posted December 24, 2022 02:22 AM            

I looked at other Chiron aspects in my natal chart, and it seems I am deeply wounded.

Any experience, observations, advice on how to deal with these aspects? Everything feels heavy right now, scary, even though nothing is really happening.

12H Chiron in Leo (R)

Pluto - Square (1)
Venus - Opposition (2)
ASC - Conjunction (2)
NN - Trine (3)
Mercury - Trine (3)
MC - Square (3)
Saturn - Opposition (7)

posted December 24, 2022 04:47 AM            

Chiron with Saturn can reflect authority figures, adults, or father, trampling on your sensitivities.

In your natal, maybe a few challenges with your Venus... but only maybe.

You have a nice chart over all, that I can see. Apologies to be a contrarian.

I see that your Sun, being tied to the outer planets and with no inner planet expression or outlets is a challenge. It can mean that you feel like you are carried away with the tides of other peoples lives, with outer forces - like society in general (peer pressure), rather than having full control of who you are, or where you would like to go, if you knew how to apply yourself.

With Mars involved with these conjunctions, it can be internalised as a general frustration, yet, you don't know really why a lot of the times you feel (and act) frustrated. Because those big planets are difficult to pin-point in our little human lives, in a practical way - they are like energies that colour our day to day lives as well as long-term. They have a ghostly, intangible presence that just affects us.

Then, with the Jupiter involved, the frustration can build up and feel like you want to explode. Or, you control yourself for only such an amount of time, but actually wish to have the release to go into a rage sometimes, just for the fun/joy of it. You get tired of controlling yourself, and being nice to others.

This is underscored again, with the T-square involving your Chiron opp Venus and square Pluto. With Chiron in the 12H, you are more inclined to suffer in silence and isolate, and with no one asking you how you are going, which is painful. You are able to put a brave face on when meeting other people in the world, and be nice.

It's important for your development to find an out for the crappy frustrations and esteem issues brewing within.

Both issues mentioned here relate to the very personal Mars and Venus.. it's worth noting. And the 7H of relationships.