posted February 24, 2014 10:49 AM            

I'm leaving LL. Not sure if it will be for good, but at least for a while. I'll still chat in our thread, Muddy & Faith, and if Lotis is still finishing my reading, I'm waiting for that, too. But that's it.

Some of you have become wonderful friends and it kills me I have to leave you behind. Definitely would like to keep in touch over email or Skype if anyone wants to (and doesn't have it yet).

It's because of something that happened here. No names, not going to say anything on what or how - that's personal for everyone involved. Despite everything, I wouldn't want people meddling and dishing out nasty comments to them or make anyone feel they have to pick sides. But it's gotten to a point where I'm afraid to click on links, because of some posts. Too much here that reminds me of it.

So, I'm sorry I have to be so vague here. But I had a great time here and I care a lot about you guys. I'm going to miss you guys. I really will. It's just... it really makes me cry that I have to give this all up, the people, something I'm good at.

This is just not going to be worked out, no matter how badly I want to. It kills me. I'm really sorry, I've tried, but I can't stay here anymore. It doesn't feel the same anymore.

posted February 24, 2014 11:10 AM            

I look back at many things and Thank Heaven that my direction was changed.

At that point I surely didn't feel that way, though.

posted February 24, 2014 11:22 AM            

I tried to run from everything. Once my children could drive, I thought I was free from doing the things I had to do when they were younger.

Finally, I could escape from all those situations I could not handle, which was everything.

It didn't work. I got much worse. There is no way to run from things such as people you don't like, don't get along with, pick on you, are obnoxious or are horrid.

There is no place to run because they are everywhere. This material world has the flaws of human nature in it and hence, there is no safe spot that will not repeat the same things you are running from here.

That is my 2 cents given with love. I respect any decision you make but I would be remiss not to share what I have learned.

PS You can always e mail me if you need to talk about anything. I could never have made it through my 6 years here without Lalalinda who was always there for me with kindness and wisdom.

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posted February 24, 2014 12:58 PM            

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posted February 24, 2014 03:18 PM            

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Originally posted by meissieri:
I'll still chat in our thread, Muddy & Faith

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Thank you!!! I'll see you there!

posted February 24, 2014 04:51 PM            

Violets, Libra, I'm glad you enjoyed my input. That makes me really happy, because there were definitely times I thought my posts would get snowed under. Caring is my thing, yeah.

Ellyn, you're right, though, I may try again after a lot of time has passed.

Faith, yes, I'll see you there. Can't leave my girls <3 It's been nine months. Soon it'll be a year haha. Hmm... our thread baby's due by now!

YTA, wow, thank you. I really didn't expect you to post here.

posted February 24, 2014 05:15 PM            

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posted March 02, 2014 05:16 AM            

Mirage, yes, you have been away for a bit, right? You seemed less active.

All of your support makes me very happy. I'm glad there's so many people here sending me such sweet messages. Makes it a lot harder to leave, haha. I don't like saying goodbye.

posted March 02, 2014 07:15 AM            

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posted March 02, 2014 01:18 PM            

(music) Fly to Paradise (Eric Whitacre's Virtual Choir 4) [13:16]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8oDnUga0JU

I feel philosophical today..... I've been away, working on physical things that need to be done, but also to pause and to look at my life-- as a whole, and in its' particulars...

It's good for you (and for me, and others at times) to go into a state of "inner rest"... Be at peace; think-over and observe and feel. Review what and how you feel about things that have happened over the past months.... Breathe. Just be you.

Be 'settling' in while the chaos and storms whirl around you... Like Wizard of Oz, Dorothy in the house, caught up in the swirl of the wind, watching what objects that were near being all picked up and flying up, swirling around in black and white, all around you--- as you're at that curtainless unglassed window.... Just observe, cry, wonder, shake your fist at the objects who or that played a part in the mean events... Sit back, do 'nothing' is doing what you should---- The House of Past is taken up into the whirling Winds of Change and clarifications, re-positionings.

Soon, when it has reached its appropriate time, your thoughts of Life Till Now will drop into a land and place where you'll come to a standing-still. You'll meet the parts of you that you'll need to be in relationship-with for the Great Journey. This is Self-renewal and discovery-- In a time of resting and stillness now, the tasks you perform will reveal your talents. Not obvious to you, perhaps, but you'll 'see' in a different integrated way.... integrated into the You that you really are, and better-prepared for the plain earth mission before you.

