posted January 05, 2014 04:44 AM            

I know there are people who reach out and can talk to God and the angels but I feel like I have hit a blank wall every time

I'm a colossal failure although on the surface it may not look like it. Randall once reminded me that I am luckier than three quarters of the people on this planet...and in the material sense that is true

But I guess my past and all that happened to me is bearing down on me now

I have been an outcast since my birth after my courageous Mom gave birth to me out of wedlock in the late sixties. My parents loved each other but my dad's folks made him marry someone else because my mom was not of the same religion

While Mom was away making a living as a nurse to keep our heads above water I was being sexually abused at different times by two neighbours and two cousins. I have carried this shame my entire life

I own two properties, my own car and have a fairly good job. But I am completely and utterly alone here aside from my dog who is old and not long for this world

Men don't treat me the way they treat other women. They think I'm tough and I don't need loving or nurturing
I no longer hope to meet " the one" and have accepted that he simply does not exist

I have been through everything these past years: lost my mom, then two aunts I was very close to, got divorced, got laid off twice, lost my dog and now face the prospect of losing the other. My best friend , my little brother is thousands of miles away on another continent

When my dog dies everyone that I considered family will be gone. I will be all alone in this country.

I didn't do this in the hopes of getting any kind of reading...just your thoughts on why bad things happen all the time to certain people

posted January 05, 2014 05:19 PM            

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posted January 06, 2014 05:42 AM            

I think this is what they mean by "the kindness of strangers" and these messages of support mean a lot to me

Padre35 I have mostly solitary hobbies and I do enjoy them but recently have let a lot of them fall by the wayside.

Im so exhausted when I get home from work that all I want to do is see to my pet, shower, watch tv and sleep

aquaguy91 Im trying...I went to a friends place for christmas and hit it off with a potential friend...But her first message to me via BBM was that people are talking about her. I recall that when I met her initially she said something weird..that I must not share the personal stuff she will share with me with my friend and others. I simply told her then not to tell me stuff like that, as I dont want to get into the middle of something...Im hopeful though that I will make a few new friends

I attract a lot of people down on their luck or those who have issues

We all have them but in my situation I really shouldnt be hanging around those types

posted January 20, 2014 09:25 PM            

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Originally posted by Natsukashii:
I know that we all have a cross to bear but mine is simply crushing me

I know there are people who reach out and can talk to God and the angels but I feel like I have hit a blank wall every time

I'm a colossal failure although on the surface it may not look like it. Randall once reminded me that I am luckier than three quarters of the people on this planet...and in the material sense that is true

But I guess my past and all that happened to me is bearing down on me now

I have been an outcast since my birth after my courageous Mom gave birth to me out of wedlock in the late sixties. My parents loved each other but my dad's folks made him marry someone else because my mom was not of the same religion

While Mom was away making a living as a nurse to keep our heads above water I was being sexually abused at different times by two neighbours and two cousins. I have carried this shame my entire life

I own two properties, my own car and have a fairly good job. But I am completely and utterly alone here aside from my dog who is old and not long for this world

Men don't treat me the way they treat other women. They think I'm tough and I don't need loving or nurturing
I no longer hope to meet " the one" and have accepted that he simply does not exist

I have been through everything these past years: lost my mom, then two aunts I was very close to, got divorced, got laid off twice, lost my dog and now face the prospect of losing the other. My best friend , my little brother is thousands of miles away on another continent

When my dog dies everyone that I considered family will be gone. I will be all alone in this country.

I didn't do this in the hopes of getting any kind of reading...just your thoughts on why bad things happen all the time to certain people

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