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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted January 25, 2011 11:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I'm reaching out cause I am not sure where to turn right now. It's like I'm at a point where I feel completely lost about who I am, mainly because I've been soo wrapped up in survival these past nearly 8 years, I haven't stopped to take a good long hard look at what I want in life. I'm not even approaching my Saturn Return for another two years, so I don't know where all this upheaval is orginating and why NOW?

I like my current profession as a massage therapist, and I like the freedom of working for myself, but it is not and will never be my Passion the way it is for some therapists. I am average "good" at a lot of things and never really had something stand out where I could say: "Oh, this is my "calling", this is what I am meant to have a career in!". I always envied those who had a natural "path", per se, those who were recognized early on as just fitting.

If you have any wisdom to offer, I am all ears. Just for reference sake, here is my chart with current transits:

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woah cakes
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posted January 26, 2011 02:28 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for woah cakes     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
okay i'm getting a DANCE vibe off of your chart: physical/bodily taurus NN/lilith conjunction trine your virgo/6th stuff (technical proficiency) with a leo venus in the 5th and leo moon! you gotta show off (leo) and not give up AND keep grounded in physicality and sensuality (taurus NN). does dance appeal to you on any level? maybe just a class?

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woah cakes
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posted January 26, 2011 02:31 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for woah cakes     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
also, neptune on your MC probably makes you feel this uncertainty BUT look at all the trines it makes!!! neptune is verrrry artistic, so that corroborates dance or performance art or something along those lines to me. puppeteering? something artistic but physical. acting?

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted January 26, 2011 09:22 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
woahcakes,

Thanks so much for taking a look. It is really funny you mention dance because dancing (just for the heck of it, not exactly trained moves) are one of the few things in my life that can consistently lift my mood. That, and yoga. I did take a few years of ballet back in middle school, but felt very awkward in my skin back then, so I stopped. Dance class sounds like an awesome idea.

I've always felt artistic, but extremely self-judgemental. My paternal side of the family had/has artistic tendencies (fashion designing, architect, portrait painting).

It's really neat you picked up on the whole physicality thing as if I don't burn physical energy during a day, I redirect it into anxiety and worry. I always attributed that to my Aries Rising, but the NN in Taurus makes sense too.

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Ami Anne
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posted January 26, 2011 09:43 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
((((Virgo Aries Artist)))

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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face,touch and feel the dregs of Nessus before you can grasp the pristine beauty of Neptune.
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charmainec
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posted January 26, 2011 12:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for charmainec     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
VAA

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woah cakes
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posted January 26, 2011 02:32 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for woah cakes     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
cool! it's really interesting that you called the thread 'out of TOUCH' as well. i have NN in the 8th so i'm 'too' taurean (as well i have a taurus moon) in some ways, but i've known lots of people with scorpio/8th SNs and grounding in SOME kind of physical activity is such a necessity for them. also letting go of self-sabotage! dance is soooo good, as is yoga! massage therapy is good in that it is hands on but it seems like you need to be expressing yourself as well!

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GypseeWind
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posted January 26, 2011 04:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hello VAA;
I have the same asc, nodes and packed sixth as you do, so I feel ya!

Last year I started really reading up on Taurus NN and have been trying to work toward that destiny.
To me, it's about learning to stand on your own two feet and support yourself in all ways. Sometimes it's easy to fall into SN moments of torment over the past and what all has been lost.

I found that the harder I worked, the BETTER I felt. Plus, having a packed sixth is always going to give a flavor of service given to your life.. and a virgo sun, no less.

I found that I have the ability to be more, and push harder than I ever thought was possible (job/physical wise) at my last job.

I understand the searching for meaning (sag sun) boy, do I ever, but sometimes, we don't find that, or we find that we've known it all along.

Here is a great article on Taurus NN, I hope you get something from it, I know I did. http://tribes.tribe.net/moonsnodes/thread/bf1c2bf2-a0b0-4780-8465-4f58343bccd5

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted January 26, 2011 04:40 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Yeah, woahcakes, it is ironic that I called it out of TOUCH, LOL. Self-sabotage majorly bites, and I aspire to rid myself of these tendencies, and express them healthily through my Leo energies.

GypseeWind, thanks for the uplifting words and they mean a lot, especially when they come from one with the same Asc, nodes and packed 6th house...I swear this combo feels like a curse some days, but that is just my reaction to it. If I knew what work to do, I would gladly give my all, as I did when I was an intern at Disney.

