posted August 14, 2009 12:36 AM         

~ I have come to realize that I am an @sshole. My judgment and common sense is crap and I am gullible as a fool without the ability to scrutinize praise without divulging all my secrets. I open up in poor light. That's my fault.

My confession ~ I have said things in mildly-poor taste about PA and Valus behind their backs, and usually I say the things I could say to their face, but this time I did not. So, Peace Angel & Valus I am sorry. (i am not sure why PA left, if you wondering I don't think this had anything to do with it.)

I knew I made a mistake over a week ago and didn't have the courage to tell DFD that she was getting carried away. I am too polite and don't want to make anyone feel bad.

By the way, I have no ill feelings toward DFD, or any one else! And I never said I did. I care about all of you. I should have used more common sense before anyone get's hurt. Talking about others is rude if you can't say it to their face. Its rude regardless if it's not positive. I take full responsibility for my part, any hurt inflicted, and I don't know who else was involved.

Nothing else can be said because I don't to want to invade any ones privacy.
I will take a break from here and depending on how some of you feel, I understand if you would be surprised and totally p!ssed at me.

posted August 14, 2009 12:51 AM         

You're a good girl SunChild, it takes integrity to admit you made a mistake.

posted August 14, 2009 11:54 AM         

I concur with the posters who have commended SunChild on admitting her faults and mistakes. It is a rare quality, partly because, all too often, people take such admissions as opportunities to kick a person when he/she is down. More often still, such honest admissions are ignored, and the people brave and honest enough to make them continue to be told that they never apologize or admit to error. And all too often, the ones who apologize and admit to imperfections and errors are only remembered for their imperfections and errors, and not for their remorse or their admissions. In truth, these tend to be the people who are most honest with themselves, as well as others, while the ones who remind them of their mistakes are all too quick to overlook their own. I believe that frequent admission of one's own faults leads to tolerance for the faults of others, and those who do not admit their own faults to themselves and to the ones they've hurt, are among the most intolerant. Moreover, to admit when you are wrong suggests that it is not your pride which insists on being right (in instances where you insist that you are right). Nevertheless, people who frequently confess their wrongs are still told, over and over again, that they are speaking from stubborn pride, when they insist on the validity of their positions. For my part, I will be slow to interpret SunChild's firm stance on an issue as a symptom of pride, now that I know she has the flexibility and integrity to admit it when she is mistaken. I only hope that others will do the same for me, and remember my admissions, not for the mistakes they followed upon, but for the humility that prompted them. Also, that they will see that I have earned the right to pronounce some of my own behaviors as humble, by having pronounced others as arrogant. False modesty is as pernicious as false pride. It is a shame that the people who are most candid about both their virtues and their vices are so frequently criticized; for asserting their virtues, and possessing their vices.

I am not so emotionally invested today as I was yesterday, and I am prepared to admit what I see as the excesses of my behavior, and to take a more understanding attitude in relation to D for Defiant. While I believe, and have no compunction in saying so, that she is profoundly imbalanced and poses a very real danger, I no longer wish to judge or feel anger towards her for this, but to sincerely desire her health and well-being, for her own sake, as well as for others'.