posted August 20, 2012 07:39 AM            

For almost 2 years Im in the relationship with the Gemini guy - everything was great at the beginning, there was a kind of telepathy between us (but much less than with the next guy about who Im going to write down), I just couldnt stand some of his behaviour and didnt understand it, but I thought it would be fine in time. We understand each other, we have interesting topics for talking, we both are interested in esoteric, so we spend a lot of time to talk about it, we like traveling. We are both students, he is foreigner studying in my country and he lives in other city so we can see each other one or two times per two weeks, on the weekend.
One year ago, he did something what broke my trust in him, but I decided to give him a second chance, because in many ways I thought we have really nice relationship. But as I see, since this time things go worse. Sometimes we have quite hard times, fighting, arguing etc. It is also due to our different character, Im introverted person, he is extroverted. I find him quite childish and untrustworthy, and always when I am sad after some of our hard argument, I go to talk to my really great friend Aquarius, about who Im going to write down. I cant talk to my boyfriend most of the time, because in these "after arguing sittuations" he is like the stone - doesnt want to communicate with me, doesnt want to do anything, resolve the problem etc. And he makes me nervous, so I always find the comfort and calm at this Aquarian guy:

And now, the main point of this "story" - this summer I finaly met my longtime very good friend Aquarius (we know each other for 5 years, but just through the internet, mainly skype and webcam). I spent with him and his family 5 weeks in his country (he doesnt live in my country), because of my summer project. We had really great time, and we "verified" that we understand each other really incredibly (we just found out this fact during these 5 years that we used to talk almost every day on skype). Soon he felt in love with me and me a bit later with him. We can read our minds, there is a kind of telepathy between us, we have a lot of fun (we have similar sense of humour, I find him really funny and he find me really funny too), we agree with many things, from cooking to politics and religion, the fact is that he is more rational and practical and Im more intuitive and restless. There is also really high degree of respect and admiration on both side. And - there is really strong attraction and chemistry between us. I have admit that I havent felt too much attraction for anyone yet.
For all these 5 years I knew him just by skype I found him like really trustworthy person, someone to who I can rely and I verified this fact during the time spended with him in real. I feel simply great with him, secure, like a real woman. He is mostly introverted, but with a lot of charisma (at least for me) and he said that I changed his life in some way (and I see I really did, in past he used to be quite melancholic loner, now he is happy guy with a lot of self-confidence and will to live.)
We know that the great friendship that we were able to create during these 5 years of net-communication is really good base for possible relationship and love.

And now Im in this sittuation and I really dont know what to do. Im going to his country again, so we will meet again. He just plans everything, looking forward for me too much and me too, of course. But there is this fact that officially Im with this Gemini guy and I really dont want to hurt him. I feel like divided in two parts, but still thinking about this Aquarian guy...with whom I have a very uncertain future.