posted October 08, 2009 08:05 AM         

Just to let you know I'll be taking time out from LL until I can get online at home.

This is going to sound nuts but I had a message from Saturn last night... stay with me

Um, I had a "conversation" with Saturn and Pluto last night. I was asking questions and they were responding, as my friends. They said that I need to sort out my life, which includes getting rid of the guilt I feel in being on here in work. So no more of this (or facebook or anything else for a while) They also said that I was taking in too much information, which is why I feel constantly nuts and nervy, and it was time to process now. And to act.

As many of you know I have been writing in some detail about my relationship with my fella and asking for advice etc, which many of you have helped me with. Thank you.

It's now time for me to go away and act on this and digest it. It's also time to clear up the areas of my life which I am unhappy with, and which I need to take responsibility for. There are many areas. I have been lunching out my responsibilities, to Pisces, to work, to my family and my friends.

This is all clear to me now. I know the thing about Saturn and Pluto sounds bonkers, but I woke up at 4am this morning, out of a vivid dream and whatever questions I asked myself about my life I had clear verbal responses in my head from Saturn, Pluto and my NN (in Cap). Pluto is transiting my North Node, opposing Saturn and hooking up to Mars and my ascendent, making a big earth/water kite (see below). This transit has been with me for months and it makes sense now.

Pluto was telling me she's my friend and that I knew what I needed to weed out from my life. Yes, she was a lady, the gentlest lady. Saturn said "There is no opposition to the NN from me. The opposition is in your head. Your NN is in Capricorn, ruled by Saturn - me! Here is the light, if you follow your NN then you are 'doing your Saturn'"

Mars in Taurus and my Virgo ascendent piped up with "We will help you stay grounded".

And I got a big vision of the kite being like a bow and arrow, as I have read about, with ME being the arrow, going towards the NN, towards the light.

Nuts? Lucid dream? Could have been. I don't know, but it was a big confirmation for me that astrology is real. I was not drunk! Saturn said "Start tomorrow! Don't delay!" and so I am.

Dearest dearest people. Thanks all so much. I had a talk with Pisces last night too and I told him what I've said to you guys in my Knowflake thread. I was very proud of myself that I did it calmly and with love. And what I got back was love (dear Zala, you are right, I love you Zala). Now I need to work things through with him. No further input needed from you guys, time for action now, time to stop procrastinating. I do believe having a relationship with him is very much my life lesson right now. And I believe it can work if I stop blaming and address my own stuff with maturity. I am excited.

I know I sound nuts but I have never felt more clear headed. I will be back and until then all be well, and much love from me.

posted October 08, 2009 08:08 AM         

So... wheels, when you get this you get this.

I look forward to speaking with you when you come back.

Until then, I wish you all the best my friend. You will be missed. But you will be back. I look forward to then.

posted October 08, 2009 08:14 AM         

We'll still be here when you get back.

Enjoy your time and I hope things settle down for you.

posted October 08, 2009 08:48 AM         

We'll all be waiting to welcome you home.

posted October 08, 2009 07:47 PM         

Happy trails to you wheels. See you on your journey back!

posted October 09, 2009 12:35 PM         

i know you were good contributor to the board,

i think i had a little conversation with you atleast once in a topic,

if that was you, i will miss you, it was interesting lol