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Topic: One-Night Stand
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C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:33 PM
  
I don't know if i've got what it takes.. It used to be ok when i was barely legal but i just don't think i have it in me anymore.. What happened and when did i gain all of this dignity? It's been approx a month since i've had sex. It was fulfilling thanks to the wine.. I feel that working on my hangups is a neverending thing.I don't know how those porn stars do it. How much time must they devote to looking great and where do they find the time??? Does the porn $ fund their lifestyle?? I want to ask "who do i have to screw around here to make things happen!?" but, alas... I miss the reckless me. IP: Logged |
doommlord
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From: israel
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posted September 08, 2012 01:35 PM
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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
I don't know if i've got what it takes.. It used to be ok when i was barely legal but i just don't think i have it in me anymore.. What happened and when did i gain all of this dignity? It's been approx a month since i've had sex. It was fulfilling thanks to the wine.. I feel that working on my hangups is a neverending thing.I don't know how those porn stars do it. How much time must they devote to looking great and where do they find the time???
well if your job is looking good than you put all your time into it...you are getting money for it  IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:37 PM
^ good point.It's a lot like building credit though, isn't it? You need credit to purchase something to build good credit but if you don't have credit to begin with... IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:38 PM
Ah....
Welp, it's time for some vodka.
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doommlord
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posted September 08, 2012 01:40 PM
meh...its like sport...you can work for it but if you have the right genetics....or size if we refer to that specific field...you will do betterIP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:43 PM
I want that size in my bank account..!I have the zeal and i have the drive. Funding my aspirations... Excuse me while i take this vodka straight up!
Olives, you say? What olives? IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted September 08, 2012 01:44 PM
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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
I don't know if i've got what it takes.. It used to be ok when i was barely legal but i just don't think i have it in me anymore.. What happened and when did i gain all of this dignity? It's been approx a month since i've had sex. It was fulfilling thanks to the wine.. I feel that working on my hangups is a neverending thing.I don't know how those porn stars do it. How much time must they devote to looking great and where do they find the time??? Does the porn $ fund their lifestyle?? I want to ask "who do i have to screw around here to make things happen!?" but, alas... I miss the reckless me.
I don't understand your question. Is it "Why can't you act with as much abandon as you used to? xx ------------------
Passion, Lust, Desire. Check out my journal
http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:46 PM
Look at how glam these girls are:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ihi_kJJj_8A I feel as if i only drink milk in comparison. IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:49 PM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
I don't understand your question. Is it "Why can't you act with as much abandon as you used to? xx
Basically.. I'm mostly venting. There's a poem by rumi called Bittersweet..
He talks about a "hangover". That's what i feel right now.
As if there were a void.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P27nWrpmByM
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C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:50 PM
Everything changed after S-aturn moved through my fifth.IP: Logged |
doommlord
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From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted September 08, 2012 01:53 PM
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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
Everything changed after S-aturn moved through my fifth.
saturn comes...kick you where it hurts...and you come out a better person...just think of that while your mind is here on earth i had saturn conjuncting my sun in the last few months...and in the 8th IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 01:59 PM
^ i went through that Sun transit at the same time.That was no walk in the park. I think he was just a big ol bully. I used to believe in.. Hell, things, then.
I can't help but think i'm a bit jaded, now. Better person? I grew up but there was no need to strong-arm me, uknow? Is it better now? In comparison to what? If all the "crap" was that stinking ball of air then what is better? That it's gone? I can't say that thanking the cause for the cure makes me feel any better. I want to be amply showered in reward..
Preferably monetary reward. IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 02:14 PM
I wonder if this apathy is a result of it being in libra..Breaking on the fence is nice but is ANYTHING in libra about results? I feel that we're just all sitting around waiting for something to happen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Pbq5sczPcE IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 02:26 PM
I didn't have a mixer or juice so i'm having vodka with guava marmalade in case anyone is wondering..It's not half bad. IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 02:27 PM
Not half bad at allIP: Logged |
doommlord
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From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted September 08, 2012 02:56 PM
libra needs to make desicions first and then actions....and then they will get resultsi feelt very repressed with that transit...but i also took a more realistic approach to my life and im not sorry going through this...though im happy it will be over cr*p is there...but then you wish it away when you start doing...something....look for new directions to light up your mood...other than booze money comes and money goes....and he is a fickle god....dont put your faith in him but use him when you should i wish you good luck in finding your happiness....even while youre neck deep in.....well you know .....  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted September 08, 2012 03:17 PM
C1ND
May I call you a nickname? Your handle is hard to remember lol
I wanted to know what your moon does? Does it conjunct any asteroids? have you ever looked?If not, what are it's close aspects?  ------------------
Passion, Lust, Desire. Check out my journal
http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 03:46 PM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
C1ND
May I call you a nickname? Your handle is hard to remember lol
I wanted to know what your moon does? Does it conjunct any asteroids? have you ever looked?If not, what are it's close aspects?
My Moon is conjuct Venus
Both are trined by Ceres
Opposed by Pallas that conjuncts my MC. IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 03:49 PM
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Originally posted by doommlord:
libra needs to make desicions first and then actions....and then they will get resultsi feelt very repressed with that transit...but i also took a more realistic approach to my life and im not sorry going through this...though im happy it will be over cr*p is there...but then you wish it away when you start doing...something....look for new directions to light up your mood...other than booze money comes and money goes....and he is a fickle god....dont put your faith in him but use him when you should i wish you good luck in finding your happiness....even while youre neck deep in.....well you know .....
Would i be able to connect with you outside of LL? Thank you for
Your posting! IP: Logged |
doommlord
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From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted September 08, 2012 03:51 PM
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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
Would i be able to connect with you outside of LL?Thank you for
Your posting!
i have FB and skype
and my email is written in my profile feel free to write to me (just so you know my time is +2 gmt so there might take some time for me to anwser) IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 03:56 PM
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Originally posted by doommlord:
i have FB and skype
and my email is written in my profilefeel free to write to me (just so you know my time is +2 gmt so there might take some time for me to anwser)
Ok, awesome!
I'll see if i can find you on facebook using that email. IP: Logged |
C1ND3R
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posted September 08, 2012 03:58 PM
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doommlord
Moderator Posts: 917
From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted September 08, 2012 03:59 PM
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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
Ok, awesome!
I'll see if i can find you on facebook using that email.
no thats a different one look for kostya DL on FB IP: Logged |
doommlord
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From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted September 08, 2012 04:11 PM
off to bed but i will talk to you tommorow just write to me good night everybody XOXO IP: Logged |
Aquacheeka
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From: Toronto
Registered: Mar 2012
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posted September 08, 2012 04:37 PM
I am decidedly a fan.I had a one-nighter with an underwear model once. Don't blame me, I was born this way (Aqua Venus) lol. IP: Logged |
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