posted March 11, 2023 02:09 AM            

My IC is at 28 degrees Capricorn and my moon is 19 degrees Aquarius...so my moon is technically in the 4th house, depending on the house system.

When Saturn neared my IC, I fell in love with a guy and had my heart broken by him (took me 2 years to get over him)... A few months later I moved abroad to work, and it was my first time living on my own.

My whole life I struggled with my body, food, and dieting. During this time I gained A LOT of weight because of disordered eating. Saturn forced me to heal my relationship with food and my body. I had lots and LOTS of therapy for this. I experienced INTENSE levels of self-hate and disgust at my body. It was a living hell for me. I had to face all the demons head-on.

I felt incredibly lonely and isolated in a different country. I had clinical depression during this time. The job that I worked was incredibly strict, oppressive, and soul-sucking and I started to hate the country, food, and culture...I cried nearly every single day because I was so lonely and depressed over the 2 year period that I was there.

I had A LOT of tooth problems. My teeth were breaking and I had to get a lot of cavities filled. Soon after, I started getting stomach pains and was not able to eat ANY food at all due to pain and bloating. Found out that I had gastritis...which is inflammation of the stomach lining. Got meds for this and felt better.

More therapy. Started healing childhood trauma for the FIRST time in my life. Found out that both of my parents are narcissists. Had to start healing codependency, gaslighting, people-pleasing, and a lot of internalized self-hate and abuse.

Met a guy online. Was starting to like him but he turned out to be a narcissist and was constantly gaslighting me. Forced me to start valuing my own feelings for the first time. More therapy...

At this point transit Saturn left my IC for good and was in the same sign as my natal moon. I went on a shamanic plant medicine retreat and the plant medicine helped me heal A LOT of trauma.

Slowly but surely, I started to have a healthier relationship with food and my body. I stopped being so self-critical. I was starting to accept myself. My gastritis disappeared! And I was starting to feel a lot better for the first time. I moved back home permanently.

Sometime later, as Saturn was starting to cross my natal moon, I lost all the weight that I gained plus MORE simply due to having a healthier relationship with food and my body. I started to feel confident and beautiful in my skin, for the first time in my life! I felt free!

Soon after I fell into depression again. My gastritis came back. I was living with my toxic parents who made me very stressed...more therapy followed. Lots of crying and anger release.

I lost my childhood best friend of almost 20 years. She got a boyfriend and ditched me and just became very cold toward me. She was my only support system. The only person that understood me. I felt incredibly lonely and hurt. More therapy followed.

At this point, Saturn was retrograde over my natal moon for the last time and went direct. Fell into depression again. Crying almost every single day. I started to get intense panic attacks for the first time in my life. I had chronic insomnia. Constant fatigue.
No energy.

My psychic abilities started to open...I suddenly became very sensitive to the energy of other people and to food. My kundalini became activated. Each night I had waves of energy and shock running through my body, I read that this is typical signs of kundalini becoming activated. It was very scary because i didn't know what was happening I had no support or understanding from my parents.

Now I have no money left and I cant find a job. I live with my parents and still feel depressed I feel purposeless and don't know what to do with my life next.

Phew! So these were the main events. Now that transit Saturn left Aquarius, I wish I could say that I feel great! But not yet I also must mention that transit PLUTO is going back and forth over my IC, so I am sure this is why my experience is so intense.

It was INCREDIBLY hard. I was suicidal and didnt think that I would survive, but I did! I learned a lot and healed A LOT of issues. Now that it is over I feel a sense of gratitude. I am a completely different person now.

posted March 12, 2023 10:13 AM            

Two things I have been advised to avoid during Saturn transits to angular houses or Ic/Mc & Moon/Sun and add to that the return, is to get invokved im a new relationship and/or relocate.

Ones confidence is not great during such a period.And there is a tendency to look at things from a "glass is half full". So this does mean that the things you attract, are ot going to be giving, they'll be taking from that little reservoir of self love you may have left.

