posted January 22, 2013 07:13 PM            

Didn't get a chance to reply to you before your topic was closed. I am sorry you are hurting. I understand how difficult it is to have your dreams crushed. Or to wait for another in vain. I, and many others, have been there too. I do feel your pain. But please do not despair, things may not have worked out like you hoped with this person but hang in there, you will find someone to fit into your puzzle. ^_^ Love is out there, ethereal. And can be happy, even for Neptunians like us. Cheer up, ok? It will get better, so hang in there.

posted January 23, 2013 07:37 AM            

Whatever though- I waited a year in vain, just because i will never see the bes I had again does not mean I'm just goin to switch back to the wild, crazy, and reckless person I used to be.

Woman spend there lives looking for someone to "fix" ; well, mine was successfully n than ran away.

Despite the lies that fly around like a hurricane because of the way it all went down; when I get out of this God Forsaken town, I will find someone who as I did-my Jane; see' s beauty within me lying behind all that hatred stirred up by others standing against me out of jealousy and resentment for how I do or dont live my life.

Like a wise woman once told me, just got to look up, smile, forgive, forget, and learn to say "o well." Shrug it off and find a new rose. I'm the King of Hearts, so it will pretty much either be officially over and time to move on, or I get back My queen, its NOT in my hands now, it is in Father Gods hands.

posted January 23, 2013 11:20 AM            

I wish you good luck, on reconquering your Queen or finding a new one.

posted January 23, 2013 11:22 AM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
I appeciate it, I really do. The messed up part about all of this is the only person I have hated my entire life is the core reason between true love not working here.

Whatever though- I waited a year in vain, just because i will never see the bes I had again does not mean I'm just goin to switch back to the wild, crazy, and reckless person I used to be.

Woman spend there lives looking for someone to "fix" ; well, mine was successfully n than ran away.

Despite the lies that fly around like a hurricane because of the way it all went down; when I get out of this God Forsaken town, I will find someone who as I did-my Jane; see' s beauty within me lying behind all that hatred stirred up by others standing against me out of jealousy and resentment for how I do or dont live my life.

Like a wise woman once told me, just got to look up, smile, forgive, forget, and learn to say "o well." Shrug it off and find a new rose. I'm the King of Hearts, so it will pretty much either be officially over and time to move on, or I get back My queen, its NOT in my hands now, it is in Father Gods hands.

Expect the worst and pray for the best,
bless your enemies n you'll find rest.
Weather eternally in bliss or
an eternity locked in flame,
all who obey shall never be slain.

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I looked you up (when you posted your full name/place from and more)
and it appears you have experienced much troubles in like the past going on some 7 years.
I do not know how much of the public records are true or not.
However it seems you caused serious trouble during your reckless wild times;
then others it appears paid you back with troubles.
We are not privy to the details of your life except for what you tell us and public records show.
I do think you need to see a doctor about your issues, both mental and physical.
Are you on medication for any physical pain?
Are you on any for psych reasons?
Close brushes with death are not always easy to heal from.
You must work on yourself before a true love can really see you for who you are.
You said this too me on at another forum:

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
Thank you so very much for the help you have already given me! Officially the Sweetest Person I've done ever met! It is MUCH appreciated ma'am.

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PS.
You do seem to be having a lot of guilty feelings, anger,sadness, and other serious troubles coping with life and reality.
This post made me worry about you.

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
my[(Heart + Halo) + The Star (amount + Slope) > Free Form] = My guide whose seen the truth behind the lies that lye behind the devil's in disquise within this existance and the fake "rise of aquarious"- the age started in the beginning of 1900; these lameos are merely using it to there advantage to allow themeselves the oppurtunites to keep taking from those weakened by the collection of demonized losers massing up to blame and shame others for the deeds they themeselves have commited. What they don't realize is, my father- Our Father Above created this existance. He see's all, and He knows ALL. Just to let yall know, your ****** him right the F off... (Just a fare warning.) "They" were going to destroy EVERYTHING.... And I'm probably gonna die for posting this. xo

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posted January 23, 2013 12:59 PM            

I don't normally do this kind of thing, but had to do a google search to see what the heck was going on! Was expecting to find some long rap sheet and all kinds of crazy stuff after what you wrote Lexx. I'm still not sure why you are so alarmed.

