posted July 20, 2003 03:27 PM         

who knows when i will see him next, could be a week, could be another three months. we had a hard time when he was here, in the beginning but in the end everything was healed, our marriage was reborn so to speak and it broke our hearts to say good bye again.

im just gonna go cry my eyes out and nurse my hurting heart... if anyone wants to include me in any prayers or whathaveyou that you do id appreciate it.

posted July 20, 2003 11:46 PM         

I think I know how you feel. My boyfriend for the past year and a half has lived ten hours away from me and we only saw each other once a month. But I'm lucky, he's moving up to be with me next week. I wish you so much happiness.... try to remember that in the midst of the sorrow, Fate or your Higher Power could be making the plans on something wonderful... it just may take some time to manifest.

You are in my prayers,

posted July 21, 2003 02:14 AM         

i didnt mean to seem as i was criticising goldie hawn, that comment was directed at the flaws in my countrys immigration policies. just didnt want to seem bitter at her, im not, im angry as hell at my govt.

lmb, we were lied to by the immigration agents from the beginning. they lied to him about the conditions of a work permit and made it seem far easier than it actually is.

hes only a half an hour or so away but neither of us have vehicles so its hard to visit. he cant get a job in bellingham to save his life, the economy is so bad. its booming here of course and he could get tons of jobs.

i dont know when we will be living together again, it depends on outside forces that we cant control. hes got to get a job, save at least 2 grand for immigration stuff, and at that point it will be about a year.

i know that we will be ok, but its still sad for him to leave. especially when we were getting along

this is the universes way though, and weve both accepted it... we both have things we need to do before we will have a good life together. he has to learn more responsibility for example, and i need to have time to heal some of my hurts that are still with me. i had a very bad past full of victimizations from others and this is my time to really grow and let a lot of it go. its a good thing, yet still painful at times.

i can see the progress already though... so i know our suffering is not in vain.

i just feel pretty rotten at the moment... ill be ok soon. im too darn positive not to lol.

take care and *hugs*

see you tomorrow probably everyone!

posted July 21, 2003 12:39 PM         

But don't give in to sadness, use all your energy to get out of this situation! Look ahead and don't give in, fight! That is, if that's what you want Only you can choose your path in life but I think you know that already

Take care anafaery and please don't be sad, you always have us, you know

posted July 21, 2003 03:58 PM         

Here's some Light for you both... the only cures for sadness I know are faith and love... but I'm gonna wish for some better transportation for you both, and some attentive smarter bureaucrats to help your loving cause along.