posted October 29, 2009 02:18 AM
Thank you very much , all!
It's greatly appreciated!
Yesterday morning, I prayed to the Universe/God for guidance,strength,courage,etc. I also called out for my maternal grandfather and asked for his help and guidance for I believe that he is my spirit guide which a psychic Dashini recently confirmed to me. I told him how much I missed him. I told him how much I loved him. I just poured my heart to him including even apologizing to him for not being there for him as much as I should.
I know that he loved me just like I love him. I know that he's watching over me. I am open for any guidance that he can give me to help me along my path. My fellow Pisces Moon grandpa.
I feel that my fellow Pisces Moon father is up there with him. I wish that he will give me guidance too.
I took out some tarot cards out of my decks for insight for my Solar Return year period.
Three of Wands dropped out of tarot deck unknowingly after I shuffled it:
It was the same that I picked for my last Solar Return period.
Three of Wands: Opportunity
Message: You need to become more aware of opportunities that exist for you right now. There may be more than you realize. To best see and tak advantage of them you must concentrate,cooperate, and remain openmidned.
Outcome: You will become aware of at least one great opportunity. It may not come in the form you expect. If you are alert, open-minded, and willing to cooperate, you will get your wish. The time to meet a great playmate,and maybe even your soul mate, may be here.
I met a shamanic healer during my last Solar Return period. He has the same birthday as my exgirlfriend,Meghann. He has Sun conjunct Eris within 1 degree like I have Sun conjunct South Eris Node. He is also a neuro-divergent who was in special education classes as a kid just like myself. Unexpectedly, he and I have developed a strong friendship. He and I go out to eat and the movies a lot. I even now go with him to healing/psychic fairs including a 2 day one in Reno. Anne Angelheart had recommended him for to do healing on me to deal with my fears,insecurities,and shyness after she told me that my life purpose is to help the Indigo/Crystal people which is something that both Steve and I can relate to. I just think that it's just a New Age term for neuro-divergent. A lot of neuro-divergents are metaphysically oriented,but they keep it to themselves. Unfortunately,many have been misdiagnosed as having psychotic disorders.
Because of my friendship with Steve, I have been making friends in the healing/psychic arts community. He is a person who doesn't tell me what I want to hear. He tells me what I need to hear like his telling me that Meghann is not coming back. I thank God/The Universe for him.
I believe that Steve is a soulmate of mine. He told me that we had pastlives as friends,cousins,and siblings.
here is the post that I did on my synastry with him http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/000811.html
He also recommended Stacy, a massage therapist for me to see to get massages. I get massages every month now.
I also joined an essential oils meetup group,and she happens to have ADHD herself. I have learned about essential oils. She liked all the information that I told her about neuro-divergence.
During my last Solar Return period, I became a member of Spiritual Life Center which is an interfaith unity church. It was the first spiritual/religious organization that I became a member of. I tend to be a free spirit when it comes to spirituality,religion. I didn't like being involved in groups and communities. I was a bit of a loner. I felt that I needed a spiritual home and make friends with likeminded people. I also felt that I could use the church to help me with my neuro-diversity advocacy. I realized that I want to form a non-profit neuro-diversity organization. I started an astrological tribenet group for neurodivergence. I started a Neuro-Diversity meetup group. I have recently been made a moderator for a web community that has to do with helping children with learning differences. I also made a friend in Second Life that introduced me to Eckhart Tolle's teachings that led me to get his books, THE NEW EARTH and POWER OF NOW. His teachings resonate with me and help me understand the importance of living in the present moment. I have been getting interested in THE SECRET,watching the DVD,and going to a meetup group on it. I gave the book to my mother and lent my DVD to my aunt. I also created a vision board to attract my future wife/mother of my children. I am looking forward to her coming into my life. I even did something unique by pasting 3 of my Arthurian Legend Tarot Cards on the board including Queen of Hearts in the center, Queen of Wands in the top left corner, and Queen of Shields in the top right corner.
other positive things that happened are re-connecting to certain people on Facebook. I reconnected with old friends that I haven't had contact since 1991. I re-connected with relatives including one that I hadn't contact with since my grandfather's funeral in 1998. I opened up the truth to them about my special education past,neuro-divergence,and the negative feelings that I had about myself. I kept those things secret from friends for all the time that I had known them because I didn't want them to treat me any differently like I was treated in my special education years.
any ways. The 3 of Wands Tarot Card Played out big time.
I am looking forward to it playing out again big time in a positive way.
I picked the Moon out of the Tarot Deck:
Message: You need to go on without a clear picture of where you are, where you are going, or where you have been. You do not have to fear the unknown. With intuition and faith in yourself and benevolent forces you can succeed.
Outcome: You may encounter darkness,fear,or confusion. You will be challenged to go on without a clear picture of the past,present,or future. Depend on faith, intuition, and benevolent forces to lead you safely home. Get in touch with your dreams.
Interestingly, I have Lunar Return on the Same Day as my Solar Return!
using whole sign house system:
Lunar Return Moon in 3'45 Pisces in 5th
conjunct Natal Moon in 3'11 Pisces in 7th
trine Sun in 5'20 Scorpio in 1st
trine Mercury in 0'21 Scorpio in 1st
Therefore, Lunar Stuff is going to be a prominent thing in my Solar Return period
Neptune in 23'42 Aquarius R in 4th
oppose/conjunct Midheaven/Imum Coeli in 21'40 Leo/Aquarius
fits with the tarot card in regards to faith,intuition,dreams
I have Neptune in 4th natally.
