posted December 16, 2013 08:40 AM            

I don't think I can keep up with many threads, so if I disappear again, I want you to know it's nothing personal and only my own fault for not being able to manage my life. None of these had anything to do with you.

I remember losing track of Mirage, Ellyn, Gabby and Mercurian especially - I am sorry for leaving mid-conversation. I want to apologize to you in particular.

It's just... I can't keep up anymore. I love this board and I was looking forward to talking to you. Life is just not okay right now. Won't be able to stay away for real (it's too much fun!), but if I get inactive again... well, you know. It didn't feel right to leave this hanging, especially not to you guys. I don't know when things are going to be better, so I can't do anything big right now.

posted December 16, 2013 01:16 PM            

Any competent Astrologer worth her salt can figure these things out for herself...

posted December 18, 2013 01:48 PM            

Many Blessings to you on your journey. May you find the Rewards. May benefic Angels be lining your pathways, to Light, to hold, and to Guard and direct you in your comings and goings...

Love you, Rianne... {{{ }}}

Power & Strength flow to your Body Vitality, and throughout your Being;

And {{{Ri }}} may you feel Protective Presences... with the most delicate gentlest soothing of balms for the aches and hurts of pains in the woundings. Grace, an ability to bear under weights, and brilliant illuminations within the darkness become your True Treasures...

...The People Dwelling in Darkness have Seen a Great Light

posted January 31, 2014 06:45 AM            

I'm taking another break. I've been getting irritated and affected by everything lately and it's getting too far. I can't lash out here.

It's just so frustrating, as I have no-one in real life to really talk to, get it off my chest. There's no-one I'm close enough for that aside from my family, and they're all having too many problems of their own.

I'll still finish the reading Lotus White gave me and if anyone wants to keep up contact with me over e-mail, go ahead! Actually, please do, you guys are lovely and it always cheered me up.

How long I'll be gone? I don't know. Maybe just a few days, maybe a week. I'm just too tired right now. Have been for at least a year.

My dog will be put down today and it just sucks. Can't stop crying. I'm dreading going there and then having her cremated. Ugh. I don't want to. ;_;

Life's too busy and LL is an escape. But I'm taking my problems over here. So yeah, I need some time away.

posted January 31, 2014 08:16 AM            

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posted January 31, 2014 11:20 AM            

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Love,

posted January 31, 2014 12:54 PM            

Veel sterkte toegewenst Meissieri.

posted January 31, 2014 04:38 PM            

I'M TERRIBLY SORRY FOR THE DEATH of your Beloved doggy....

Very sorry for your troubles right now... but PLEASE "consider" the things I expressed to you in "that" series of postings, and about your chart...

You can USE that melancholic Saturn that seats itself on the bottom of your chart 3H/ic...

Please don't give up hope!

I LOVE the advice that AMI ANNE SAID TO YOU~~ If you were to just clam-up further, closing yourself down like a big curling uterus around the seeds of sorrow, then ALL that repressed GRIEF and its sorrows can AMPLIFY and aggravate your condition in the body physical realms, as WELL as the emotional. May be hard to see it now, but later on you will 'realize' that this is a Test---- People of Destiny have their Visions and Dreams "tested"--- The Universe is looking to Build Quality into its future leaders. And you are surrounded by these Socially RIGHT NOW HERE AT LL!...

"All" of us here with you are FOR you. You came here to LL for a spirit-reason...

PLEASE, WHEN YOU COME BACK.....

ALL the "individuals" who are partaking together socially here, at this time right now, are on this Karmic journey together.... It is not accidental--- it was pre-ordained.

To All of us: All the ones who are with you. All the ones who seem to only want to fight. Even the ones who openly Love or pitifully Despise.....

It's hard to realize sometimes that this is ALL a Beautiful nourishing set of circumstances..... And, 'right now' Ri, we're (meta-physically) "here" for you!

GRIEF requires expression... Face it, or it can undermine the flow of everything in your life, and your Living. (There are plenty of us older-and-traumatized persons present here who can attest to that.

