posted November 03, 2022 01:46 PM            

I was at chemothetapy
today on this day of my
68th
Birthday😳

My sister died whilst I was there 😭👽
She was only 57 years old😭👽

Breast cancer spread to her bones
she survived the breast cancer but then
got hit with a bad shock👽😭
She went downhill very fast 😭👽

I feel very cteepy strange in shock
to say the least👽👽👽

Still in shock and not doing
well myself
what with the new added
partial paralysis crap
going on 👽👽👽

I feel so damn lost😭👽

Happy freaking birthday👽😭😳

posted November 04, 2022 02:06 AM            

ONLY ONE PERSON
Here at LindaLand
Took the time to wish me a
HAPPY 68th. BIRTHDAY
On November 3rd.
Yesterday👽👽👽😭

To that person,

So again thank aquaguy91
for giving me the
ONLY happy birthday greeting that
I got for my 68th. Birthday🥰💞💋❤️😎

posted November 04, 2022 09:57 AM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
I'm sorry again Lexx. I know that has to be really tough. I had to bury my grandmother this past birthday, so I sort of know what you're going through to an extent. Hugs to you ♥️

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posted November 04, 2022 10:24 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
I'm so sorry.

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posted November 09, 2022 04:05 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
sorry for your loss, bit late, but still... saying happy late birthday feels a bit inappropriate considering though but the sentiment is there all the same

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Yes wishing me a happy birthday
on this thread seems weird
but November 3rd.2022
was my 68th. Birthday and also
the exact day my sister died😭👽
Cannot really separate the two
events easily 👽😳

My sister had a VERY warped
sense of humour and I suspect
she would have found the
synchronicity of life and death
on same morning
as twostedly interesting👽😳
She was an Aquarian

posted November 09, 2022 04:18 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
sorry for your loss, bit late, but still... saying happy late birthday feels a bit inappropriate considering though but the sentiment is there all the same

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Yes wishing me a happy birthday
on this thread seems weird
but November 3rd.2022
was my 68th. birthday
and also
the exact day my sister died😭👽
Cannot really separate the two
events easily 👽😳

My sister had a VERY warped
sense of humour🤣👽
and I suspect
she would have found the
synchronicity of life and death
on that same morning
as twostedly interesting👽😳
She was an Aquarian

posted November 12, 2022 06:51 AM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Yes, I hesitated wishing you a "happy" birthday.

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Originally posted by saronna:
Me too Lexx I hesitated to wish you a happy birthday. I'm so sorry for your sister loss.

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Yes it was a very strange birthday
and the sudden unexpected news
wws quite a shock to say the least👽😭😳

See it was even more creepy weird
sureal and stranger than strange
synchronistic reasons day
of odd synchronous things👽😳

First off
we all thought my sister
was completely cured of her breast
and lymph node etcetera cancers😎❤️

She was a 3 year survivor of
those cancers and
doing well and traveling in Europe
and in various places in the American
western states😎❤️

Her beautiful flaming long red auburn
hair even grew back 😎❤️

She was back to doing her
college professor career
She was looking forwards to more
Archaeology on site research again
in south America 😎❤️
No one knew including her that somehow
cancer had hit her bones without
warning and it only took
less than a couple weeks
to slay her 😭👽😭
The news did not get spread until
she was literally the her death☠️🛌🏨😷
bed on her last day😭👽

The bone cancer was so invasively aggressively fast it took her and
all of us by utter shock👽😭
Never saw it coming👽😳😭

So yes
I told about her death even though
that literally happened on my
68th. Birthday
because the two events are intertwined
in a strange serious of things that
defy explanations👽👽👽

So whilst wishing me here at
LindaLand a happy birthday
may appear strange
the two events,
my sister's
death time
and my 68th. Birthday did
happen at about your he same
time of the morning that I was
born back in 1954👽😳

It gets even weirder on top of
all that👽😳
I was told in February by 3 doctors,
so called oncologist cancer specialist doctors,
that I needed to accept death and 👽😳😭
that hospice was my fate👽😳😭
They told me that I would probably
not make it to
Summer 2022👽👽👽😳
The worse jerk assshat doctor
even laughed and
giggle about it🤬😳👽
That is a long story not posting
it here on this thread👽

Well geez I am still here
over 9 months later
hand in partial temporary remission
but need the dangerous highly invasive surgery👽😳
The chemothetapy is working and
preparing my body to have the surgeon hopefully be able to totally remove
anything that could or would bring
it out of remission
😳
if it is not all removed surgically 👽😭
Once I survive the surgeries known as debulking
then more chemotherapy and meds for
a few years and testing and multiple
cat scans to track if it has
indeed been eradicated😳💙

