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From: Mälmo, Sweden
Registered: Aug 2012

posted January 07, 2014 10:57 PM            

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Not even sure where to start off at...but basically I was really heartbroken since about 7 months ago and recently I have HEALED.
Yes truly fully healed. Please don't tell me I haven't because I have and I am no longer interested in that individual at all, in what he does or who he is with, I absolutely have zero feelings for him. I am finally free from those thoughts of him.

However, it isn't like the pain just goes away and leaves nothing behind. Absolutely not. Not in my case.
This pain...has left a lot of scarrrrrrrringggggggggg on my heart.

Basically, all relationships disgust me now, good ones bad ones fake ones real ones, happiness sadness apathy loneliness, all these things disgust me.

I'm really afraid to say this and I don't want to but...I feel very apathetic towards warm feelings and love relationships of all kinds right now.
All I've seen in my life has been nothing good in the love realm and I am really not sure if it is to come.

Don't quote.

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From: Aries fantasy land ^_^
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posted January 08, 2014 12:38 PM            

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I am glad that you healed and that you got over him. Give yourself some more time though. If you don't feel like dating right now, that is probably a good idea - it usually is, after the end of an important relationship to take some time on your own. Focus on other things for now, studies, career, friends etc until you'll be ready to get back in the dating scene. You're doing great!

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From: Mälmo, Sweden
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posted January 08, 2014 09:16 PM            

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Thanks Hera, sending love your way

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From: neptune
Registered: Nov 2012

posted January 09, 2014 12:00 AM            

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I feel kind of weird like you right now. My Gemini friend is going through difficulties and it's really super tough so I feel all this anxiety and worry. Uncertainty. At times I just want to run away and I wish I never started talking to him because I feel so psychologically addicted now.

The way I see it is, cold and aloof loner is preferable to psychologically dependent because it's so uncomfortable when you have known someone for five years and the future is uncertain. My Sagittarian sun friend that I have known forever got engaged a few months ago and he is the same sort of psychological safety net for me even though I wasn't ever attracted to him in anyway but friendship. I feel guilty about it but it's just the way it is. We know each other very well. It's worse with the Gemini friend because I feel even closer and I feel like the wind is getting knocked out of me some. I just feel weird. Me no like.
And then I feel even more guilty for being selfish.
I just hope everything goes back to the way it was before. That's my Taurus moon talking.

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