is healthy for me...always attracting less than stellar men or men that is emotionally unavailable...being dreamy and ending relationships too early or sudden..
Welcome Cancer Sun, Venus, Mercury 12H.

Don't touch my **** or anything I've worked hard for! That is your 1st and last warning..Welcome Mars 2H.

Above is me from the heart and the placements changed from:

Libra Pluto 2H
Scorpio IC
Cancer Sun, Venus, Mercury 11H
Cap Moon 5H
Virgo Mars 1H

posted July 07, 2022 02:55 AM            

That is until I got the assistance of an astrologer who uses declinations in interpretations. And everything lit up.

I would advise you to consider Kannon in helping to rectify your chart to put all that uncertainty to rest. He uses similar techniques as the astrologer I used in order to rectify the natal chart.

You could have the correct placements listed. Or perhaps not?🤷🏿‍♂️. But its always better to be certain and stop the back/forth headache when certain aspects of your chart seem to not "fit". I got plenty headaches about my chart until the transit (more especially declination aspects) were too exact to deny. That's my 2 cents♥️

Judging from the existing placements listed. I assume there is an opposition of Sun in Cancer to Moon in Cap? If so, this already suggests that the heart(Sun) and mind(Moom) are split.

This could manifest as seeing you parents as two completely different people. Are they still together? The opposition by sign suggests they either come from completely antithetical backgrounds. Or(over time) they grew apart and even lived separate lives.