I also decided to pick a tarot card out of my Quest Tarot. The other deck wasn't made for reverse meetings
I picked the Emperor-Establishment
Stone Influences: Diamond
Stone Associations: Aquamarine,Bloodstone,Emerald
Letter of Roman Alphabet: E
Card Number: Four
Hebrew Letter: Heh, or He; Window
Rune: Ansuz or Anor, A; Stag or Mouth
it was faceup:
When faceup, The Emperor represents structured power. A person of accomplishments and achievements. The Emperor card is favorable when question is posed about new projects. Creation of wealth. Now is the time to start the project. Tendency toward violence and protectionism. Sexual power and the ability to be irresistible to others. The Emperor makes you think of tall government structures that hold and manipulate power. The Emperor is a powerful individual and not to be messed with. The buck stops with him.
I believe the 3 tarot cards reflect the following things:
Midheaven in 21'40 Leo
oppose Jupiter in 17'33 Aquarius.
the conjunction of:
Sun in 5'20 Scorpio
Mercury in 0'21 Scorpio
square Mars in 5'43 Leo in 10th
trine Moon in 3'45 Pisces in 5th
Venus in 17'01 Libra in 12th
trine Jupiter in 17'33 Aquarius in 4th
At the Reno Psychic Fair on October 24th, Dashini told me that in 2 weeks that I will have a dream message in regards to stepping into my future. It's about telling me about purpose and mission in life.
She also told me that I will have another large chunk of information around January 25th which happens to be the anniversary of my grandfather's death which occurred in 1998.
She seemed to confirm that I am in the right direction in regards to neuro-diversity advocacy and Astrology. She told me that a lot of people will be coming to me in June of next year.
She even told me that I will have my own business in September of next year.
She sees growing independent from Steve's influence by January of next year. I guess that I won't be seeing him for healing work that much. I see him twice a week. Actually, he might be moving to Hawaii in the Summer of next year.
She also told me to not worry about my mother in regards to her health problems.
She told me that I don't have to be afraid of having to separate my Astrology from Neuro-diversity Advocacy. I've been concerned that if I form a nonprofit Neuro-Diversity organization which I want to be a mainstream thing, people would slam for being an astrologer. I want to help people with learning/neurological differences through Astrology. I want to explore the learning/neurological difference indicators in Astrology. I am afraid that those things will lead people to not take my neuro-diversity seriously. Instead of thinking that I am a neuro-divergent,they might see me as psychotic. Many neuro-divergents have been misdiagnosed as psychotics because of their different ways of thinking and perceiving things.
Look at how fellow neuro-divergent Tom Cruise who has a history of Dyslexia and ADHD,and how gets slammed for his involvement in Scientology and how its study technologies helped with his Dyslexia and speaking out against ADHD children being medicated with psyche drugs. Of course, I am into non-medicating ways of treating neuro-divergent problems.
any ways....I am going to have figure out how I can do both Astrology and Neuro-diversity so they don't interfere with each other.
She told me that my Neuro-diversity advocacy will be a big part of my life, and that Astrology will be in background like 20 percent of my work.
in regards to love,relationships,marriage:
She also told me that I am going to meet my future wife around April 26th of next year. She said that she's dark blonde with hazel eyes. She will be very nice,sweet,and kind. She will be into the psychic/healing arts, but not deep into it. She will be like getting into that stuff. She won't be like the experienced one guiding me. She also told me that she won't be a neuro-divergent like me,but she will be very understanding of neuro-divergence.
She and I won't get serious until August of next year. She told me that she and I will be married in November. She even said that she and I will have 2 children,and that they will both be boys.
The things that she told me seems to fit with my New Solar Return period.
I would like to meet my future wife earlier than April 26th of this year. I think that with the Law of Attraction, I can do that. I will focusing intensely on my vision board. My 7th house will be packed with 4 planets in March.
I have a lunar return on Valentines Day of next year with Moon-Venus-Jupiter conjunct in Pisces.
any ways... I have decided to take Astrology up a step. I have already asked Steve to refer his clients to me for readings.
I am also looking forward to being a good moderator for Learning Link Technologies web community.
I have decided to join a gym which is in walking distance from me. With Sun square Mars under 1 degree in my Solar Return period, I believe that I need to get more physically active and work out to channel passion,aggression. I want to avoid fights and violence. I know that it can be a period where I can be involved in those things. Therefore,I know that I need a constructive outlet. I have to watch my temper and not let my anger get the best of me.
I can use the aspect for being assertive,action-oriented,direct,passionate,and even confident as well as maybe a little risktaking. I am not risktaker. I only gamble 40 dollars in Reno. hahahaha
any ways.......I am ready to Rock!
I am going to spend birthday with Mom. Yeah..I know..I am a mama's boy. Next birthday, I will be spending it with my future wife!
Thanks again for all the birthday wishes.
I wish all my fellow Solar Scorpions happy birthday too!
Love n' Light
"Nothing matters absolutely;
the truth is it only matters relatively"
- Eckhart Tolle