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Topic: Should I just kill myself?
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whitewitch111
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From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 04:51 PM
  
I don't mean to be over-dramatic, but I'm seriously to that point, can't do this anymore, I feel I will never get a job, and other things have been riding on me for a while.
Bu am I only feeling this way because of that grand cross thing? My Moon and sun are in Libra. And my Uranus and Neptune are in Capricorn...I don't know...IP: Logged |
mercuranian
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From: another time another place
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 29, 2014 04:52 PM
just hang on. this too shall pass.IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 04:53 PM
It's so hard to have hope sometimes...Thank you though.IP: Logged |
BellaFenice
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From: Phoenix, AZ, USA
Registered: Sep 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 05:01 PM
Sending you positive vibes, it is a really tough situation to be in. I'm here to listen if you ever need it. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted May 29, 2014 05:25 PM
You are not alone in these present hard times. Sending you hugs  ------------------
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 40880
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 29, 2014 05:37 PM
When the pressure gets to the point it feels like it's about to break, the teapot whistles. Hang on. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 05:51 PM
Thank you all. I'm actually feeling a bit better. Just got to pick myself up and try again.  IP: Logged |
MetalAphrodite
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From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted May 29, 2014 06:11 PM
To title, short answer no. Long answer to title, hell to the mfk no. The more you talk about your pains and frustrations, the better you will feel. Just talk about it so we can refill your magic gauge and you can work your magic no matter where you go. IP: Logged |
Lonake
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posted May 29, 2014 06:17 PM
Hi whitewitch  If its in orb then Pluto' squaring your Sun you're meant to go through a metaphorical death, as in leaving the old way you operated behind. Maybe you're trying to hold on to,something from the past too tightly? Either way something's gotta give, you have to change to get things on track the way theyre "meant" to be. Best of luck to you, it's sometimes hard with this one cos you get stubborn and want to hold on to something that's not good for you anymore  something will take its place !]
The square coming from Capricorn will give a lesson on concerns of career, authority (internal/external)and then with Libra sun, you find your place with regards to social stratification. Probably looking at finding out where you fit in, esp because of pluto touching off uranus/neptune in cap. pluto/neptune/uranus should make things clear in time, after the initial .....disillusionment. Like crystal. It's a generational thing but you for if your sun/moons in orb then it's personalized.
Maybe it's the beginning of some type of lifelong legal or political interest, who,knows. Look at saturn too, it's not all about the outers IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted May 29, 2014 06:18 PM
Lonake
You are back. I missed you, as did so many people  ------------------
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whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 06:20 PM
Yeah its just difficult right now. I really wanted that job...it was giving makeovers to people. And I'm really really disappointed I didn't get it. Plus my mom is putting a lot of stress on me for my boyfriend to move out of the house. I kind of feel like its up to me to keep the peace...IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 06:23 PM
Hey metal answered you on your twin flame question in birdy's topic. Take a look. IP: Logged |
KarkaQueen
Knowflake Posts: 3686
From: Uranus
Registered: May 2011
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posted May 29, 2014 06:24 PM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
Yeah its just difficult right now. I really wanted that job...it was giving makeovers to people. And I'm really really disappointed I didn't get it. Plus my mom is putting a lot of stress on me for my boyfriend to move out of the house. I kind of feel like its up to me to keep the peace...
How come she doesnt like ur bf?
Have u got a College degree IP: Logged |
Lonake
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posted May 29, 2014 06:24 PM
The thing I've been hearing from Librans a lot is big concerns over what they think is right/just. Pluto passing through seems to be reflecting passionate, very passionate at times, views in this regard. ... HI again, Ami IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 06:27 PM
I'm in college right now. And well, she's not comfortable with our age difference. He's 14 years older then me. I can't honestly blame her for this. But he has no where to go currently but our house.IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1664
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted May 29, 2014 06:29 PM
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Originally posted by Lonake:
The thing I've been hearing from Librans a lot is big concerns over what they think is right/just. Pluto passing through seems to be reflecting passionate, very passionate at times, views in this regard. ... HI again, Ami
That really resonates actually. And I've just been in a funk since late April..so it probably is Pluto squaring my sun and moon. They're less then a degree apart no less.
Moon-11 Libra 37
Sun-11 Libra 41 IP: Logged |
mercuranian
Knowflake Posts: 836
From: another time another place
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 29, 2014 06:35 PM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
That really resonates actually. And I've just been in a funk since late April..so it probably is Pluto squaring my sun and moon. They're less then a degree apart no less. Moon-11 Libra 37
Sun-11 Libra 41
ouch!!