So damn sick from chemotherapy
side effects though😳👽😭🤮🥵🤢💉😷
Radiation burns from testing with
Fluroscopic exams make my body look
and feel badly sunburned and that
can last many weeks🤮👽😭
Very very weak, partial paralysis
and eyesight coming and going and
vacillating from literally blink
to blink👽😭
I even need hand red at times as
cannot
even hold food or lift spoons
etcetera to eat at times
I tremble so badly👽😳😭
My beloved had a few incurable diseases
and all this dealing with me
is so hard on him too😭😭😭

Okay oops👽👽👽
Getting off track here as to what
I wanted to explain about that
utterally strange day👽

1.
She literally died at about
the same time as my birth time
was in 1954👽
So close to the exact time
it could not vary by more
than a few minutes
which can be
attributed to different
clocks being used 👽😳
2.
I was already having a very bad morning
and had been telling my husband that
I thought I was in the dying process
for about the past two weeks👽😭
Yes it was that bad more often
than not👽😭
I had become mostly bed bound and
partially paralyzed👽😭
I could barely make it to the
car to go to chemothetapy and many
other medical appointments😭👽
I needed help to dress and
much more👽😭
3.
Then more weirdness👽😳
When I got home from chemotherapy
I discovered a message in my fb
Telling me that my sister had
just died😳👽😭
Here it gets ever done weirder 👽👽👽
Withing hours my body felt different👽😳
Totally unexplained changes happened👽😳
Not well but the moment that
I read the news
of her death,
I literally lost abruptly
that horrific sense
of I thought I was in the
final stages of dying process
and actually felt and believed that
I was in the dying process for
the past two weeks or so,
Literally the time frame my sister had
after she learned she was dying👽😳
I was having surreal bone muscle
tendon pain even for me it did not
make sense as it was not my usual
types of agony👽😳
All the gloom and doom feeling
like I was in the dying process
totally passed whilst I was at
chemothetapy
before I learned of her death😳
I told my husband that something
had suddenly changed😳👽
It was like her death removed
from my psyche that sense of dying
before I learned of her death when
we got home👽😳
Strange how I also did not have
my tablet with me as usual to
check my messages as usual 👽
4.
My sister and other siblings even
without normal communications contact
have always had psychic contact,
both my father and mother too
with us😳😎
Too much to illustrate here all
of those telepathic and or psychic
events,
but there were always
so many of them 😎😳
5.
My sister and I oddly had almost
the same names we used normally 😎😳
I am calling mine just F
and her name as FH
When I arrived at chemothetapy
I was set up with a nurse whom
I did not like as she almost
ruined my intravenous surgically
implanted on my chest intravenous
access port used to o deliver
the chemothetapy drugs and
several other drugs infused
every week and take blood samples😳

This nurse was an idiot and as she
wheeled me in (yes need transport
chair can barely walk)
She loudly called me
by my
sister's name
and not mine👽😳
I corrected her and said my
name is NOT
FH 😳
it is F💙
😳
She kept calling me my sister's name nevertheless and acted totally
bewildered 👽
Then as she was trying to inject
the needle into my chest port
she kept screwing up and kept hitting
the metal sides of it causing me
terrible pain and made the blood
not flow nor the drugs👽🤬
This was the second time time
that she
screwed up doing that in the past
months🤬🤬🤬
I screamed in shock rather loudly
that she is as killing me the
pain was very very bad
and I almost fell out the chair
and all stv passed out from
the sudden terrible pain👽😳🤬😭
That was unexpectedly
the exact time that
I learned later that my
sister had just died😳😭😭👽
Get this weird bit,
The name of this stupid nurse was
exactly the same name as the half
sister who was with my sister
as she died😳👽
It is not a common name
and strange
for both that nurse
and the half sister
to have the exact same name👽😳
The timing of too many things
that morning defies normal
coincidences in my point of view👽😳
6.
More weirdness👽😳
My husband
and my deceased sister's
fiance's
have the same
Middle and last names
hey both go by😳👽

I did not know she had gotten divorced
and that this new fellow was who
stayed with her after the surviving the breast etcetera cancer and then the bone cancer that she died from 😳👽

So many odd synchronicities that morning
that it just seems somehow tied to fate
somehow😳👽

Pardon any typos or strange autofills as usual please 👽

posted November 13, 2022 11:08 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm really sorry. We just lost our dog, too. I know it isn't the same, but it's still going to take a while to adjust. It was two days ago, when he last pushed his nose into my neck.

I keep going into denial, and then sobbing when I can't stay there.

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posted November 16, 2022 02:20 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:

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posted November 16, 2022 02:21 PM            

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Originally posted by saronna:
❤️

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