You are not lost... You are finding who you are IS right there. Keep those ruby slippers, and walk in your Dream. You will and ARE in an awakening --- and many of us will find each other within each other's Dream. What goes up, comes back down~~~ refreshed in vision, possessing and ready to use our tool/talents, knowing what is "in" the Other--- work together towards common goals.... As we 'get' our parts then Humanity can be bettered overall.... Godwilling let this be Our Heavenly Task after all is processed and Understood....

Black and white... here and now, weariness; meet your color, dimension of Higher Sense; come back to the black and white dimension "ready" to impact this real world... everyone plays his or her parts.

Let Life happen. When the next cue comes, you'll be ready.

It's like pregnancy-- the end of, waiting for those twangs and pinges to 'organize' themselves. YOU can't 'make' it happen. It's up to the nature of the process now... LET the process happen. Keep your head-complications out of its way as much as you possibly can gently shape it, and curl it back, bringing it back to your Center/core.

If your beautiful worry-filled frustrated mind needs a job to do? The assign it the job of "monitoring" your 'vitals' like a nurse-assistant, a "birth" assistant...

Make sure you've been nourished, rested, and cleaned: eaten correctly, kept hygiene up, make the birthing supplies and sheets to be ready, have enough pillows plumped.

Practice your breaths, your tiny kegle-excercises. Keep it practical... because it's MORE about 'the waiting' than the 'preparing' now. You can only prepare as far as you can, then it's time to be In Wait. Everything that is possible to be, is part of the dream, your imagination of what 'can' be -- The Highest of what can happen in the better world... But realize that now is now. Not all is in your control yet some minor things to 'keep up with' is also important.

The MAIN EVENT will be THE BIRTHING.... Birthing is done with your 'background cooperation'.... You do not "Will" a birth.... You conceived, but it is the Role of the Forces and mystical magic of Creation's Natural Actions that takes Its Position to NOW bring OUT what is already IN you...

Yes, I myself am one of those analytical hands on 'gotta have something to do' persons (as you?)....

You want to write, to create music.... You KNOW "you can do it"--- but it's time to do it in a way you've Never Imagined before. The Times right now are strange.... and unique. Different from before, yet in plain ordinary view not looking like that 'to all'.... It's a time of developing a New perspective---- THAT's where all the Creative Work is happening now. It's here-and-now and we have to WAIT on it. It will come SOON, and will be Unimaginable yet something you've been so Familiar with. It won't happen out of your mind, but from the Higher Part of your whole entire Self. Your mind (my mind) is a small worker for the Main Task to be shown. Will you be able to "allow" yourself to be ready for it? It's not Big Do, but the little actions that count-- towards the Being Ready. Little mundane actions, to serve the Big Purpose unfolding in our Time right now.

Some people don't know what 'that' is yet BECAUSE it's blurred and taking shape. With clear eyes look... at the blur swirling. It's not about you yet, but it's about Purpose.

Your state of chaos surrounding your dream is the organizing of the Forces of Birthing for your next phase of Soul. Do not confuse 'who you are' with 'what's happening to you'.... You are the observer, and the vessel. The waters of birthing and the activity of magic swirls the energies around you.... "You" are Good. "You" also get the privilege of 'watching' CONSCIOUSLY this process when you can get the glimpse and recognize what "all this" is for...

"All this" ... doesn't feel comfortable, or familiar~~ yet it may in the strangest ways.

The Process, is like The Body Readying for Birth.

You are Blessed.... There is only those little peripheral 'tasks' as I've mentioned... Keep fed, clean, hydrated. "It" has a job It is doing.

Be calm as you can.... it's scary, it's exciting, it's Blessed.

We are the Creators and the Created.-- and we do it, Together. Alone, Integrated, Alone, Together.

Be at Peace. Keep it simple. You are Loved, Allow Higher Love to have its course in the working of your Life.

We are lucky. All so lucky.... Together.

posted March 09, 2014 04:39 PM            

I've been trying to think of what to say to it, but it left me speechless, and that's a good thing.

So, all I can say is: thank you so much. Your support and encouragement definitely comes across. Yeah, I'll try to believe I can do it. I know not all is in my control, no, but it's time to start speaking up more.

posted April 27, 2014 03:06 PM            

The worst part is having lost so many friends over the last two years, possibly due to my problems. I just let people take advantage of me easily because of my low self image. This and some problems in my romantic life have definitely not helped with my confidence. Saturn keeps squaring my Sun from my 2nd house, going Rx and direct, rinse, repeat. It's been rough on me, I'm telling you.
So now y'all know.

Especially everyone here, thanks for the support. Douxie, Muddy and Faith for their support (the latter three I talked to in private, too).
*hugs*