In the lexigram thread he did mention he was posting from his phone. So, maybe that's why his posts sound 'off' to you. Not to mention he is speaking from his emotions and may be a bit of a poetic soul. To me he sounds like a very sensitive and heartbroken young man and is going through something that many people do. No need to make him feel like a nutcase or drunk or drug addict about it.

posted January 23, 2013 01:00 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:

Like a wise woman once told me, just got to look up, smile, forgive, forget, and learn to say "o well." Shrug it off and find a new rose. I'm the King of Hearts, so it will pretty much either be officially over and time to move on, or I get back My queen, its NOT in my hands now, it is in Father Gods hands.

Expect the worst and pray for the best,
bless your enemies n you'll find rest.
Weather eternally in bliss or
an eternity locked in flame,
all who obey shall never be slain.

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posted January 23, 2013 01:08 PM            

But there is a flaw within your concern, miss lovely; for there is no anger! The only frustration is sexually, for I haven't allowed myself to be with anyone besides the only girl I've ever asked to marry me. No medications besides A.D.D. medz and antibiotics.

I'm actually the most chill n laid back person you'll ever meet. I try to live my life as if nothing ever happened so traumatic. The past is were it needs to stay, each day is a new day and all I can say and I welcome each one with open arms and givin thanks and praise, plus for praying for deliverance from evil. Pardon my spelling and grammer - cracked screen on my cell :P

posted January 23, 2013 02:29 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
It makes me feel all warm inside with your concern and wishes for me to seek help, thank you and your beautiful and caring heart.

But there is a flaw within your concern, miss lovely; for there is no anger! The only frustration is sexually, for I haven't allowed myself to be with anyone besides the only girl I've ever asked to marry me. No medications besides A.D.D. medz and antibiotics.

I'm actually the most chill n laid back person you'll ever meet. I try to live my life as if nothing ever happened so traumatic. The past is were it needs to stay, each day is a new day and all I can say and I welcome each one with open arms and givin thanks and praise, plus for praying for deliverance from evil. Pardon my spelling and grammer - cracked screen on my cell :P

Only problem I got with all of this, is the only one that ever started seeing the real me, left me lonely and broken hearted with the ability to trust not a single person. Lonely sucks but singing, talking to Our Father, Faith, and family always hold you up when you've got nothing to lose.

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PS.
You remind me so very much of two of my brothers.
Please consider telling us bout you,
the real you.
And yes that includes talking about the past.
The past is what got you to the now.
It is not to be pushed under the rug, but to be studied and learned from.
Also anyone here trying to help you can better do so if they know you better and about your life to date and what trials you have endured and what you have learned.
That could also help other folks going through their own troubles.
I hope that made sense.
{{{ }}}

posted January 23, 2013 02:31 PM            

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Originally posted by Hera:
You sound much better, Ethereal, I am glad to see that. Just focus on surviving each day and by the time you'll notice, things will start to flow again.

I wish you good luck, on reconquering your Queen or finding a new one.

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posted January 23, 2013 02:36 PM            

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Originally posted by T:
edit *i'm referring to your pre-edited post btw

I don't normally do this kind of thing, but had to do a google search to see what the heck was going on! Was expecting to find some long rap sheet and all kinds of crazy stuff after what you wrote Lexx. I'm still not sure why you are so alarmed.

In the lexigram thread he did mention he was posting from his phone. So, maybe that's why his posts sound 'off' to you. Not to mention he is speaking from his emotions and may be a bit of a poetic soul. To me he sounds like a very sensitive and heartbroken young man and is going through something that many people do. No need to make him feel like a nutcase or drunk or drug addict about it.

I just get a different vibe than you do, I guess and sort of felt sorry for him after reading all of that and wanted to stick up for him or say something about it.

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ethereal;
You remind me like I said;
very much of two of my brothers.
I do wish you well, but trying to help you is getting nowhere and resulted in T thinking me mean.
Take care ethereal.
I sincerely hope the best for you.

posted January 23, 2013 02:42 PM            

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Originally posted by T:
In the lexigram thread he did mention he was posting from his phone. So, maybe that's why his posts sound 'off' to you. Not to mention he is speaking from his emotions and may be a bit of a poetic soul. To me he sounds like a very sensitive and heartbroken young man and is going through something that many people do. No need to make him feel like a nutcase or drunk or drug addict about it.

