posted July 25, 2012 03:58 PM            

I hope this is the right forum to post this sensitive topic.

I was wondering if anyone would like to share their story of a lost pregnancy either due to miscarriage, or perhaps abortion. A loss, regardless on the why, is still a loss deeply felt and forever marked on the heart and soul.

I lost 3.

My little junebugs hold a special place in my heart. I remember them and miss their prescence. Being pregnant was like having a little buddy with me.

Altho pregnancy was hard on me, i was amazed and happy to have life growing inside of me. My second pregnancy was the hardest and hurt the most deeply. Iam not sure if it was baby blues, but i was sad for a long time. Much longer than the first and third loss respectively.

I know this may sound silly, but i remember reading my horoscope for either nov/dec '10 and something about jupiter granting a special wish... Had me hoping and wishing for a pregnancy and towards the end of december i felt different. I was preggers.

Iam wondering what a fourth will hold and how others have coped with ongoing ttc after multiple losses.

posted July 25, 2012 04:41 PM            

Iam so very sorry for your losses. Loosing a live newborn is devestating. I cannot know the pain in your heart.

I knew with my past pregnancies and future pregnancies that my chances of reaching 25 weeks is slim. But i still hold hope in my heart that we can make it all the way. 9months!! I dont want to give up on my babe making it this time around. I picture his little soul waiting to come back again.

I hope you dont give up either. Have faith.

posted July 25, 2012 11:19 PM            

Thank you very much. Actually I have two sons. The elder son is now 16 and a half years old and was born 11 months after the passing of his sister, who had a genetic condition in utero which is shared by my son My son had a kidney transplant as a baby and is in line for another kidney and a liver transplant. While chronically ill, you would never know just by looking at him. He is a well adjusted highly successful and accomplished teen heading to college in two years. .

posted July 26, 2012 12:04 AM            

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. It gives me so much hope and reinforces the predictions of my charts made by the many gifted astrologers on this site that iam destined to be a mother and have atleast one babe that will survive.

I wish good things for your boy on his journey to college. Its an exciting time for a young adult. Your kids are lucky to have such a compassionate, caring father. Good job dad!! Iam sure your kids are great and will accomplish many great things in their lifetime.

Again, thank you for sharing your pain.

posted July 26, 2012 09:06 PM            

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posted July 26, 2012 11:27 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Love you guys
June and Ian

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posted July 27, 2012 02:48 PM            

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Originally posted by jaiellelove:
Hello June. I'm sorry for your loses. Don't give up hope mama. Stay positive in your thoughts! Many hugs and prayers sent your way...

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posted July 28, 2012 01:43 PM            

i lost two, at 2 months for both, i know what it feels like!

I think about them alot!!

posted July 28, 2012 02:15 PM            

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Originally posted by mukani:
am sorry for your loss

i lost two, at 2 months for both, i know what it feels like!

I think about them alot!!

love and light!

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At two months old!! My heart aches for you! I'm so sorry!! You're a pillar of strength.

posted July 28, 2012 04:27 PM            

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Originally posted by mukani:
am sorry for your loss

i lost two, at 2 months for both, i know what it feels like!

I think about them alot!!

love and light!

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Oh my iam sorry for your losses Mukani

posted July 28, 2012 05:51 PM            

Well, I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
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I'm telling you that, it's never that bad
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Laid out on the floor
And you're not sure you can take this anymore

So just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
'Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night
Stop thinking about the easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done
You're far too young
And the best is yet to come

So just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Well, everybody's hit the bottom
Everybody's been forgotten
When everybody's tired of being alone
Yeah, everybody's been abandoned
And left a little empty handed
So if you're out there barely hanging on...

Just give it one more try to a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

By Nickleback

posted October 03, 2012 06:47 AM            

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posted October 03, 2012 09:22 AM            

I know in my heart that I will be a mother some day... when it's the right time.

posted October 03, 2012 01:34 PM            

I have lost several, very traumatic the worst being my son at sixteen weeks pregnant. The worst thing of it was having an emergency D & C and not being able to see him and hold him.

I did name him in my heart, my Andrew but wished so much to be able to bury him. as this didn't happen, I planted a rose bush for him as his birth would have been in June (June roses). This was 12 years ago, and it still hurts when I think of how things might have been.

I always felt my son was missing, and that my teen son needed his brother. My ex boyfriend and I broke up a few months later, the loss had much to do with how things panned out. I think it hurt him very much as to this date, he looks the other way should our paths cross.

Anyways, I never stopped longing for my son despite the blessing of having two beautiful children. After remarrying, waited awhile to try again as a few more early miscarriages brought back the pain. I was afraid of never having another healthy child, and then at last my Christmas miracle son arrived