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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted January 13, 2011 11:09 AM            

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It is really weird. I just realized I had needs.
Well ,it would be more accurate to say that I just realized I can respect my needs.
The key is being able to make mistakes.
It was SO scary for me to make a mistake as a child.
I was terrified all the time of my mother's wrath.
I knew of what she was capable due to my repressed memory.
I did not know it ,consciously,but did subconsciously.
I never wanted to find out HOW far she would go.
My solution to this dilemma was to try to be perfect.
If I was perfect,I could stave her off.
That was my plan ,I think, as a child.
I carried that flawed plan in to adulthood,still trying to be perfect .
I am letting it go, slowly,by being ABLE to be flawed.
It is wonderful to shed some of these cumbersome burdens

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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010

posted January 13, 2011 11:34 AM            

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In order to be a real person, you have to have your FEELINGS
Feelings were dangerous ,for me,as a child.
If I let go,I could incur my mother's wrath.
I had to be "in control".
I was .always,afraid my mother would take that next step that would send me over the edge in to insanity.
What a way to live

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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010

posted January 13, 2011 11:39 AM            

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God knew what he was doing giving me all those Gemini planets and an unaspected Venus.
That Venus can pull in and live as an island,if need be.
When it gets aspected in synastry ,it becomes "normal" .
It loves as a normal person would.
However,it can hibernate without love,if need be.
Isn't that strange?
I have never heard an unaspected Venus described in that way but I think it is true.
Can anyone relate to that description of an unaspected Venus?

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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
Me

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