posted October 10, 2014 12:38 PM
neptune is part of a tsquare with moon in the 5th and venus-atlantis in the 11th which aspects my natal moon and his AC; its an extremely romantic feel and love but yes we didn't end up together and it ended in heartbreak and me feeling betrayed although he didn't betray me but it felt that way. Neptune conjunct Lilith is also at the leg of a yod involving chiron in the 7th at the apex. C-neptune which is the release point of the TSQUARE aspects his natal vertex, his IC, his neptune and my sun-moon midpoint, neptune and SN.We have eurydike-orpheus Aspects
Cyllarus-Hylonome aspects
and Izanagi and Izanami Aspects
The break up was painful for both of us and brought on by immaturity from both parts; it didn't help that I dealt with it by moving into another country immediately and him getting involved with someone new two months later to try to forget me and be vindictive probably bc I moved to another country. He looked miserable in the pictures with her. I went to a restaurant once and the waiter who was gay and apparently psychic told me without me asking or knowing he was psychic that my ex suffered as much as I did and that I don't realize how much I hurt him as well and that the girl that he is with is a cheap replacement of me. Years later my ex tells me he tries to find me in others but it never truly works.
Ultimately the biggest culprit of this disaster has been his pride evidenced by composite atropos conjunct regulus at the release point of our tsquare with chiron opposite Uranus. This tsquare brought us together but was also our undoing. Ever since the break up every time either has considered getting back the other is involved. We had our window of opportunity and it went terribly wrong.
Now like Blind Writer said in the star crossed lovers thread star crossed themes are brought by karma so yes there is karma but what exactly?
All I have is an Egyptian past life royalty dream of me meeting a lover in secret and discussing running away so we can be together but the idea felt like it was not an option at the same time; maybe bc it was to dangerous. Did one or both us died attempting to run away?
All our couple asteroids are tragic but based on the Atlantis karma I have I am suppose to overcome the obstacles to be with my soul-mate so perhaps in our next life we will have Eros and psyche prominent after all eurydike and orpheus have an eros-psyche conjunction in the discovery chart.
It would seem that my ex and I are suppose to find our way back together as you put it and what is crazy is that since I was a little girl I KNEW intuitively that I was suppose to live a super intense kind of love in this life but I just didn't think it would take the toll it did on me. I intuitively new that in the end against all odds we would end up together. I am not sure if this is in the cards for this life though.......
What worries me is that I wonder has our Karma gotten WORSE in this life or BETTER? This concerns me, I feel there is a chance we have gone even more backwards! IDK, I hope NOT. I remember warning him so many times bc I intuitively knew the story was going to repeat itself and was trying soooo hard to prevent that even his friend warned him.
I truly hope we have made progress in this life or burned off karma not made more karma. I have to say that in the last year with the help of all of you I have gotten much closer to understanding why it has played out the way it has astrologically....
Perhaps the lion tamer tames the lion's pride with a nursery rhythm which represents pure love and innocence; the tsquare is a love tsquare after all (neptune the higher octave of venus, venus and the moon).
I am the opposite of him when it comes to pride; he is in one end and I am in the other.
It kills me to think that we will leave off with worse karma than we came into in this life; I would love to see confirmation that this is not the case or if it is the case receive confirmation that it is although that would be very bad news.