posted December 30, 2012 06:48 AM            

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Originally posted by freebrainstorms:
Ecstasy really helped me overcome some issues I had in terms of social anxiety and whatnot and I have so much to thank it for

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Just out of curiosity, how did E help with social anxiety?

posted December 30, 2012 09:01 AM            

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Originally posted by sand:
lrt's invite freebrainstorms from above. darn it i can't spell no moar.

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As to drugs;
I was addicted to Opium, via doctors,
when I was a child.
I was a pot/hash user from 1971 to 1980.
Then simply got bored with it and quit.
Loved Nitrous, Baby Wood Rose, and Heavenly Blues too;
but got bored with those and quit also.
Nowadays after so many mini strokes,
and on strong pain meds, along with serious neurological damage from injuries;
getting stoned just does not have the appeal it once did.
I want/wish to feel well and clear headed and not a zombie who is bed bound battling disabling agonies too often.

posted December 30, 2012 09:12 AM            

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Originally posted by RedScorp:
Body shots! So now who's all at this after party? You and I, ail, moth, Vwhy-olet...
(Between the two of us, I fink we're building a harem... )

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posted December 30, 2012 09:42 AM            

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From what I have observed about you;
is that correct spelling and grammar is far from being your strong point.

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posted December 30, 2012 10:38 AM            

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Originally posted by sand:
what?? grammar? i actually have speelcheck too! how can i mispell shtuff!

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posted January 04, 2013 01:36 AM            

Weed was so fun to do at first, it would get me hyper instead of turning me into a vegetable. Did ecstasy like every weekend and even at school -_- *sigh* Then I did acid and smoked TONS because I had forgotten I took acid and I tripped really hard.. it lasted until the next day. After that, every time I would smoke weed mini-flashbacks would happen and I wouldn't expect it so I would freak the fuuk out. Started doing coke because it felt like ecstasy but cheaper to buy and got really into it for 2 years and finally quit recently. Yay 'One day at a time' Now I'm on xanax because I got them prescribed for panic disorder and social anxiety. The end.

posted January 04, 2013 01:49 AM            

I used to sneak off to the bathroom and do a line in between sex. To me it was mind blowing. I've never felt a high or sensation that topped it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2E8xuBUc38k

I read up a lot on heroin just because of the trainspotting line about being a thousand times stronger than an orgasm. I can't wrap my brain how I would logistically try it though. Idk any heroin users lol! Plus it might ruin my looks.

RENTON: People think it's all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn't do it. After all, we're not ******* stupid. At least, we're not that ******* stupid. Take the best orgasm you ever had, multiply it by a thousand and you're still nowhere near it. When you're on junk you have only one worry: scoring. When you're off it you are suddenly obliged to worry about all sorts of other shite. Got no money: can't get pished. Got money: drinking too much. Can't get a bird: no chance of a ride. Got a bird: too much hassle. You have to worry about bills, about food, about some football team that never ******* wins, about human relationships and all the things that really don't matter when you've got a sincere and truthful junk habit.

posted January 04, 2013 02:00 AM            

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Originally posted by ail221:
T__________T I am not in a harem.

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ugh?!?!

(I forgot about this thread)

me neither ~
I am in no man's harem less it be a harem of 1.... *selfish and proud of it*

unless you count my sabian for my Ascendant ----

7 Virgo~

tsktsktsk Scorpy -

posted January 04, 2013 02:03 AM            

infuriating ~

posted January 04, 2013 02:21 AM            

my ex only had a coke problem for a short while... I had one too.... wised up when I hit 71lbs

hubby only ever touched mary jane -

idc about that -

my father was a notorious dealer - it's where i was raised... i told you i'm the girl from the wrong side of the tracks - raised in the taverns, passed from relative to relative... i seen it all - the bodies, the bad trips...

one guy wouldn't stop digging at his skin with a butter knife from a bad acid trip ----

another guy was trying to kill me because he said i have witches eyes....

i done my share and ive seen others do their share...

i lost plenty of friends... dear ones --

i dont need to be told not to date them - i never did set out to... so never did. tyvm

i'm just voicing my disgust with their inability to maintain or achieve an erection - but yet having the drug sexualized, sensationalized even as per the 90s....--- no.... it's not a sexy drug at all... it is the exact opposite --

heroin and crack never made any sense to me... well there were quite a few out there that went around... and there were the huffers - that pathetic lot.... so there were some others i didnt get either - but these are the most befuddling. (and that new stuff what is it called again ---? bath salts??? who in their right mind would want to mess with hat after all the crazy side effects have been exposed... amazing really how far some people will go for that high.... idk just saying....)

like i said - i'm just stating they're disappointing and the drug is not worth the short lived high it gives... the thrill gets shorter for them each time - they build their resistance their veins collapse one after another - and the tremors and withdraw madness --- it's all disgusting... very hard to deal with - even when you have a loved one fighting through it.

it is above all others theee most disgusting drug I have ever seen anyone on....

i have not touched it - i have no intention on doing so - and again - i have not set out to date or sleep with anyone who has...

to each their own - but imho

heroin, crack.... never --- too disgusting, embarrassing, and worthless

posted January 04, 2013 02:23 AM            

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Originally posted by virgolotus:
Ugh heroin is nasty! I tried it once or twice but never injected just snorted it.
I remember there were men in jail who were going through withdrawls. They would sh1t themselves and throw up and they would tell me how they get discharge from their penis. Gross! It was probably not the heroin but something else going on.... Hearing that just made me stay clear from heroin. They all looked horrible. Plus, I've seen people do it and they just fall asleep or just make a fool out of themselves.

