posted September 25, 2018 08:27 PM            

I have had insane obsessions with 3 particular men, and the most important people in my life have had a juno /node conj with me.
My first person was my brother, who I lost my freakin' mind over when there was this huge abandonment complex. We didnt talk, but anyway, it was insanely traumatizing and 20 years later i'm still scuffed by it.

He has his S Node on my Juno and I have my merc on his Juno/Venus (same degree).
My dad has his SN on my Juno too and we have a really awkward but close history. I love the hell out of that guy, even if it's disclosed and nonexpressive.
Now lets get weird.
SO there's this other guy I had been obsessed over (like I ended up in a mental ward kind of crazy when we stopped talking), and we ended up dating--
he has his juno on my SN (same degree).

Let's catch up.
Brother - his SN on my Juno
Dad- his SN on my Juno
Ex #1 - His Juno on my SN

So with my ex, we ended up breaking up and he still kind of hates me to this day. I got sick of him but throughout the relationship his love for me was so intense and faithful despite me being half there/ cheating on him. He also has a lot of scorpio/cancer aspects.
My sister on the other hand, we don't talk anymore but she has her Juno on my NN and other great aspects. But she was super faithful to me too, and I don't think I really loved her as much as she loved me.
Now, I'm in a situationship with this guy that I'm nutty for, who basically ignores me but then gives me enough attention to keep my aries self head over heels (it's been over six months of minimal attention, I don't know why I am even giving this guy the time of day), but he has his NN on my Juno.

Refresh
Let's catch up.
Brother - his SN on my Juno
Dad- his SN on my Juno
Ex #1 - His Juno on my SN same degree
Sister; her Juno on my NN same degree
Current Guy- His NN on my Juno

So the thing I'm kind of picking up on is when I'm the Juno, I am obsessive and really wanting to confirm our relationship (i need them in my life, i can't be without them, i want to have them at least as my friend forever kind of energy),
but when I'm the Node, I recognize the importance of this person and I love them very much, but it's not a dire PLEASE BE IN MY LIFE. Which was intense, considering my sister (who I don't talk to anymore) also has her SN on my venus & her lilith is on my SN).

I'm starting to realize the most important people in my life share a nodal /juno conjunct with me. I mean, I was talking to my sister ( i call her my sister but she's not my real sister, we met online and spoke every day all day for nine years)...