posted October 10, 2022 02:47 PM
This placement often has me very confused in my chart. While it is true that I am often put in situations where I have to be the mediator or that I absolutely hate confrontations, I find myself to be quite an angry and aggressive person. No, I am not passive-aggressive in any way. I actually dislike being indirect about my intentions and people who do the same. I just find an opening to justify aggression when it’s needed and I go full out. I find myself trying to mediate or avoid confrontation, oftentimes, because conflict is very stressful for me. It’s not that I am afraid of people, but rather I hate the stress that comes with it. Most of the time, I feel like my energy is better wasted on something else than conflict. However, I find myself to be quite an angry person, almost on par with my mom who has Mars in Aries. Except, I find her to be more rash and inconsiderate. I have exploded on people in the past and literally not caring if they still like me or not anymore. But it does take a very long time for me to get to that point. Most of the time, I’m just impatient and can be impulsive. I find myself being so driven, having a lot of energy and take initiative. My colleagues have always described me as a go getter, which is very different from what I read about my mars sign. I do not like violence for no reason, although I do believe it can be necessary depending on the situation.
Last year, I started going to the gym and recently also started MMA classes. So many times when I lift and get that ecstatic feeling from weightlifting that my mind starts to take me daydreaming about fighting people. No weapons, just hand to hand combat.
I don’t know how many others with this placement have similar experiences. I have a couple of things that may have negated the weakness of this mars placement, such as having a trine to Jupiter and my ascendant, and the planet being in my 5th house. My Mars also has a lot of stressful aspect such as the direct opposition from Saturn, conjunction to Chiron, and a square from Neptune.
I thought I would be more docile than this, but I am not. It feels like there is this raging fire inside of me that needs to come out most of the time.
Lindaland
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posted October 10, 2022 02:47 PM