posted July 08, 2009 12:06 AM         

-So I want to apologise to LL for cluttering it with my dumb threads..

-I want to apologise to MVM, about the "I hate" thread when I called my fellow Virgos picky arseholes, were not and I was in the wrong.

-An apology to Capricorn Mooners, my mom had some inner demons..it's not always about Astrology. The Capricorn Mooners on here that I know of have been nothing but the upmost supporters on LL.

-Also to Amowls and Lucia about VirgOH's behavior, as a fellow Virgo, the way he talked down to you..is not the Virgo way.

-An apology to Lara about the Chakra thread..I think I may have started that fued with the "Imma a badarse visionary" joke =S.

-I want to apologise to T and Valus for that Celeb thread, my frustrations were high but that does not give me the right to add fuel to the fire.

-I want to apologise to Coffee about the Weed vs. Alcohol thread, I went way to personal on that thread and vomited out my emotional crap on you..that was uncalled for, if I need to get emotional crap out..I should call a therapist.

-Also apologizing about the higher up leaving thread..I was out of my flipping mind and once again taking emotional crap out on people, which is my biggest problem.

-To Glacaus, I am sorry for all you've gone through on LL, as a fellow Pisces Moon..I know about speaking from the heart and trying to understand other people and equality but we have to just accept that people are the way they are, a.k.a VDL.

-VDL if I hijacked one of your threads with my newbish garbage I aplogise.

I think thats all and I'll leave it at this..

A Song lol..

Heart of the Matter by India Arie-

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

posted July 08, 2009 12:08 AM         

Lovely post!

posted July 08, 2009 12:26 AM         

and thank you!

HUGS

Raymond

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posted July 08, 2009 12:53 AM         

I don't know VDL, I don't know anyone on here personally, I haven't been here long to know but what I do know is everyone on here deserves respect even if we don't agree with eachother and rub eachother the wrong way but you know what it happens because were so comfortable here..ya know like bickering couples..we fight but eventually we all make up.

posted July 08, 2009 06:29 AM         

I have always found you to be kind and caring in your posts.

posted July 08, 2009 11:00 AM         

T, Glaucus, koiflower,
teasel, Lara, lalalinda,
Dep Taurus, Yin,

posted July 08, 2009 02:22 PM         

i keep finding myself wondering why it is so hard for people to speak their minds without someone being offended! or being offensive while doing so? surely the language is wide enough to include plenty of judgment without resorting to kindergarten tantrums and teenage name-calling?

posted July 08, 2009 02:35 PM         

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i keep finding myself wondering why it is so hard for people to speak their minds without someone being offended! or being offensive while doing so?

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Ahh, but we are only human, katatonic. We are scared and selfish and vain and self-righteous along with compassionate, kind, loving and forgiving.
I think of LL as a place where people get to push some internal boundaries they may have. Those boundaries cannot easily be breached in a real life face-to-face conversation so the spirits run wild online. It truly is cathartic. This medium creates a magical space for soul-sharing and soul-touching on a very different emotional level.
At any rate, how can there be light if you don't experience the darkness first?

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surely the language is wide enough to include plenty of judgment without resorting to kindergarten tantrums and teenage name-calling?

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LOL. For some of us non-native speakers this language is still pretty "narrow". Name-calling is not OK in my book but sometimes people just run out of words.

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after all we come here to hear other people's takes on things, right? vive les differences!

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posted July 08, 2009 03:29 PM         

i am a big grown up girl and i realize i can think things with out actually saying them. wont happen again.