posted November 14, 2014 05:06 AM
No i don't enjoy drinking at all. But i did enjoy to socialize but i cannot do that anymore. its difficult in todays society to not drink... but i can cope.I found this in Blavatsky's book:
in rig veda he is called Rudra, the howler the beneficent and maleficent diety at the same time, the healer and destroyer, In the Vishnu-Purana he is the god who springs from the forehead of brahma who separates into male and female and he is the parent of the Rudras or Maruts half of whom are brilliant and gentle others black and ferocious. In the Vedas he is the divine ego aspiring to return to its pure, deific state and at the same time that divine ego imprisioned in earthly form whose force passions make of him the “roarer the "terrible"
Well I feel this most identifies with me. Its true. Rudra on my Sun in Cancer, when Pluto went over this i had my awakening. Now I'm trying to cope being trapped in a physical body. Its very true. My human ego was destroyed and i was born again.
I also am intrigued by this bit in 'the secret doctrine'
former) is in fact what Theosophy calls Nirvana. But then Theosophy teaches that separation from the Primal Source having once occurred, Re-union can only be achieved by Will — Effort — which is distinctly Satanic in the sense of this essay.”
It is “Satanic” from the standpoint of orthodox Romanism, for it is owing to the prototype of that which became in time the Christian Devil — to the Radiant Archangels, Dhyans-Chohans, who refused to create, because they wanted Man to become his own creator and an immortal god — that men can reach Nirvana and the haven of heavenly divine Peace.
To close this rather lengthy comment, the Secret Doctrine teaches that the Fire-Devas, the Rudras, and the Kumaras, the “Virgin-Angels,” (to whom Michael and Gabriel, the Archangels, both belong), the divine “Rebels” — called by the all-materializing and positive Jews, the Nahash or “Deprived” — preferred the curse of incarnation and the long cycles of terrestrial existence and rebirths, to seeing the misery (even if unconscious) of the beings (evolved as shadows out of their Brethren) through the semi-passive energy of their too spiritual Creators. If “man’s uses of life should be such as neither to animalize nor to spiritualize, but to humanize Self,”* before he can do so, he must be born human not angelic. Hence, tradition shows the celestial Yogis offering themselves as voluntary victims in order to redeem Humanity — created god-like and perfect at first — and to endow him with human affections and aspirations. To do this they had to give up their natural status and, descending on our globe, take up their abode on it for the whole cycle of the Mahayuga, thus exchanging their impersonal individualities for individual personalities — the bliss of sidereal existence for the curse of terrestrial life. This voluntary sacrifice of the Fiery Angels, whose nature was Knowledge and Love, was construed by the exoteric theologies into a statement that shows “the rebel angels hurled down from heaven into the darkness of Hell” — our Earth. Hindu philosophy hints at the truth by teaching that the Asuras hurled down by Siva, are only in an intermediate state in which they prepare for higher degrees of purification and redemption from their wretched condition; but Christian theology, claiming to be based on the rock of divine love, charity, and justice of him it appeals to as its Saviour — has invented, to enforce that claim paradoxically, the dreary dogma of hell, that Archimedean lever of Roman Catholic philosophy.
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posted November 13, 2014 04:05 PM
I say enjoy knowing and feeling what you are. Did you enjoy drinking? If so, I realise that's an entirely different thing.