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Topic: N. Node Conjunct Karma
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starr33
Moderator Posts: 409
From: Does it matter?
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 11, 2012 12:58 PM
  
Please pay no mind to the mistaken post.I can't help but be curious about this aspect. In fact, it scares me. I've been experiencing some bad mojo at work for a couple of years and it feels very restricting. Like there's no escape. It's my own fault. It's all a facade, not the real me, which I can't express in my job. I'm currently looking for another where I don't have to act the way others want me to act. I just want to be myself. I have Saturn retro. in the tenth. Do you think things will get better for me considering I'll be 39 in October? I've always heard that Saturn tends to lessen his grip around forty. I just don't know how much more I can take. Please give me some insight. I'm so depressed, it's difficult to see straight. 
Damit! I can't make it bigger. I'm sorry I have to do this, but:
10/18/73
2:59am
Waterville, Maine
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Gray
Knowflake Posts: 112
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Registered: Aug 2012
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posted September 11, 2012 01:12 PM
Uh...you do know there's a such thing as good karma, right? It's not all bad. It could work out to be a damn good aspect to have.IP: Logged |
starr33
Moderator Posts: 409
From: Does it matter?
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 11, 2012 01:22 PM
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Jovian
Knowflake Posts: 226
From: US
Registered: May 2012
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posted September 11, 2012 02:47 PM
Hi Starr. I'm sorry for your suffering!Speaking of karma and work, have you considered that the ruler of your sixth house (work and routine) is Uranus (conjunct your Sun --self-expression), and it is very tightly square your asteroid Karma? That really seems to reflect your complaint precisely: "It's my own fault. It's all a facade, not the real me, which I can't express in my job. I'm currently looking for another where I don't have to act the way others want me to act. I just want to be myself." In my amateur perspective, that aspect seems very isolated, not integrated with the strength found in the planets forming the remarkable formations in your chart (the four-sided "fortress" and the star) that fall between 2-5 degrees. I can definitely empathize that this would feel like a challenge to get a handle on. ...I'm not sure, though, why you are referring to N Node CJ Karma?
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starr33
Moderator Posts: 409
From: Does it matter?
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 11, 2012 10:04 PM
I Gray! I would love to consider the positive side, if I could actually see it. I guess I need to develop more faith and believe in myself.
Thanks for your sympathy, Jovian. It made me feel a little better. I don't know why I said "conjunct". It just depresses me they share the same sign even if they're in different houses. I hope things get better. It feels like I'm attempting suicide each day I work. I'm an INFP, and an ENFP when
I'm in a good mood and not knocked off balance by morons.
At least I now have a creative outlet at night. I will be in a couple musicals in Nov/Dec. and in Equus in June. Thank God for small favors.
No, I didn't consider the square. Does the square have to mean "bad"?
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Gabby
Newflake Posts: 23
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Registered: Sep 2012
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posted September 11, 2012 11:35 PM
Hi! I'm sorry to hear about your stress!I couldnt help but wonder if you have looked at your progressd chart...? possibly if you have a saturn or pluto coming into a square with your MC or even your progressed AC, it would affect how your seen and/or how you feel your seen at work...fortunately its not permanent if this proves to be true! I would definitely look at this, it might relieve some stress regarding having some bad karmic mojo happening when really its just a progression that will pass?
One reason im saying this is you and I around the same age, i have karma on my libra asc, my cancer mc with my leo saturn is being hit right now with some squares from saturn and pluto...you might be experiencing a similar issue, right now!IP: Logged |
iQ
Moderator Posts: 3998
From: Chennai, India
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 12, 2012 08:29 AM
You have been through a bunch of harsh transits in the last 2 years, and even now, you are going through Pluto sq Pluto, Uranus opp Pluto, Uranus sq Saturn and Saturn just did a number on your Sun.
All evolutionary transits for releasing truckloads of karma. Only you know your pain but the reward for smiling as much as you can through these transits is amazingly high.Try to make friends with those people who consider themselves "Arcturus Star Seeds".
There will be some wisdom from them which will give you the Psychological Breakthrough in these times. IP: Logged |
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