I just get a different vibe than you do, I guess and sort of felt sorry for him after reading all of that and wanted to stick up for him or say something about it.

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
I can only assume you formed your views from a different point than I did.
I have been trying to help whether you think so or not.
I think ethereal knows that.
And I rarely do a search on anyone either unless I have a real name and feel I need to know more in order to help them in any way.

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
ethereal;
You remind me like I said;
very much of two of my brothers.
I do wish you well, but trying to help you is getting nowhere and resulted in T thinking me mean.
Take care ethereal.
I sincerely hope the best for you.

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posted January 23, 2013 03:05 PM            

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Originally posted by Hera:
You sound much better, Ethereal, I am glad to see that. Just focus on surviving each day and by the time you'll notice, things will start to flow again.

I wish you good luck, on reconquering your Queen or finding a new one.

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Originally posted by ethereal29:

luck is much appreciated but boy I gotta tell you what; from everything I've seen, been told, heard for myself, or witnessed in person- only change I can see in all of this is if eye can some how pull off the greatest of miracles to have ever not been seen and learn how to erase the memories implanted by the scum that has been constantly trying to keep from what is truly mine.

Have any of you (all who read this) people witnessed the discussting manipulation, back stabbing, lying for desires of causing others heartache, humility, shame, or just plain cruelty through words and actions people partake in the world we live in these days? THIS ISHT IS SICK!!! People need to learn that there are common base Morals you've got to freaking follow! From opening doors for the old lady struggling to walk to throwing in a couple cents you will probably loose through that whole in your pocket) Help people yall! Ain't nobody ever seen pay it forward? I know I would LOve to have a quarter or so lent to me because im running short, or if I got a ton of baggage I'm carrying, for someone to open the door for me. I'm bored and I'm stuck on a greyhound to new york please forgive my language and grammer; for a fact i know its messed up.

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posted January 23, 2013 03:31 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
No drugs, No Alcohol, Even quit smoking ciggs- your hopes are noted my (*lady?) As done by you so shall I return all thee to which you've *hoped.

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posted January 23, 2013 08:07 PM            

And now even her, herself will say it. She did every single thing possible to get me to stop loving her, the effed up thing is, for her not only is my Love eternal, it is unconditional. It is not my fault she chose to go about the year apart the way she did.

I'm recovering faster and growing, emotionally and spiritually stronger every day!

This isn't where you would request this, but if. I may; Please, PLEASE pray for my baby girl, as well as my family down in Naples. I stuck around for well over the authorized time for me to be there in hopes the truth would have been revealed to you people but the ullb isht I kept encountering, as well as a crazy-stalkin my lil ass, psycho whose obsessed with me- i had to leave! I want nothing to do with her OR what she created out of jealoussy and obsessive desire.

I'm off to make something of myself. Maybe someday in the far future I can come and return the prayers and blessings I have myself received, but for now and until the time for my return comes, I bid u adű.

Thank you for all the prayers, and blessings, i love those hearts whom care in aiding to help those in need. Its was we all were born for, and essentially why I chose to come back.

posted January 23, 2013 09:43 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
Honestly I am not the one who needs the help. You might consider me to be psychotic for holding onto this girl for so long, but to be honest, I don't give a eff What people say.

And now even her, herself will say it. She did every single thing possible to get me to stop loving her, the effed up thing is, for her not only is my Love eternal, it is unconditional. It is not my fault she chose to go about the year apart the way she did.

I'm recovering faster and growing, emotionally and spiritually stronger every day!

This isn't where you would request this, but if. I may; Please, PLEASE pray for my baby girl, as well as my family down in Naples. I stuck around for well over the authorized time for me to be there in hopes the truth would have been revealed to you people but the ullb isht I kept encountering, as well as a crazy-stalkin my lil ass, psycho whose obsessed with me- i had to leave! I want nothing to do with her OR what she created out of jealoussy and obsessive desire.

