posted December 23, 2022 11:11 PM
All my relationships with people have always been completely one-sided. I blame it on having Sun conjunct Saturn in the 12th house, but I also blame it on having Mars in the 3rd house within 5° of my IC because these situations have been a repetitive theme with roommates since I moved out in January of 2019. Until this year, the utilities were always in my roommates' names and they were always completely unforgiving about me paying my share of the bill as soon as they got it. Mind you, you usually have two weeks or so after receiving the bill before it is actually due. That didn't stop them from making rude disrespectful comments towards me, including telling me to grow up and quit being irresponsible on the one year anniversary of my mom's death. I'll note that I always paid before the bill was actually due and usually paid as soon as the bill was shared with me. The guy who was the worst about being a jerk had two parents that both made six figures and he didn't have to work at all while I was taking 19 semester hours worth of classes, working, and dealing with health issues and suicidal depression. That's the kind of guy that gets it all in life. A rich family. A hot feminine girlfriend who is actually a good person. Good health. And good looks. But he is complete **** at a soul level. Any way, this isn't about that POS. I just wanted to get my bitter Saturnian rant out. Lmao
Anyway, now I have the utilities in my name and the guy rooming with me has been way late every single month and I have been tolerant but I regularly ask for it and take small chunks throughout the month even though I'm really hurting financially. And last Friday he asked for a ride to work and I agreed, but let him know that it needed to be quick because my tank was empty and I needed to get gas pronto and plus I was already ready to walk out the door when he asked. Well I waited another good 10 minutes or so and he still wasn't ready to go, so I reminded him again that I needed to get going and he still didn't have a sense of urgency. So I left his arse there and left a quick note saying "Sorry! I told you twice I needed to get going!" Ever since then he has been extremely passive aggressive and doesn't even acknowledge my existence when we pass in the hall or in the kitchen/living area. Mind you, he still owes me for part of last month's utilities and I just got a new bill that is coming up and he owes me all of his share of that as well.
This guy doesn't even have a car and I have been nice enough to give him rides for free multiple times when he already owed me money. How many people would be that kind? Not many. He's a complete clown for acting this way. And it's great because I'm getting to see his karma play out in real time. Now it's under 0° with the wind chill factored in and he's having to walk everywhere because his big ego is too big to tell me sorry for being an ass. That's what I mean when everything is always so one-sided in my relationships with others. They always expect my ego to be smaller. They expect me to sacrifice; to be the bigger person and say sorry. But those days are over. When someone is in the wrong I'm not going to cave. They are going to make things right to me and take ownership of their **** before they get back into my life. I've got Saturn on my ascendant now. I'm interpreting my new attitude as a positive manifestation of that transit. I feel like I'm owning my power and authority now.
Lindaland
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posted December 23, 2022 11:11 PM
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