posted March 29, 2011 10:27 PM            

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Anyone Ever Had This Kind of Relationship?

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No, not like this. He had his moments of love and affection, to being distant & cold the next. Probably the negative side of Venus/Pluto coming out. But never to this article's extent. Really eye opening. Every woman should take the time to read it.

posted March 29, 2011 10:32 PM            

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Originally posted by saquariogoces:
YES...IT HAS COMPLETELY RUINED ME IN EVERY SPHERE. LITERALLY RUINED.. WHAT A FLAPPIN DISASTER THIS 2 YEARS HAS BEEN. I'M NOT LUCKY I'M ALIVE. **** .

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WOW
Did you realize ANY of this before you read this article,Sweetie?

posted March 29, 2011 10:39 PM            

we started in dating in late 2008. BUT, in 2004 i paid $$ to speak to a renound psychic. he told me i was going to spend the rest of my life with a guy named (what should i call him?...) Sparkles who was an ....a REFRIGERATOR SALESMAN. i said, "Sparkles...a refrigerator salesman..ME?? but i'm an artist, he sounds lame.. how will i know it's him? the psychic said Sparkle's favorite dog would have the same name as my current and favorite dog, ...James. Needless to say, i forgot all about that wasted $$money$$ for YEARS until my 4th move late '08 when a scrap piece of paper fell out of a crap box and i examined it's worth. HAHA! AND GUESS WHAT?! it was the paper i wrote aboout sparkles with the psychic AND I just HAPPENED to be pen-palling a guy named Sparkles! when i moved to dallas and had no life, i enjoyed looking at the super crazy M seeking F on craigslist - WAIT! haha! just hold on! it was NEVER to get a date i SWEAR! i have an interest in examining odd human behavior (ASPERGER'S) and craigslist is a never ending supply of weirdos. i'm talking, "Sadist clown seeking Pony-girl" kinda weird. it's better than tv. anyhoo, one day i came across one that was just funny so i responded with a silly reply to make fun of him WITH NO INTENT of EVER meeting this fool. well, we cracked each other up and started a 2 month long goofy dialogue. i told him up front we would never meet and that was that until i found *THE PROPHECY*. i asked him what he did for living and sure enough, Sparkles sold refrigerators. i thought, WHAT ARE THE ODDS??! i told him the whole silly story (except the James part so i could make sure he wasn't ************ me....grumble) and we decided to meet.

he was 4 hours late...i of course thought this was OUTLANDISH, but just BECAUSE it really WAS outlandish, i thought there was certainly a real reason because NO BODY would be such an ass. when i first saw him my stomach dropped. he was the most HIDEOUS thing i had ever seen!! he looked like a child molester!! i felt so sorry for him since he was so nice and sweet!! i thought, don't be a shallow a-hole, his personality is wonderful, give him a chance. now i'm not trying to toot my own horn, but i'm pretty cute (WAS cute) and i had always dated really attractive guys who were mostly great, but the last 2 were major pricks who thought the sun shone out their butts, so i thought a homely guy might not be so bad. ... and i have to admit i thought i was a pretty fantastic gal for being so kind.....barf!

l was cleaning and feng shuiing his apartment one day to get rid of his crazy ex's vibes, like a total douche, and i broke a picture frame where a picture of his favorite dog JAMES fell onto the floor!!! i was convinced he was the one i was to spend the rest of my life with and i would be nothing perfectly understanding no matter what.

long, drawn out, tragic story short (see original long post for ALL the gory details), i've ruined my entire life. i failed out of school, lost 1/3 of my income, lost every shred of respect, dignity and self-esteem. i am so freaking depressed i haven't left my house since thanksgiving and i probably have cancer from a vitamin D deficiency due to lack of sunlight. my self image is so twisted i literally see a damn monster when i look in the mirror, oh, and i'm anorexic because i would rather starve than go to the grocery and be around people. the ONLY reason i moved this whole time was to let my dog pee. now my physical condition is so frighteningly withered and decrepit i know i have most likely done permanent damage. i am 35 and i look like iggy pop. it's horrifying. my only daydreams consist of ways i could die without actually killing myself. i have RUINED my entire life JUST WHEN i was winning awards and internships, blah blah blah. i'm the BIGGEST loser that ever lived. i feel like my soul has been raped and most of it has gone AWOL since i can't take care of it and the parts that are left are so mangled and deformed i honestly think it shows. i feel no more attractive than a troll. i cannot trust my judgement and i'm a SERIOUS fool that is no good for myself, let alone anyone else ever again. i'm embarrassed to press "submit reply"....haha, i have no dignity left! what have i got to lose? NOTHING. absolutely nothing...blugh.

posted March 29, 2011 11:11 PM            

there's clearly more wrong with me than asperger's. i thought maybe borderline but i'm not narcissistic and i have a mutant strength capacity for empathy. i can't even watch teevee. i know i can certainly be dramatic and i can certainly be taken for a doormat, BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I COULD HAVE LET IT GO SO FAR. there were times i would literally get amnesia and not know why i had not talked to him in a few weeks!! he'd invite me over and things would be "normal" until something he would say would trigger something horrific in brain and floods of memory would come pouring. it would be so intense i would almost become paralyzed. i was/am truly traumatized to the core. he was so damn mean you have no idea. my already 'different' reality became so surreal i started hearing voices. i don't hear them anymore thank goodness. they were well creepy. i do think i'm possessed though. how i am living is horrifying.

posted March 30, 2011 02:52 PM            

how GREAT is it that you should happen to post EXACTLY what i needed to see on the same day i posted my pitiful post?! FINALLY SOME GOOD LUCK!! you have triggered a MASSIVE turning point for me! i don't feel like i'm free falling straight to hell anymore, YAY

BOING...BOING...BOING...BOING...

posted March 31, 2011 04:09 PM            

IF you are attracted to a guy like this, the author of the articles says YOU are cast off your "bad" side/nessus .
You meet it in this type of guy.
One way to heal from attracting this type of guy is to take back your own Nessus.
Nessus is the asteroid of abuse.
We,all ,have the capacity to abuse or be a victim(the Dejaneria asteroid)
Obviously,we have all the planets and all the asteroids in each of our charts so we have all these parts to us.
When we disown a part,we get in to trouble.
In this case, we have disowned Nessus.

posted April 01, 2011 04:38 PM            

Fitting with this thread; it reminds me of dysfunctional men and the women who are addicted to them (or vise-versa).