I'm off to make something of myself. Maybe someday in the far future I can come and return the prayers and blessings I have myself received, but for now and until the time for my return comes, I bid u adű.

Thank you for all the prayers, and blessings, i love those hearts whom care in aiding to help those in need. Its was we all were born for, and essentially why I chose to come back.

Take care people, may the Creator of Creation above bless all of you rotten scoundrals with love, peace, health, and serinity

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Take care people, may the Creator of Creation above bless all of you rotten scoundrals with love, peace, health, and serinity

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posted January 23, 2013 09:50 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
And ps. Don't beleive the lies that little evil piece of **** keeps spreading *about me, I am doing fantastic! My lives been pleased, and I am SO greatful for it. I love all of you for caring, it makes my heart all gushy inside O:-) <3 B-) :-P

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posted January 24, 2013 07:12 AM            

Love, I would shout it from the roof tops out unto the entire world if I could still believe it was true love. Fact is, I'm begining to believe i have been deceived by the author of confusion in disquise of the most beautiful angel I've ever met. Her initials are B.E.S, if you see this(I'm saying best, "her initials." and a little inside pun within my mind) Its ok if u think I'm crazy for all I say, but i say, being crazy has only saved me from going insane.

Brilliance is tragic when put towards the wrong purpose or the hands of evil people; from that tramatic experience I encountered.
I tell myself no more reckless.
No more crazy.

posted January 24, 2013 12:47 PM            

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Originally posted by ethereal29:
Stage five clinger and my true love are 2 complelty different women. The rotten scoundrals was a movie quote playing in the back of my mind, no harm done, it was more of a just playing kinda comment. I have never hated any woman except the stage five clinger. Her name goes unsaid out of pure respect, but my true Love, I would shout it from the roof tops out unto the entire world if I could still believe it was true love. Fact is, I'm begining to believe i have been deceived by the author of confusion in disquise of the most beautiful angel I've ever met. Her initials are B.E.S, and if ever u see me post a word theyjg I'm saying best, it is actually her initials.v(a little inside pun within my mind) Its ok if u think I'm crazy for all I say, but i say, being crazy has only saved me from going insane.

Brilliance is tragic when put towards the wrong purpose or the hands of evil people; from that tramatic experience I encountered.
I tell myself no more reckless.
No more crazy.

Lessons learned and it is time to start educating and teaching myself and
others The Right Way to Behave/Live.

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posted January 24, 2013 04:47 PM            

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Originally posted by T:
edit *i'm referring to your pre-edited post btw

[mentioned (i) was posting from (my) phone. So, maybe that's why (my) posts sound 'off' to you. Not to mention (iAm) speaking from (my) emotions] and may be a bit of a poetic soul. To me he sounds like a very sensitive and heartbroken young man and is going through so mething that many people do. No need to make him feel like a nutcase or drunk or drug addict about it. (dont drink, smoke, or anything for that matter)

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Originally posted by T:

"I guess and sort of felt sorry for him after reading all of that and wanted to stick up for him or say something about it.

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Thank you for this. In life i try to stand up for the week, hurt, broken, shamed, and slaved. From the past and through some traumatic experience Ive endured, up until recently; i was extremely selfish, reckless, and careless. On all of what i said, or even the things i did. I was to caught up in "impressing my 'friends' "(<-who not a single one of them are still in contact with me) or just being that funny guy, you know? "the life of the party," that "this guy" of which there's one in every crowd. Never thought about what i did until i did it and then just said 'oops'.

No harm was ever meant by anything i had done in the past. I ain't never intentionally hurt nobody; and anything I said or did was out of a drive to, merely draw laughter from those around. I was just a small guy, who never really figured his impact would of ever impacted more than just those around.

I believe violence truly does Noothing but cause your problems to flare up.

Certain times call for violent litigation (something to cause others to f*ing listen to direction through their overly self-centered/righteousness,)

But Hey, those are incidentally situational based and Few are only aloud but a mi-nute amount of them.

Furthermore, only if it involves stopping the situation from escalating. This undertaking is a one time thing that does not cause permanent damage(for it does justice in only to get through the situation with the least amount of violence possible)