Stay alive, oh precious one!.... Though the things around you come to endings, though it seems that the universe taunts you with high-hope then 'seems' to let you down, STAY "Present" -- Past is past. Future is ALWAYS "in" THE FUTURE-- like a carrot on a stick. You can in a way always find 'disappointment' to be your bed-fellow. Seems at times to be designed to just "dangle" there. Your job is to FEEL your FEELINGS and just BE with them.

These are VERY unusual weird etheric karmic times right now.... "Let" the energy process your Being.... You've got a 'hard chart'----- but there's a BIG SECRET for people with 'hard charts'........ You've "chosen" it in order to GROW UP in the "Spiritual Realms".....

YOU are "not" an Ordinary person, so STOP "measuring" yourself to things on the outside that are NOT pertaining to YOUR good esoteric health!!

Perhaps..., In a few days...., we can lift up our heinny-skirts together and just tell that downspiraling spirit of grim-reaper "I honor you, I respect you, and I Thankyou FOR the very VALUABLE spiritual lessons you teach us"...... and!!!!!!! then we take up our human-self, the earth-self. It is the "HUMAN" prerogative to take up our 'feisty-selves' and for a moment, to hook arms together, and tell those OLD death and destruction doomy-predictors that it can just go kiss our farty beeee-hinds!!!! Do a Cancan Dance! (but I can't do any cartwheels... I suck at it )

FOR YOUR LATER TIME, look at the tragic life of Mozart.... Movie, AMADEUS.

(music) Mozart playing Salieri's music (clip from AMADEUS) [2:38] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7u4Mmv90BWc

(Ri.... you've got the talent!... Sorry for so much sorrows..... )

SO when you are "ready".... please CUT LOOSE!! Be crazy with your energy after this weekend.... Give YOURSELF a WILD imagination and go crazy out-of-your-box of heavy limitations.... It will be a SPA for that beautiful soul of yours!

We'll cry, we'll laugh, and we'll CRY together somemore, until Destiny arrives and lays itself down at the cloud of our feet...

At that new time, we'll laugh and Celebrate for the Joy and for the Wonder at what suspended-Time has brought....

Wishing you STRONG consolations at this hour, and Companionship in every sorrow, every joy, at every Moment.

Be Well.... Love to you....

posted January 31, 2014 05:44 PM            

On top of that, the writing partner I wrote about in another thread? You know how I predicted he'd back out when Venus would go direct? Yup. He just did. Ugh. Well, I'm not in the mood for writing now anyway.

But she's gone. I just wish she could've stayed with me. It happened earlier this evening. I lost it in the vet's room. My whole body hurt from the crying, it was like the stress and pain struck to my body instead. She was lying against me and I held her when she died. I felt her slipping away. It was all very peacefully and went smoothly, but it was awful to see and feel her die. It really was as if she just went to sleep. A couple of times, I still thought I saw her breathe again, so I got hope. But she wasn't.

I won't bottle it all up, though, Ami, Mirage, you're right I shouldn't back out too soon. I just didn't want to end up flooding the boards with my sadness. But one thread's okay.

posted January 31, 2014 10:24 PM            

No matter how long it takes, we'll leave the Light on for you...

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posted February 01, 2014 06:41 PM            

Thank you so much. Again, I'll try to get back to the posts more thoroughly when I've finally figured some things out. Still so confused, muddled...

posted February 04, 2014 06:09 PM            

Wishing you after the storms!

Might be hard to see right now, but eventually you'll be able to profit sooo deeply (on Soul Level) from that Silver on the Lining of your StormClouds of Tears~~

More precious than silver or gold, is the pearl of Wisdom. Maybe you 'can't take it with you' when it comes to money, and for what you perceive as 'missed opportunities' for Material wealths and possessions.

But Wisdom will be a thing that is planted deep for Eternity in your Soul-Being... "That" will wax and wane but it is a Part that cannot be taken away from you....

Stay healthy, Stay Beautiful, Stay Strong... The "you" that you will become over Time IS your VALUE! Nothing else compares...

posted February 04, 2014 06:45 PM            

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posted February 14, 2014 06:36 PM            

We're ALL just letting you know that we just wanna be there for You... !

(music) I Just Wanna Be There (Dusty Springfield, 1973) [2:44] http://vimeo.com/63383836