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posted December 18, 2022 12:27 AM            

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I'm really sad this Christmas holidays. It's been a hard year as much as I enjoy playing soulmate game. I met another soulmate but he's married and has a 5 week old son. It didn't work out because he's married. I listen to music and it helps not to feel so down and depressed. I have my family and my mum. I have been so sick. I don't know if I can be happy anymore. I'm so unhappy and it's not unhappy because this life is hard this I can tackle but it's deep unhappy because things out of control but I don't know if there's a God and if God can change all things.

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posted December 18, 2022 01:41 AM            

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I didn't know life was going to be so hard. I have always see life as an adventure journey even with grief and losing love ones. And it comforts me know reincarnation is there even if physical immortality is not possible this lifetime. I don't know what to do with this sadness. I don't think we are soulmates he lied about being married and we have been together for 9 months.

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posted December 18, 2022 08:05 PM            

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I hope it gets better for you.💙

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posted December 19, 2022 12:19 AM            

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Thanks I don't believe how hard this life is growing up in an abusive home and how much life changed after January 2007 with my previous nieghbours. My father had alot of rage and would hit me and my mum and sisters. I didnt know what life was about growing up just trying to survive and being so sad. I'm 51 now and I see life as an adventure but after a hard lifetime.

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posted December 19, 2022 12:33 AM            

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My father was a pastor and he was deeply unhappy and it was an unhappy marriage. I felt so sorry for my mum and couldn't understand why she didn't leave and support herself and me and my sister's but she was raped by her uncle and had two kids before she got married to my father. Maybe there was alot of traumatic for her and she cling to her husband. I love my mum but it effected me growing up and I was codependent with my mum.

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posted December 19, 2022 12:42 AM            

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I'm looking at how I ended up with a married man and thinking he was my soulmate. As soon as I know he's married I ended it. I don't write to him anymore or phone him. I made a mistake not dating him but having a relationship with him a long distance relationship with him

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posted December 20, 2022 02:36 PM            

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posted January 04, 2023 08:19 PM            

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2022 was the worst xmas I've ever experienced. My Scorpio, Taurus, Leo, and Aquarius was and still is way to triggered by my family. Plus my mom had covid. But my mom does not give a **** when she has covid. She will go to the grocery store with covid symptoms, and see people.

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