posted January 15, 2011 05:16 AM            

Now before you get all squinky with me, I am asking the question in good faith.
Does anyone else feel like this...ever?
Am I becoming less enlightened?
Is it a phase in my growth or a phase in my decline?

I don't feel depressed...at all.
Is this maybe why? I don't need to read people's personal outpourings?
Or is it that I have ceased to care?

This worries me slightly and I would be very interested in your comments.

And I must add it's not because I have gone all huffy and have issues with anyone on here. Not at all.
But I have felt like this for quite a few months and I am concerned about my spiritual well being.
LL was always the home for my spirit side and now I feel as if the door has closed.

And I have absolutely no idea why.

posted January 15, 2011 06:21 AM            

It's a phase. I have gone through it myself in the past.All I needed was a break.It has nothing to do with you becoming less enlightened or that you don't care.

posted January 15, 2011 11:04 AM            

I know exactly what you mean.

And the good news is...

There is nothing wrong with you at all.

The way I see it is that you are moving perfectly towards growth. It's not that you have become uncaring or anything. It is just that you have become a better "allower", if there is such a word. You have become more adept at allowing you to be who you want to be and in the process allowing people to be themselves.

I think the reason why you are not interested in other people's personal outpourings is because you are tuned in to a different "frequency", one that suits you and makes you feel good. You have become more focused on things you want and less on things you don't want -- which I believe is the best way to live.

This may be off-tangent but I feel compelled to share:

Some time back I watched a DVD by Caroline Myss where she talked about the concept of "wound mates". She said that it has become a norm for us to form and sustain relationships with people with whom we share a similar wound (painful experience).

I must admit I used to be one of "them" -- people who use wound power to validate their existence... people who feel they are nothing and nobody without their "story". But what Myss said awakened me and has stuck with me since.

So I made a conscious decision to not attract any more wound mate relationships online and offline. In fact, I dropped many people from my life once I discovered that they were wound mates. When I saw that they didn't have any plans of changing their story to something better, I realized I didn't have anything in common with them anymore... and that it was time to sever the connection. It may sound selfish to some, but for my highest good I had to discontinue tuning in to the favorite "programme" we once shared.

One other thing: a grave misconception that people have is that they believe that the more a person becomes enlightened, the less he will perceive pain, darkness or negativity around him. The truth is he will become more aware of them... because his "expansion" causes him to see more.

The key here is that with enlightenment comes a decision, a decision as to which side of the polarity we choose to align ourselves with. We now see from a higher perspective, from a wider vantage point. Do we expend our energy and attention on misery or on joy? I don't know about others, but I choose to not pay attention to anything that doesn't make me feel good. I know full well that I am giving energy to what I focus on.

So, the answer to your question is NO, you are not becoming less enlightened. Maybe you're just bored or something, meaning you need to explore new/more/different avenues of expression and excitement.

I will leave you with one of my favorite quotations (he is talking about the mind, most likely the physical mind, but he could very well be talking about self-awareness, expansion of consciousness or enlightenment):

"The mind, once expanded to the dimensions of larger ideas, never returns to its original size." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

posted January 16, 2011 07:28 PM            

I've always appreciated you, and I've never told you.

posted January 17, 2011 04:32 AM            

No, it was actually an examination of why I should feel like this.
I remember when my father died in 1983 and I had just had a baby and I became so "earthy" it was untrue.

I absolutely adored my father and was broken hearted but I would lie in bed thinking
"Please Dad, don't visit me, don't come to me, don't show yourself.
So of course he did....several times!!
But I could relate to why I was feeling like that. I didn't read horoscopes for years and I didn't yearn for any spiritual learnings.
Obviously I was "earth mothering"

But it's something slightly different now.
I can see how we trap ourselves in boxes of our own making.
Don't get me wrong, I can do it as good as anybody but sometimes I read outpourings and think
"Jeez, read what you've just written, the bloody answers right in front of you!

Or stop manipulating transits. Just go out and have a relationship and bounce along with it and see where it leads. Never mind if this is conjunct that or aspecting this, just go and deal with the consequences.

In this day and age (in a Carrie Bradshawesque voice)

"Must we now have a satellite navigation for our life?"

Deux

posted March 01, 2011 05:12 AM            

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Originally posted by bunnies:
This is not in any way shape or form a criticism, but nothing at all resonates with me on this site anymore.
I have been on LL probably for 5 years and have always found it interesting, illuminating and fun.
But now I just check it through habit. And I can't find anything at all to spark my interest to even bother participating.

Now before you get all squinky with me, I am asking the question in good faith.
Does anyone else feel like this...ever?
Am I becoming less enlightened?
Is it a phase in my growth or a phase in my decline?

I don't feel depressed...at all.
Is this maybe why? I don't need to read people's personal outpourings?
Or is it that I have ceased to care?

This worries me slightly and I would be very interested in your comments.

And I must add it's not because I have gone all huffy and have issues with anyone on here. Not at all.
But I have felt like this for quite a few months and I am concerned about my spiritual well being.
LL was always the home for my spirit side and now I feel as if the door has closed.

And I have absolutely no idea why.

Anybody??

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Lately I've been having similar feelings.It will pass.

Hope you're well Bunnies.

posted March 01, 2011 07:18 AM            

I never eat them.