posted August 23, 2012 02:39 AM
I learned what I needed to know about myself. I did not realize that some of these other planets had this much effect on me. My biggest concept to grasp is my dark moon which sees nothing but blackness. I had an outburst tonight, my rage within did nothing to justify reality. I feel like I have been ****** with and then some and that does nothing for me either except make me morbid beyond words. I joined this astrology page because my last bf and I were into it heavily and we tried finding justice in our leo/cap relation. We couldn't find a mutual ground that gave us all we needed to justify our dual. He ended up leaving me in the worst time of my life for someone else. You couldn't imagine the damn knives that went through my heart. I cried and I cried like a baby! There was a brief intersession where he talked to me inbetween women. Another one came along and snapped him up just like that. I lost him, for good. He's not here anymore and he doesn't talk to me anymore. He was my best friend. God damn f*** him, I miss him! He is solely the reason I had to learn this stuff.
I met a Scorpion y'all heard me nagging about and obsessing over. I tried to stop my liking to him, but it was hard to do. He treated me differently then most guys do period. He left me very confused. At a time in my life when I should not be confused, I could not figure this character out. I talked about him alot on here because I never dealt with a Scorpion before. All I know are my Leos. I love and hate my ******* leos. I love and hate ******* scorpions too. Why does this guy have to be so ******* nice to me yet he doesn't want me? I did everything I could possibly think of and I'm nothing. I wish he would have never paid any attention to me if he was just going to play some stupid game. Guys like him need a lead barrel tip...this is how angry I am.
One of my ex Leos always told me no one can make me feel the way I do, I can only feel as so. Right, that means I feel like a piece of nothing that everyone leaves and they always have someone around. I learned alot coming on here. I'm going back to hating everyone. It does me no good to be great to these guys, they really don't give one flying f*** about me anyway.
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~Sunny~