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posted January 04, 2013 02:29 AM            

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Originally posted by virgolotus:
& I think women don't really get trapped but put themselves there most of the time. I think they just have this idea that they could fix them and they'll live happily ever after. Or maybe that's just me o.O

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But can't they fix them? I'm a lot less hedonistic now in the drug area. I think it has shifted to sex completely.

posted January 04, 2013 02:33 AM            

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Originally posted by SaturnineMoth:
eh? it's been 10 years since I was dating anyone - 2 long term relationships in a row---
u advice me not too? heh

my ex only had a coke problem for a short while... I had one too.... wised up when I hit 71lbs

hubby only ever touched mary jane -

idc about that -

my father was a notorious dealer - it's where i was raised... i told you i'm the girl from the wrong side of the tracks - raised in the taverns, passed from relative to relative... i seen it all - the bodies, the bad trips...

one guy wouldn't stop digging at his skin with a butter knife from a bad acid trip ----

another guy was trying to kill me because he said i have witches eyes....

i done my share and ive seen others do their share...

i lost plenty of friends... dear ones --

i dont need to be told not to date them - i never did set out to... so never did. tyvm

i'm just voicing my disgust with their inability to maintain or achieve an erection - but yet having the drug sexualized, sensationalized even as per the 90s....--- no.... it's not a sexy drug at all... it is the exact opposite --

heroin and crack never made any sense to me... well there were quite a few out there that went around... and there were the huffers - that pathetic lot.... so there were some others i didnt get either - but these are the most befuddling. (and that new stuff what is it called again ---? bath salts??? who in their right mind would want to mess with hat after all the crazy side effects have been exposed... amazing really how far some people will go for that high.... idk just saying....)

like i said - i'm just stating they're disappointing and the drug is not worth the short lived high it gives... the thrill gets shorter for them each time - they build their resistance their veins collapse one after another - and the tremors and withdraw madness --- it's all disgusting... very hard to deal with - even when you have a loved one fighting through it.

it is above all others theee most disgusting drug I have ever seen anyone on....

i have not touched it - i have no intention on doing so - and again - i have not set out to date or sleep with anyone who has...

to each their own - but imho

heroin, crack.... never --- too disgusting, embarrassing, and worthless

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posted January 04, 2013 02:40 AM            

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Originally posted by sand:
But can't they fix them? I'm a lot less hedonistic now in the drug area. I think it has shifted to sex completely.

I have a liking for alcohol though. I like it more than weed now. I was interpreted to be in danger of alcohol abuse in my 39-49 years. Rat-chicken clash. It is possible. I have difficulty with limits. Like when people go out and say they have work the next day I don't have that foresight. I'd go party and go to work. It has only bitten me in the ass once when I needed pep for a day. If it were mental/ analysis I would have been fine.

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posted January 04, 2013 02:56 AM            

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Originally posted by virgolotus:
Well maybe the girl was THAT good in the sheets that made you a strict sex addict hahahah!
I'm like that too. Once I start I can't stop ><

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posted January 04, 2013 03:19 AM            

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Originally posted by sand:
Boy does my mercury annoy u doesn't it?

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heh

understatement of the year so far~!!!

your mercury, Mister --- is invading my 8h

it is very square my sun, very semisxt my moon,
closely trine my mercury, jupiter, and neptune
closely opposed to my mars-pluto, trine my venus by sign~ and exact cnj my hekate and hybris <333

~ on one hand I enjoy the company on the other you overstay your welcome -- it' something like that -- it's complicated -

if you really wanted to help you are doing a freaking amazing job, "bro"~

keep it up!~

maybe the entire olive branch will snap?!

/joy

posted January 04, 2013 08:59 AM            

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Originally posted by SaturnineMoth:
ugh?!?!

(I forgot about this thread)

me neither ~
I am in [b]no man's harem less it be a harem of 1.... *selfish and proud of it*

unless you count my sabian for my Ascendant ----

7 Virgo~

tsktsktsk Scorpy -

[/B]

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Too damn cardinal for any of that nonsense.
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posted January 04, 2013 09:18 AM            

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virgolotus: my stages: weed>ecstasy>acid>cocaine>downers

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I literally choked/laughed when I read cocaine omg I'm too chicken for any big or major drug things like that...