posted September 02, 2016 08:08 PM
Hello Eyes_Like_Pisces ...I hope you're feeling a little bit better?
Sat here for 4 hours writing a response to your post the Sunday after you wrote, but at the last moments my post got messed up, and I decided to scrap it and come back later, but that never happened.
I'm glad Elysia responded.
There have been extremely stressful sky transits adding extra tension. You have Pisces in your LL name. A long T-Square with Saturn-Mars squaring Pisces. Mars (when it went backwards, then forward again in Scorpio had been forming a stressful adjustment angle with Uranus-Eris. (Remember the conflicts going on with Lives-Matter issues?) So much rebellion and acting out resistance against authority-forces, not wanting to be told what to do, and holding people to responsibility and promises.
What I saw is that you have had a lot of responsibility, so much on your plate. You are happy to have met someone who likes to 'be there' for you (really, he seems to want to). .... So so precious that he held your face and comforted you like that. That's someone who seemed to understand the stresses HE was feeling too, and took the time afterwards to want to make sure that you were okay going through all this.
When there are a lot of details, and schedules and timings, and shortages and misaligned connections, it's very very easy to 'feel' the irritation, to intellectually be making one correction after another.
(The underneath tone to all of it is a feeling of being victimized--- which those sky transits were very much highlighting the days before and of your posting... You were feeling the emphasized HD of your scuffles along with the energies.)
We aren't always 'aware' of what is bothering us until things come to a head like that. Ego energy is strong and even righteously, 'with' good reasons accompanying too. .... (One good reason for knowing what the general energies are, astrologically-- and what transits are working through your chart. ... I know for me, if I 'know' what's going on, sometimes it doesn't 'stop' me from feeling what I feel?, but it surely helps me either keep equanimity, or, use my energy more productively, or, understand what my partner is going through too??..... When both parties know what's going on inside them, and squabbling occurs, then its easier to resolve.
Sitting down and resolving problems builds trust after a long time. It's like you form layer upon layer upon layer. You each take responsibility for your feelings, while the sharp corners and chips get knocked off the proverbial shoulders. The more you go through, there are successive layers of feeling successful. .... But you must 'work' at keeping that communication-stream clear of debris. Let it accumulate?, and it overflows its banks, even could toxify if dead things get left for too long.
If you tend to be a person (who has had to assume a lot of responsibility) who is into detailings?...... Then, learn how to pull forward all the things you see are good, and play down the faults and failings that arise to cause glitchings. This needs adjustings.
What you feed, grows. .... See all the positive things he does--- He (and YOU), are Loyal people, Faithful, Self-Sacrificing.
Hold these things as Jewels you see IN that person, when the aggravations grow too strong....
I hope you feel better... {{ }}
And I hope you find the one who can see deep inside you, and help you 'feel' the essence of who you are, (and you to him). Squabbles are an opportunity to go deeper, and find the Intimacy available when the streams are cleaned, and the waters of tears turn into tenderness, vulnerability, and appreciation and Love for the Soul you have as individuals and as One as a working-relationship couple.
(music) My Immortal (Evanescence, lyrics) [4:23] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqN5SV7TMn4
And sometimes, you have to step up to be The Hero in the relationship. ..... Including the comforting of your own self. You are an Awesome Woman... Carrying all those Beautiful Loyal Faithful traits within yourself to those dependent on you....
You ARE the gentle and wonderful Star of your Show.... Give yourself such Beautiful Beautiful Credit, sweetie. Realize how much Strength you have, even in a puddle of vulnerability and feeling weak. That is valid too... But at that Core and Center within, you have A Hero supporting you from Within...
Feel Loved, Hugged, and Supported today.
(music) Hero (Mariah Carey, 1995, Live at Madison Square Garden, lyrics) [4:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cd9rQ5pu3m8