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Topic: I feel like I don’t belong anywhere nor with anyone?
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Loveher
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posted October 04, 2020 08:06 PM
  
I have this weird situation that I am going through and need to get It out of my system.
Few years ago I moved to this place in the world and I was happy.
I lived my life in a weird way, looking back I realized that I was stupid and naive. I realized that my friends and family manipulated me the whole time and they were hating on me.
I don’t want to get into details I just had a tough year. My life got paused and it forced me to think about things in my life.
I just feel disconnected.
The place I live in keeps getting more and more toxic. I cannot feel happy anymore.
I cut most contact with family.
I cut contact with my best friend.
All of them told me they love me but they were lying.
The friend was envious of everything I had and she was just waiting to see me fail when I did not she showed her true colors.
The family member knows me very well she studied psychology in college and she knows my vulnerabilities and I realized now after Decades years of being siblings that she was the one who is trying to destroy my happiness. Everytime I get a tiny bit of success or happiness she just say things that she knew would send me to a panic mode. I thought she loved me as a family and now to be honest I don’t know if I can trust a woman again.
Realizing this truth about this family member was heartbreaking and was the last straw. I have severe trust issues now. If I meet the perfect partner now and they tell me they love me I wont believe them I wont even be able to love them back.
My saturn in aquarius in 11th house and I know how saturn return can shake up everything.
I don’t even know what to do anymore. Its like I cannot trust any human being. And I wont be able to trust anyone. I feel disconnected from everything. I am trying to keep being positive because whenver I am in a dark mood I do attract problems in my life.
I don’t know if its saturn return.IP: Logged |
Randall
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From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted October 05, 2020 12:41 PM
Moving this to Sweet Peas In The Rain.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted October 05, 2020 11:15 PM
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Graham
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Registered: Apr 2019
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posted October 06, 2020 12:32 AM
Originally posted on your thread at http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum11/HTML/026085.html :-
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Moon in Scorpio/8th is about learning to control feelings, emotions and passions. ... Mercury-sextile-Mars has the potential to think before acting, but impulsive Aries/1st and (s)mothering Cancer/3rd are not naturally inclined to do so. (Thus, this talent has to be consciously developed). ... Thinking before acting is the key to effective control/USE of feelings, emotions and passions. ... Effective use of Moon in Scorpio/8th will open the door for you to "make a difference" in the lives of others.
Might now be a good time for you to review the past events created in your life when your Yod was activated by progressions transits? [For example, the transits of Saturn will have activated the Yod for 29+ years now. ... So, reflect upon whatever was going on in your life as/when progressed or/and Saturn was passing through 26degs29mins to 01degs03mins of ANY sign. (27degs to 01degs is close enough.) The first of these transits happened throughout September and October of the year in which you were born. ... So, too early for you to remember - but you may have heard from a family member about something that happened then. However, you probably can remember what happened during the most recent of these transits - which began around 14th February 2020 and lasted until 6th April 2020. IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 13791
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted October 06, 2020 01:34 PM
Loveher... Hope you will see a way to 'get the hell away' from all that. Hope you will find 'loyal' friends in life.People who with their 'lying lips' say they love you, then by 'behavior' totally speak and demonstrate they are NOT in congruency, are playing with your 'head'. They manipulate YOU into betraying your OWN SELF, and not believing your own senses and your experience of the truth. Believe people's 'behavior'-- WORDS can be hollow, and used against you-- in that false words become toxic and act as a sabotaging within. Love... REAL Love has positive matching ACTIONS that accompanies their speech. What is being 'communicated' towards you? (music) Evangeline (Little Big Town)
[4:34] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzzdf7rerfg Wishing you Divine Cover,
.. and Fated GOOD Meetings. Holding The Light
(music) "I Am Light" {{  }}
(India.Arie, from SuperSoul Session--
Oprah Winfrey Network, 2016)
[3:38] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL-gxfx2QtY Peace, Loveher. IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 13791
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted October 12, 2020 01:06 PM
Loveher.... You are extremely fortunate to have the favor of Graham working with you on discerning features of your chart. ... Very fortunate. LL .... is Lucky to have him.
He is careful and patient with people.
GOOD at what he does. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
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Registered: May 2020
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posted October 12, 2020 03:22 PM
Dear Mirage,I know I don't enter LL very often and when I do I have little time just to read the first couple of topics on some forums. But whenever I see a post of yours I read it. Just like now. Of course Graham is careful, patient, considerate, good, brilliant at what he does! I have read quite a few posts of his. He really delves into the uncharted waters of any map laid in front of him... And you Mirage! You are always so warm, so welcoming, so innocent, so supportive, so willing to give your time to help others without asking anything in return! And believe me, you are doing all these great things in a very unique way! Your way is one of a kind! I don't care if I don't know you. I don't care if you are thousand miles away. I can feel your heart. And that is everything. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
Knowflake Posts: 248
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Registered: May 2020
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posted October 12, 2020 03:33 PM
This warm and inviting home is very lucky to have both of you here.IP: Logged |
Graham
Knowflake Posts: 1768
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posted October 13, 2020 03:19 AM
Thank you for the supportive comments, mirage and EE.  IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 13791
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted October 26, 2020 11:53 PM
Thank you, Eternal Energy.. You're Very Kind. IP: Logged |
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