I liked the article on Taurus North Nodes, even when it spoke of tendencies within me that I would rather not admit. I don't know why I am still drawn to such Scopionic BS activities, and I would like to think I'm closer to Taurus, but hey, who knows? To me, right now, every day is just totally without purpose and I question every moment of every day why I am still breathing... I'm stuck, and honestly there isn't much of a light anywhere, and I feel like collapsing into a well of self-pity and defeat. Something has to give, and some days escapism has it's appeal. Maybe that is my Neptune talking...

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posted January 26, 2011 05:37 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Well, I'll tell you a long story in a short way.

I went on a huge spiritual quest/ idenity crisis at around 35-ish.
I felt that I was 'not enough', not filling my potential, and not making a mark in this world. All I was, was a bartender and a wife/mother. It didn't seem like what I was put here to do..

So, I went back to college to get a degree in Art Therapy.
I felt awesome while I was in school, the learning was incredibly exhilerating for me.

However.. as the end loomed near, I started to understand that even though THIS job would be different it was still a job... like the countless other jobs that I had.
It still had its crappy moments, as nothing is ever pure bliss 24/7.

Well, anyway, I didn't pass my last 3 math courses... so I didn't graduate.
I was offered some work in the field even though, and I didn't take it.
I did end up working for a doctor for awhile though.

I got really depressed and down on myself and I thought, "What kind of joke is this? To get this close to my destiny, and then be a failure??? You've got to be kidding me!!!"

I was REALLY feeling that Scorpio SN for a longgggggg time.

Then I got offered a job, quite by chance, bartending.
So, I took it.
Which led to another on..
And another..

I realized one day, as I was listening to a Vietnam Vetran talk about his life, and his hardships while drinking his coffee, that I had what I wanted ALL ALONG! I really AM a therapist, and I really DO help people!
Yes, being just a bartender, and just a Mother is enough, more than enough, as long as we STRIVE (not always can we be, at every second, cos we're human) the best 'whatever' thing we are.

So, if you are stuck right now, I feel it is the Universe asking you to sit back and reflect, rethink, reframe, do all your 'RE'S'.
Perhaps right at THIS moment you are just supposed to be the best Virgo Aries Artist you can be... and that is all.

I think of our aspirations like a limbo bar.
It's a great dance and all, but don't bend under them, raise the bar!

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Virgo-AriesArtist
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posted January 26, 2011 05:54 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Virgo-AriesArtist     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
GypseeWind, your words just clicked for me wight now as I was reading them. And it's odd to say my mother just called and one of the companies she is working for (she's a homecare MSW who works part-time for 20-25 small companies) is looking for good office help and since they've met me, want me to consider the position. Maybe being there will be another step in my life purpose, and I am willing to open up and take the chance, as the Universe never delivers anything but what we are intended to experience.

I am being the best Virgo-AriesArtist I can right now, and this is making me RE-evaluate my "passions" and actually inspiring some pretty great poetry, and gotten me back into song-writing, and making me RE-consider other loves I gave up along the way, from dancing to baking, to photography...it's a big soup pot of possibilities, and I feel at least that I no longer define myself by what I "Do"...oddly enough, these words above just came to me as I am writing in response to you. Epiphanies come in the craziest of moments, and I am grateful for your thought-provoking stories and support.

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GypseeWind
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posted January 26, 2011 06:07 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
YES! Ephiphanies DO come at the strangest moments.
Just like that moment with the Vet and his coffee... I was "clock Watching" and wishing I was anywhere, but there..

And the sun was streaming in through the door, as it was a lovely spring day..
Something about the way the sun shone on his face, as he was talking about a life wrecked by the ravages of war, was just so incredibly humbling and beautiful to me..
And that is when I had my ephiphany!

You just never know the effect you can have on another human being. Whether you are a great artist, or an office worker, it doesn't matter cos we have the opportunity to touch lives every SINGLE day..
We just have to reach out.

And you know what? Someone could of been farther down than you were today, and they could be reading your plight, and maybe THEY found some hope, or had an epiphany, so in that case, it would all be worth it, right?

As for advice..
When you get to your office job, try to savor it.
Learn to live in the moment. Smell the office supplies, listen to the sound of paper.
Embrace that job and that environment with all your heart, the best that you can, because that is the way to this NN, I swear, it's been working for me.

And you are very right, pain creates awesome art. It's a good muse, but so is joy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGWU4QhJ4L8

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posted January 27, 2011 03:37 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for charmainec     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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