posted February 18, 2018 06:47 PM            

Through the tropical zodiac wheel .. i have a Cancer rising conjunct Sirius (Same degree as my Dads cancer rising conjunct Sirius) which is ruled by the 4th house and Moon, my 4th house is ruled by Virgo with Chiron there (My dad was Virgo prominent with Sun conjunct Chiron) ... i also have Saturn in Pisces 9H at basically the same degree as my Dad ..

So my Mum was in abusive relationship with my Dad he was a drug addict, Schizophrenic who got quite intensely mentally unhealthy then died of a heroin overdose when i was 11, not going into it to much but only met him a few times ..

The Cancer rising is then ruled by Moon which is the lunar influence which is with Neptune and Uranus on the lyran nebula opposite the ascendant ... my Sun sits with Kaali and Cruithne on the great attractor (said to be earth seconds moon) in the 6th house ...

My Dad had a Cancer Moon/Sirius conjunct Cancer rising, My mum has a Leo Sun/Mars conjunct Leo rising

Trying to piece together but essentially my chart says to me what was pre-determined in my life and how its played out in alot of ways, i have a strong connection with my Mum and the loss of my Dad (Chiron 4th) also resonates with the Sun - Cruithne/Kaali) the glypth for Cruithne is the left/lunar eye being focused and the right/solar eye is disconnected ..

Iv been few a mental health systems after i went through intense psychosis/awakening/spiritual crisis at 17, feel like i might have had something disconnected at the death of my Dad from the Chiron 4th

With alot of resonant conjunctions and placements i share with my Dad (we are also both Chinese day of Wood Ox & Mayan Day of Muluc) i feel like it might be something about family Karma i have to deal with, or anscentral lineage? ... My Dad was quite deep into the occult/dark/shadow side of things while im more into light/work/warrior

Not sure if it makes sense what iv pieced together or im looking into it too much but if anyone else has experience with family karma or Chiron 4th else can share any insights ?

Thanks, Sat.Nam.

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posted February 18, 2018 07:40 PM            

I've never been in touch with any of my Dads family since he's passed, they have strong Welsh lineage, i guess thats the path i should take ..

Lol <(^_^< ) <(^_^)> <(^_^< ) (>^_^)>

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