posted August 17, 2003 02:04 PM         

Sure, the tension could be getting to you. Sounds normal to me -- a stress response for sure.

But since this is Lindaland, right now astrologically speaking, there are many changes happening in the sign of Pisces (there are several posts about Uranus and Mars in the Astrology Forum, and see N_Wevil's "How Are You Feeling?" thread too). Uranus has recently moved into Pisces, and so has Mars (Mars is also moving back and forth in a retrograde too, to top it off). Both planets have a very abrupt nature. One effect due to all this activity might be that your poor sensitive PiscesMoon is being bapped from one mood to another! Unless they're really interfering with your daily functioning, can you just allow your moods and feelings to come and go? If not, then you might consider seeing a nurse or doctor for advice. The self-loathing is tough -- that is very typical of Pisces, and can be helped by connecting with the arts, music, nature, getting a massage, etc. -- actually, I know it's tough for many men, but why _don't_ you go for a really good howling cry? Scream your head off into a pillow if you need to. You would feel so much better afterward, and it's nobody's business if you do.

But all things will pass. Just remember to give yourself a break, and that your first job is to take care of yourself.

I've noticed from some of your recent posts, ozone, that you're learning a lot these days about all things metaphysical -- kudos to you! But consider this -- there has probably been a hunger inside you for a better life for a long time -- which is driving you to seek change, transform, find answers and new ways -- and so now you're in the middle of this. Not a comfortable place to be, but I believe your Higher Self is at work, and that later you'll look back and say, "ah... so it felt nuts for awhile but yeah, now I get it."

I don't know if this will help, but I hope it does. Hang int here, ozonefiller, because you're much more than just an ozonefiller!