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posted July 07, 2025 08:21 PM            

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I've seen other people do this and thought it would be helpful and therapeutic for me to journal my transit experiences. So, I'm trying something new. Transiting Uranus is currently right on my natal Mars and it's been intense. I've been looking ahead to this transit for some time because I sensed it would be important for me. I knew it would be powerful and shake things up, but I didn't expect it to be so emotional. Uranus just hit my Mars and I've been more emotional than I have since mom died in 2020.

It started on Sunday morning when my best friend called me crying telling me she is leaving to move back home across the country. That hit me like a jolt (very Uranian) and sent me into all my grief around losing connections. My connections with women have always had an element of pain and are usually fleeting. As a result, I shut down emotionally years ago and have been afraid to get attached to people. I get the sense this transit will be a catalyst that helps me live and love more courageously without needing to possess or control.

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posted July 13, 2025 05:38 PM            

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Looking forward to reading your thoughts, bro.

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posted July 13, 2025 08:28 PM            

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I actually got to see the friend I mentioned in the OP the night before she left. We spent the whole evening just talking on her balcony. It was the perfect closure for me. Since then I've felt a lot of emotions and a lot of urgency to live more purposefully and passionately. Those thoughts and feelings have doubled since Saturday when I went to my great nephew's 1st birthday. It just hit me that time is moving by so fast and I waste too much of it dwelling in the past.

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posted July 14, 2025 05:23 PM            

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posted July 20, 2025 06:26 PM            

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Bump!

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posted July 26, 2025 01:57 PM            

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The last week has been so interesting. At my current job there's a young woman (21) who seems to have taken a liking to me. This has actually been a theme for me (situations with women at work) the past several years across multiple jobs. It always seems like there's at least one woman at work who seeks me out and makes it a point to flirt with me and interact with me but then gets wishy washy with mixed signals. That's how I've perceived it at least.

However, this week has been a major paradigm shift for the better. Early in the week I noticed the same old pattern of her pulling back and I reactively did the same like I've done for years. But this time was different. She eventually came up to me and said "you've been quiet lately," but then she didn't really change her behavior so I continued being aloof and less available.

The light switch finally flipped for me when I noticed she became visibly sad after I walked past her without saying hi or acknowledging her in any way. She sulked like that for about an hour and then I finally reached out to her in a warm playful way and she was immediately Leo sunshine again.

I realize I've been way too cynical and have always assumed the worst of women. I assumed this young woman was just trying to be an energy vampire and get attention from me, but her actions show she has actual emotional investment and was visibly upset when I pulled away from her.

It wasn't just me who noticed it either. Other people at work were asking her if she was ok and other guys were trying to make her laugh but she stayed sulky. That was another thing that made me really insecure and iffy about her. Other guys like her and make it known. I assumed she couldn't possibly be interested in me, but yet I was the one who brought a smile back to her face. Things are getting interesting...

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posted July 27, 2025 05:12 PM            

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Love it!

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posted July 30, 2025 10:35 PM            

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So things have been a whirlwind this week. I was starting to really connect with the girl at work, but then yesterday I learned I got transferred to a new department and I'm no longer working with her.

But fate just stepped in minutes ago when I went to my old department to empty my locker. She came around the corner as I arrived at my locker and was visibly happy to see me. Then her face got visibly sad when she saw what I was doing. There was an awkward silence and then she said "I'm really sad you're leaving. I'm going to miss you" and my emotionally repressed ass just said "maybe we'll run into each other."

I can see it clearly now. The problem is me. I'm the problem. I'm the stereotypical emotionally avoidant Aquarius, even though I used to deny it. I've got to be better. I really dropped the ball tonight. I really like that girl and I didn't do a good job of communicating it.

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posted July 31, 2025 08:57 PM            

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I'm certain I'll see her again soon coming or going from work and I won't make that mistake again.

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posted August 10, 2025 04:37 PM            

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Update?

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posted August 18, 2025 09:56 PM            

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I actually haven't seen her since I left the department. However, I have ran into everyone else from the old department at least once so in guessing it's only a matter of time until I cross paths with her.

In the meantime, I haven't lost sleep over it but I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to see her. I've still been going on dates and meeting new people, but I'm still keeping my heart open to her.

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posted August 27, 2025 09:30 AM            

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Update?

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