I felt incredibly lonely and isolated in a different country. I had clinical depression during this time. The job that I worked was incredibly strict, oppressive, and soul-sucking and I started to hate the country, food, and culture...I cried nearly every single day because I was so lonely and depressed over the 2 year period that I was there.

This coincides with Saturn on Ic/opp Mc .The feelings that you felt as well as the environment you felt that in,echoed the Saturnian themes.

I had A LOT of tooth problems. My teeth were breaking and I had to get a lot of cavities filled. Yes, Saturn rules bones.

Soon after, I started getting stomach pains and was not able to eat ANY food at all due to pain and bloating. Found out that I had gastritis...which is inflammation of the stomach lining. Got meds for this and felt better.[B]

This sounds more like challenging aspects to the Moon/Mercury. Virgo(Merc)ans Cancer(Moon) being afflicted, can increase sensitivity around digestion. Ans inflammation is Aries/Mars related . So now I am curious about where yiur progressed Moon was? Or even the Solar arc Moon?

[B] Saturn was starting to cross my natal moon, I lost all the weight that I gained plus MORE simply due to having a healthier relationship with food and my body. I started to feel confident and beautiful in my skin, for the first time in my life! I felt free! More discipline towards eating habits. This is Saturn on Moon. And that can result in losing weight as one nay be more drawn to food with higher roughage than sweets or rich delicacies.

Soon after I fell into depression again. My gastritis came back. I was living with my toxic parents who made me very stressed...more therapy followed. Lots of crying and anger release.

I lost my childhood best friend of almost 20 years. She got a boyfriend and ditched me and just became very cold toward me. She was my only support system. The only person that understood me. I felt incredibly lonely and hurt. More therapy followed.

At this point, Saturn was retrograde over my natal moon for the last time and went direct. Fell into depression again. Crying almost every single day. I started to get intense panic attacks for the first time in my life. I had chronic insomnia. Constant fatigue.
No energy.

Moon is living environment and affairs close to the heart. Living within oppressive conditions is Sat on Moon. Sat(parents) on Moon(living with you) is representative of that.

Moon in Aqu is often also nurtured (Moon) by friends (Aqua). So Sat on Moon would be the friend icing you out. Its not on purpose. Its just that you were at a very tender space and place. And you wanted more comfort, but then he left.

Moon is also sleeping patterns, the ability to relax and take it easy. Saturn on Moon may come with unnecessary fears and worries that anything that can go wrong WILL. That you will be under-prepared or overwhelmed.So your mind goes into immediate survival mode, taxes your inner resources and then leaves you with tiredness. Tiredness that won't be quenched by more sleep.

posted March 12, 2023 10:26 AM            

Saturn on Moon (opposition) was when I was going through my practicals at school.I was studying towards becoming a lecturer at the time.

posted March 12, 2023 04:54 PM            

Much of what you've detailed may have happened during Saturn's transits, but is due to Pluto, as you mentioned later in your post. Pluto played a big part in it all and still is, apparently. Also, because of Neptune's declination position in your chart (near 21° south), Saturn transited parallel to it when it was near the IC area.

So well done for getting through it and growing.

Consider that you are in a period of rest for now. It may feel like a setback, but take some time to gather yourself, reset your energy and posture to life. Rejuvenate the strength and courage you know you have in you.

My own experience of Saturn's transits:
... at IC in 2016-17 was more challenging, but mostly uneventful. I recall nothing of consequence that has stuck with me, even though I was still experiencing the later phase of Pluto's transit conjunct my Moon (11CAP43). That is largely because I had already done a great deal of healing 2004-09 ahead of these transits.
... conjunct natal Moon in 2018-19 was also pretty uneventful. The first phase of it I found grounding and allowed me to reign in my emotional energies for a while to reset a bit. What I remember most is going out to the trees at the nearest park and getting in some good grounding and walking meditations. The second phase was more challenging mood-wise, but nothing major. I got through it very well with my knowledge of herbs and experience keeping things in balance.

My big dramas had already occurred years before when Pluto squared my Asc and passed back and forth over my IC. So the later stages of those transits is when I hit rock bottom (Sept. 2004) and the healing had to begin.

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