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posted January 25, 2011 07:45 AM            

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I've been abstinent from this for 11 days. So far I am feeling wonderful, the first week, it felt like I was purging all of the toxic scars of my past. I started remembering things in my childhood that I thought I'd long forgot, I felt the pain and didn't eat over it.

I'm in OA and they do AA 12 steps. They are a deeply spiritual group of people, as you'd have to be to REALLY lose the weight, meaning, working through your spiritual junk, clearing it out and linking yourself directly to your higher power.

Anyhow, I see mini miracles here and there and I realized that my emotional and compulsive eating was blocking this and holding me back from my full potential in life. It makes me feel so blessed and that begets more blessings. My cycle used to be weight gain, depression, more weight gain, more depression. I am ready to be healthy

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posted January 25, 2011 07:59 AM            

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Under any compulsion/addiction is PAIN.
It is that simple.
The addiction medicates the pain on a short term basis.
Then,the cycle of self hatred kicks in.

The whole process pushes the original pain down.
The original pain feels so scary that we think we will die if we face it.
We won't.*I* am doing it now.
I am not dying but becoming alive.
If I can do it, anyone can
Love you

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You must face,touch and feel the dregs of Nessus before you can grasp the pristine beauty of Neptune.
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posted January 25, 2011 08:24 AM            

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posted January 27, 2011 08:38 AM            

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Coconut

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posted January 27, 2011 09:01 AM            

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We are ONLY as sick as the secrets we keep, Boo,or to anyone who is listening

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You must face,touch and feel the dregs of Nessus before you can grasp the pristine beauty of Neptune.
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posted January 27, 2011 01:31 PM            

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posted January 27, 2011 03:04 PM            

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coconutcancermoon {{{hugs}}}
It sure is not easy.
Folks say,
"just don't eat".
Well been there done that years ago and became a bullemic anorexic.
I had a 17 inch waist, anemia and bad ulcers.
Untl the last several years, where slow weight loss is keeping it off;
my previous attempts were like,
loose 25, gain 50.
Lose 50, gain 100.
Yeah......what a mess.
That was because I was crashing it off like 100 in 3 months.
That has totally wrecked my metabolism.
And my guts.
Now I get dry heaves if I do not eat.
I used to eat when depressed too.
That is a cycle I am breaking.
So far so good.
When I got disabled the depression was horrible.
I went from super fit and athletic to diaper wearing and bed bound, from one bad accident, and the meds they put me on caused rapid weight gain.
I was also going through a nasty divorce.

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posted January 27, 2011 03:44 PM            

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((((LEXX)))) More hugs

I'm here for you.

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posted January 27, 2011 04:40 PM            

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Originally posted by coconutcancermoon:
((((LEXX)))) More hugs

I'm here for you.

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I'm here for you too sweetie! {{{hugs}}}
We'll both make it girl!

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posted February 08, 2011 10:45 PM            

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LEXX: I am the opposite. I eat when I'm happy. Needless to say, I probably eat a lot.

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posted February 08, 2011 11:08 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
LEXX: I am the opposite. I eat when I'm happy. Needless to say, I probably eat a lot.

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Thank you Randall
I am doing better!

You seem to be not overdoing it though.
You look fine in your pictures.

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posted February 09, 2011 12:22 AM            

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Thanks. I could stand to lose 20 pounds, I suppose.

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posted February 26, 2011 11:36 AM            

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Wondering where each of you are at with this now? I've been in an endless cycle of gaining and losing weight for most of my life and I wonder if 'just not eating' is enough anymore. I've lost 20 lbs in 2010, but I've already gained back 5 of it. I'm also a perfectionist 8th house Virgo Moon who hates standing next to her more slender sister because I'm reminded that I once used to be that way and probably never will again.

Everyone says I look great for the weight that I'm at, but that isn't enough either.

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posted February 26, 2011 11:42 AM            

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Eat raw

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He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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posted February 26, 2011 12:09 PM            

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I'm Moçambican, I don't do raw. Its too bland.

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posted February 26, 2011 12:57 PM            

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Originally posted by Benedict Moon*:
Wondering where each of you are at with this now? I've been in an endless cycle of gaining and losing weight for most of my life and I wonder if 'just not eating' is enough anymore. I've lost 20 lbs in 2010, but I've already gained back 5 of it. I'm also a perfectionist 8th house Virgo Moon who hates standing next to her more slender sister because I'm reminded that I once used to be that way and probably never will again.

Everyone says I look great for the weight that I'm at, but that isn't enough either.

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A few of us are talking about body image and weight loss here: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum27/HTML/000231.html

I sympathize.
It is not easy.
Keeping it off is the hardest part.

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posted February 26, 2011 01:05 PM            

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Not sure if raw is for me anymore

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posted June 02, 2011 08:46 PM            

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I developed depression when I was pregnant with my daughter in 2008. I went from 135 to 270 pounds in less than 9 months. Then it continued during my pregnancy with my son in 2009. By then I had worked my way down to 200 pounds. After my son's birth, I gave up on ever being healthy again, which caused serious emotional eating. Until this year, I went between long periods of binging and starving. This year, I lost all sense of apetite at all. So I began to smoke Marijuana to remedy not being able to eat. Imagine having dry heaves from not eating, but not being able to either. Ok, I don't mind a little weed for that. Since I can eat now, I have began to work out more, become more active, and have began working on my depression from a doctor free standpoint. I feel I have done much better for myself than they ever had. I now weigh 180 pounds, just 20 away from a healthy BMI. Ladies especially, I just wanted to tell you that only YOU have the power to cure You. I've done it, let me be living proof.
~Peace N Blessings~

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