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Topic: Am I going to go postal
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Panthera Leo
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posted February 06, 2016 08:34 PM
 
I can't seem to cool my feelings of rage anymore.I really am trying.I try to bite my tounge.I ressist the urge to smash my surroundings and anyone pushes their luck with me.I try to breathe.I pray that I will become a better person.I try to meditate and fail.I try walking it off.I try to practice forgiveness.I try to be positive because negativity attracts negativity.I try seeing the others point of view.Still nothing changes and when I get angry my whole temperature goes through the roof and I feel like a wild cat. I know that I made a lot of failures and there is still alot of things I need to work on.There are things I only have myself to blame for I know that. It's just right know I feel like it isn't just me anymore.I feel like there are far to many people trying to push my buttons. When I think of these people I feel like I just want the gods to shove a lightning bolt where the sun doesn't shine. I know that Ghandi,Jesus,Buddha,Krishna and many other pecaful and loving entities would ring my neck as I know I could break the patience of a saint. However I know that there have been plenty of times in the past where I tried to keep the peace and not cause a fuss because I geniuenly wanted everybody to be happy and get along.I feel like in some ways I put my life on hold and delayed myself to try and put others first.Know I wish I had been a little bit more selfish.It is like all the negative energy,bad eperiences and old the feelings have formed inside me like one negative entity inside me even though I can barely remember much that happened it is still there. What is the next step for me to really move on ?
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Valentine
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From: Canada
Registered: Dec 2014
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posted February 06, 2016 08:50 PM
The fact that you realize you have this problem is the first step, you sound like you're a caring person, you should keep telling yourself that you're lovable,don't even think of those who disappointed you, take deep breaths, please read the boomerang thread, it should help you.IP: Logged |
Panthera Leo
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posted February 06, 2016 09:00 PM
Thank You Valentine I will try to follow the advice as best I can.I will take a look at the boomering thread. IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted February 07, 2016 11:16 AM
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Panthera Leo
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posted February 07, 2016 11:36 AM
Thank you Randall  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted February 07, 2016 11:44 AM
I hear you, PL. You have a chart which kind of makes this problem worse for you, but we all have it. It is human.------------------
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Panthera Leo
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posted February 07, 2016 11:57 AM
Thank you Ami Anne I hope you are doing well .IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted February 07, 2016 12:22 PM
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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
Thank you Ami Anne I hope you are doing well .
Thank you, PL! You have an air void, if I remember, plus a lot of thwarting of your ability to communicate. This is a big root of all this. I am super high in air and I find ways to let it all go. This does not make me better because each person has their struggles BUT it shows that your chart is really at the root of all this. The easy answer is you need ways to let all the rage, pain, anger and fear go. That is the "simple" answer. Also, know that EVERYONE has it, but some people are not honest and will diss you for even saying it. Just ignore people like that because they are lying lol ------------------
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From: N. America
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted February 08, 2016 03:48 PM
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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
When I think of these people I feel like I just want the gods to shove a lightning bolt where the sun doesn't shine.
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