posted December 28, 2011 08:46 PM
IQ thanks for taking the time to answer my question.. Much appreciated... I do understand what you mean by
""Spirit Level Sex that does not have Animal Lust or procreative impulse.""
This entire "thing" feels very spiritual.. I feel it so deeply, all the way deep down to my entire core.. I have never experienced such feelings.. Im no spring chicken.. Ive been in lots of relationships.. Good/bad.. You name it, Ive been through it.
I cant totally wrap my head around this one...
Its a very long process... I have known this person for over 7 years.. I always just watched him.. never ever speaking to him, but had a desire to touch him.. His arm anything... I "knew" something about him...
Then after 5 years and a separation from my husband, I walked up to him, and started talking... We stood there for 3 hours talking...
Well it took 5 years to really talk.. We got together really quick, but it was a mess.. We both pulled away.. Then we became friends.. Talking and talking... Always wanting more talking. With a lot of tension in between..
We stopped talking for 3 months, but came back... We talked even more as friends... Now he's saying "maybe" we should try again... I want to sooo bad.. But I feel like, humm not sure how to explain it... Maybe its for the wrong reasons?? Like its not just "right" at that point it needs to be..
I feel very tormented by this.. Its such an internal struggle..
I want to, but I want to make sure its right..
I fear being right then wrong.. and what I want verse what I need...
What if I screw it up?? Could I deal with it...
Im sorry Im rambling.. Just letting it all out...
I do want to use your services.. Only I need some time to get caught up on some bills..
Mercury rx killed me..
computer crashed
dryer went out...
and then xmas... yikes...