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MoonWitch
Moderator Posts: 1638
From: The Beach
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 29, 2014 06:36 PM
My heart aches that anyone should ever feel like they need to ask that question. I can't imagine the disappointment you must be going through to resort to that thought but please don't make a choice you can't take back.Life is full of so many ups and downs. You may be down now but the Universe has surprises for you. I can give a little example. A month ago, my friend came and interviewed for my job since I'm moving and looking for a replacement. She always wanted an office job and heard my good stories about mine and the people I work with. The interview went well but in the end my boss decided on someone else. My friend was so disappointed and really sad. She questioned a lot of things and wondered if she was good enough, etc. She had a hard time dealing with her feelings about it. Yesterday, she got a job at the front desk of a tattoo shop - which is SO PERFECT for her because she has tons of tattoos and a really vivacious personality. Don't give up. <3
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Doux Rêve
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posted May 29, 2014 09:15 PM
You'll find your way, whitewitch.Stay strong & don't give up. Take it one day at a time. And keep venting here, if you need to talk. 
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OFT. Lonake... o...m...g... come say hi in Astro 2 or LLC 2 or something... It's a great surprise to see you. You've been missed.
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 40880
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 29, 2014 09:47 PM
Missed you, Lonake!IP: Logged |
Chiemi
Moderator Posts: 1721
From: Michigan
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted May 29, 2014 09:49 PM
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Originally posted by MetalAphrodite:
To title, short answer no. Long answer to title, hell to the mfk no. The more you talk about your pains and frustrations, the better you will feel. Just talk about it so we can refill your magic gauge and you can work your magic no matter where you go.
And you're not being over-dramatic, your human we all have low points. I'm basically repeating what everyone else has already said, but I just wanted to say to also hang on because things do get better. Trust me. Nothing in life stays at a low point for long, it may seem like things aren't great and you may feel like you can't see how it could improve in the near future but it surely does time and time again. And plus, the way I see it is that everything always happens for a reason (and I hope this doesn't sound like an obnoxious saying). I'm sure somewhere down the line you'll find something even better for you and everything will just work out as it should. You'll be fine
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Lexxigramer
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From: The Etheric Realms...Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat...& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted May 29, 2014 11:46 PM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
I don't mean to be over-dramatic, but I'm seriously to that point, can't do this anymore, I feel I will never get a job, and other things have been riding on me for a while.
Bu am I only feeling this way because of that grand cross thing? My Moon and sun are in Libra. And my Uranus and Neptune are in Capricorn...I don't know...
I know too well the feeling.
Please keep talking to us.
{{{hugs}}}
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
It's so hard to have hope sometimes...
Oh yes it can be very hard.
Living is often harder than dying.
Knowing one is living but has ills that are killing them a bit every day and making each day more of a burden and agony,
hope soon dies;
because well;
seriously, no way getting around it;
some things are only going to get worse;
(speaking personally here, not about your life......)
but yet oddly a blessing some times of having more precious time......
well I have been suicidal many times and now struggle with living whilst having serious reasons to just give up.
Too many reasons.
I do not know you well enough to counsel you;
but keep talking;
seriously it can help.
quote:
Originally posted by whitewitch111:
I'm in college right now. And well, she's not comfortable with our age difference. He's 14 years older then me. I can't honestly blame her for this. But he has no where to go currently but our house.
I can relate. My family has nadda to do with me being married to a man 15 years younger.
Well just hold on and keep talking please.
And do not take my words the wrong way;
but you are young and physically healthy?
Live and keep experiencing the ups and downs and look forward to the next up times! Youth and good health are undervalued.
Once both are gone;
as I know too well;
it makes finding reasons to live very difficult because the future will be not pleasant.
I just hold on and hope for remissions and accept that poverty is my lot and to stop grieving about what I never had and never will.
You have time and can physically deal with living?
OK...
brain farting so better go before my thoughts get too freaky....
Take care of you and love you OK? {{{hugs}}}IP: Logged |
Padre35
Knowflake Posts: 3588
From: Asheville, NC, US
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted May 29, 2014 11:48 PM
Whitewitch..what makes you happy?IP: Logged |
charmainec
Moderator Posts: 8337
From: Venus next to Randall
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 30, 2014 02:41 AM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
I don't mean to be over-dramatic, but I'm seriously to that point, can't do this anymore
I feel EXACTLY the same. :'( Holding on by a thread. IP: Logged |
MetalAphrodite
Moderator Posts: 2241
From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted May 30, 2014 03:10 AM
quote:
Originally posted by whitewitch111:
Hey metal answered you on your twin flame question in birdy's topic. Take a look.
I answered your q . IP: Logged |
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