posted June 25, 2023 07:07 PM            

I have been strongly struggling with this Pluto transit in my 4th house started in 2007/2008--at least, this is what I believe is the source of my issues. I have no idea what it is trying to teach me and it feels like it wants to do nothing but screw up my life and my faith in it. Like it's supposed to be about destruction and regeneration, right??? Where is the regeneration?

This transit is nearly over (I think? In a couple years? Using placidus anyway), but at this point I have little to no belief that the housing part of my life will improve. I've moved over 30 times since the transit began in 2008. I lost a parent at the beginning of it, which actually has been nothing compared to all of the moves, the lack of stability, and the stress (and by extension the arising health problems) and hopelessness all the moving and lack of stability has caused.

I'm okay with myself and who I am, so I doubt it has anything to do with "finding home within" or some other crap. And yet every single place I have lived has failed. Smokers, noise from neighbors at intolerable levels, construction I couldn't have predicted, incredibly toxic roommates, mice, and more.

I was pretty neutral about life before this transit. Only one move also. I can't say I really had any significant home issues even with Neptune and Uranus being where they are natally.

I don't want to start a family, I don't want to reconcile with my still alive family (I went no contact with them for being toxic), I just want a small space I can breathe in, heal myself, relax. Instead I have become increasingly despondent.

There is no rebirth here. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what it wants me to do. I just want it to stop.

posted June 26, 2023 01:34 PM            

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Originally posted by basket-of-despair:
Unfortunately the difficulty has been going on for much longer than a year. And pluto isn't squaring my sun anymore, and yet I still feel totally awful. Like "why bother trying anymore, nothing you do fixes it and something always goes wrong anyway" levels.

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posted June 26, 2023 06:44 PM            

I *knew* you were going to mention Pluto being in the 4th House just by reading the title. 💯 I can relate to some of this. My mother passed away when Pluto was conjunct my IC. My grandfather died (2) months after she did. A close cousin (2) years later.

I've moved a handful of times since 2015 - not quite as much as you have but more than I expected. *sigh* At one place, my neighbor was the building Maintenance Man who had master keys to all the units. He unlocked my door and came into my apartment WITHOUT PERMISSION several times!! Like he wanted to catch me naked or something. I threatened him with the police and he finally stopped. He & his girlfriend were BOTH super obsessed with me for NO reason. I felt like they wanted to keep me locked away in their private dungeon to do with me as they pleased. It was creepy AF! On top of that... she told me that her brother (whom I'd never met) wanted to MARRY ME. Like what the hell? 🤣 Apparently, he lived across the street and had been watching me for months. I had to get up out of there.

I initially liked the next spot I moved to. Loved the area. But my neighbor was a true bytch at first! Could tell that she was stressed & lonely. Once she started having great sex though (I could hear it) - she was much more chill. 👍 I ultimately ended up moving a year later though because the Landlord owned a hidden Bat House (down the street) and her bats were escaping into our apartments! She didn't give a damn either she would say "don't hurt them" all nonchalantly. Like lady f--k you and these bats! I moved a month later.

The place I reside in now is my favorite that I've ever lived. 💛 I'm happy! Great sense of community here. So don't lose hope, my friend. Things will improve.

posted June 27, 2023 03:08 PM            

Tr Pluto made several challenging transits while in the 4th house, to my planets and points in other angular houses, including luminaries. One of my main goals during that time was to buy my own apartment, which would give me some sense of stability. The first thought when I earned my first money was to put it aside so that I can afford it one day. Just when Pluto was leaving my 4th house, tr Saturn entered it. That’s when I moved back from abroad to my home country and lived with my parents almost for the whole duration of Saturn stay there. When Saturn was leaving the 4th house I bought my own apartment, with my own savings and a little help from my parents, and no mortgage was involved. It is a lovely place in a lovely area where I have been living for the last 5 years. My natal 4th house has now no major transits in it and it’s all quiet on the home front : )

From the perspective of time, I think Pluto placed me in interesting places, very unusual, something completely different. Hard as I tried it was never really meant to last but it did contribute to building my own, strong foundation.

posted June 30, 2023 02:19 PM            

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Originally posted by basket-of-despair:
Damn. It's so good that you were lucky enough to have Saturn coming after stuff to help fix Pluto's destruction. Unfortunately my placements mean Pluto will come to destroy everything my Saturn helped me stabilize.

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posted June 30, 2023 03:55 PM            

What Pluto wants from you is to exercise your power at home: to be more clear within yourself what you feel, to be more clear what your needs are so that you can clear away obstructions (usually internal) to getting what you need. Also, the main transit at work in recent years is Pluto's transit parallel natal Moon — which is just about to be over — that has been at work for most of these many years. Also, Saturn's square to natal Moon in recent months that has reinforced it. I strongly recommend keeping some Amethyst on your body to help lift your spirits, especially as the Saturn transit retrogrades back into a tighter square.

In astrology there are most descriptions, not necessarily solutions for this. The solution is in the power you carry with you to co-create your life.

It is a power we access when we set aside the problem from our minds and all the irritation or frustration and communicate with Spirit/The Universe to bring about the desired solution — without telling it how. Let the universe's reach into the unknown bring about the solution in a surprising way. In a peaceful, meditative state envision yourself at peace in a stable home and verbalize that, commanding (not asking or begging) that it be brought into being for the betterment of all who will be affected. That is the key: the inclusive benevolence that recognizes our connectedness to what is around us. We are all connected so that our own peace benefits others. Envisioning this with love and gratitude amplifies it, because the power is actually love.

You have a lot of power. We all do — when we access it through the positive consciousness of love and gratitude to put out waves of creative intent that will come back to us.

You've got Mercury trine and parallel Pluto. I know if you focus your intent and communicate it clearly to Spirit you will get what you need. It takes time for the window of opportunity to open, but be certain that it will happen.

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posted June 30, 2023 06:18 PM            

I do still have one question though.

What about all the good things I got in my life unexpectedly where I *didn't* do any of that?

I don't understand why I essentially have to do the astrological version of prayer to get this one thing.