posted September 19, 2022 06:59 AM            

Without knowing the rest of your chart, I think there are likely other issues at play. I married young, but am divorced and single now and have been alone for a while. This alone time has been essential for me to grow into my own person, but I do not believe I will not ever have a committed relationship again. That is to say, I believe when it is time, the right person comes into your life.

posted September 22, 2022 03:25 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Wow. What a life ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🙏🏿

Do you mind posting your chart? I am curious to see what the Sun & Moon are doing.

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I got a little embarrassed about giving out so much personal information so i ended up editing my original post to say nothing haha. So if you remember what I said, here is my chart if you are still interested. And I'm a little over the embarassment now so i'm happy to discuss any insight that you or anyone else has

TLDR;
feeling destined to be alone due to abandonment of bio father & adoptive father, sexually and physically abused throughout childhood, absent mother who wouldn't believe me, abusive long term love relationships, and the possibility of infertility

wondering what my odds are at being alone forever or maybe lessons i need to learn in order to able to welcome healthy relationships into my life

here is my chart ;

posted September 22, 2022 03:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Librapurr:
I don’t think 1st node implies loneliness. I know somebody with this placement who is divorced with a child. Also, I might know somebody who had couple long term relationships.
You’re in the beginning of your Saturn return what might be not easy time and can make you more gloom and doom about everything.
Many people are getting to a point where they’re ready to get rs and family at their Saturn return time. So it might still be early for you.

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I've had a lot of trouble understanding my north north placement. All of the research I did was basically telling me that in a previous lifetime [or what have you] relationships [7th house] were a focal point of my life and very familiar. so in this life i must learn how to be alone, even though i have been alone my whole life with no fundamental connection the entirety of my life and no matter how hard i try and i may settle lets be honest.

so all of these events one after the other and my connection with essentially anyone is surface level or feels rooted in hate like i'm destined to be alone

i also have pluto conjunct my ascendant in the 12th house.

posted September 22, 2022 06:11 PM            

I thought about writing more, but I'm not feeling up to it, right now. I don't want to get emotional.

posted September 22, 2022 07:19 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Your North Node is conjunct mine, and I've had similar thoughts, with the exception being my dad. I've been extremely lucky, and he's the only man I really trust. Maybe a few friends, aside from him, but I am terrified of anything happening to him. I didn't respond the first time I saw the thread, because I didn't want to rub it in, that my dad is a good one. I'm sorry you've had to deal with what you mentioned.

I thought about writing more, but I'm not feeling up to it, right now. I don't want to get emotional.

My NN is on the border of the 1st and the 2nd , unless you use whole signs, and then I guess it's in the 2nd.

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