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From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation
Registered: Nov 2001

posted November 30, 2005 10:45 PM         

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but blood tests show 100% normal, no diseases. often lately it feels like i'm dying, but then it goes away .. .it felt like my life just started to be sucked away from me, and had to eat meat to stay alive, but not so much lately. tired, tired, tired, and 'chronic' pain in 3rd chakra. i think i feel the pain of the asteroid belt having been a planet at one time

i worry that i 'suck' energy from others without meaning to, and if i am doing this, i would like to stop, but without dying. my guess is i picked up this 'vampirism' disease from a one-night stand

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From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation
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posted November 30, 2005 11:04 PM         

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additional info:

i have severe depression, also have experienced extreme anxiety after eating chicken, new to preferring celibacy, have had pain in 3rd chakra since about 2001, have not been able to work since nov. 2003, need solitude but rarely to never have it, cat died about a year ago of probably leukemia, have a lot of energy invested in healing aids and alzheimer's, have not consumed any alcoholic beverages since august 2001, have not had a boyfriend since march 2004 (the longest for me yet), have not had a good friend since 1991, was raped in 1991, 1994, and 1996 by four different people, and probably have PTSD, partly from the rapes, partly from a hospitalization experience, and partly just from existing in an unsafe world. i was incubated when i was born and was also a C-section birth. also have many past life traumas. have a habit of developing crushes on unattainable men.

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posted November 30, 2005 11:07 PM         

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also a lot of energy invested in healing racism and religious prejudice

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posted December 01, 2005 02:31 AM         

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Sorry to hear you are in pain, batgirl.

Lot's of positive and healing light to you.

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posted December 02, 2005 04:26 AM         

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posted December 02, 2005 04:43 AM         

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That's a lot to have dealt with.
I understand the worry that you're draining other people's energy. I try to avoid people when I'm feeling depressed or occasionally hyper, for that reason.

Angela

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posted December 02, 2005 04:58 AM         

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Sorry to hear how you are feeling girl.....sending you some positive vibes from Ireland......

xxxx

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posted December 02, 2005 06:58 AM         

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u've been thru torture.......n im sure none of us cud even begin to u/s it unless v've gone thru it ourselves.......god bless u n be wid u........n i hope you get healed swiftly n completely....take care
love
diya

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posted December 02, 2005 08:10 AM         

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Have you tried any alternative therapies? Acupuncture, Reiki, healing?
I have found them to be incredibly helpful and soothing if theres a time when I feel unbalanced or stressed... Maybe its a diet thing too? I hope you find something to help you feel better though.

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From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation
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posted December 03, 2005 04:16 PM         

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i tried acupuncture twice, once for earache seemingly associated with using chaste tree berry tea for hormone balancing, once for lower back pain. both times i 'absorbed' the energy of the acupuncturists, and i prefer my own, since the first one was 'tainted' with lust-energy and the 2nd with all of the problems of her clients, including her own problems

the 3rd chakra pain seems like it might be a whole lot of repressed emotions, but if i keep living, i guess i'll keep repressing . .. some things just make me angry and i come from a family where anger expression isnt allowed, also with all the satellites i'm afraid to express anything

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From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation
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posted December 03, 2005 04:18 PM         

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thanks for you guys' nice thoughts. i dont feel so isolated and uncared-about now.

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From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation
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posted December 03, 2005 04:25 PM         

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i've been to two healers, once in '96 for general spiritual healing. she said my inner child was in danger and needed attention. she did a very good grounding healing on me that made me feel five years old but it wore off very soon. the 2nd healer was in i think 2001 where another grounding healing was done, it helped anchor creative motivation into me but otherwise it seemed like i 'gave the healing away' as soon as i was outside the healing clinic. cant afford to go at the moment but would try it again.

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posted December 06, 2005 11:26 PM         

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To all who are unwell.

There are many well meaning people who will give advice.
But after a lifetime of seeking the source of healing, including 44 years teaching Chinese Arts I know there is often only one solution.

Go to http://www.LearningStrategies.com/Qigong/

Everybody is born a healer, but may not be aware of it. With love...

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posted January 02, 2006 08:32 PM         

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Hi Batgirl,

I'm so sorry for the incredible difficulties you've had to face in your life. I can only imagine. I just hope that Nietzsche guy was right, when he said, "Whatever does not kill me, makes me stronger,"...

Although I dont have decades of personal experience to corroborate this theory ((actually, who knows how many lifetimes of experience I've really had!)), I intuitively suspect that there must be a variety of solutions out there, and not one of them is "right" for, or equally accessible to, everyone; whether on account of spiritual or biological predispositions, individual, perhaps environmentally-conditioned, tastes,
or any number of other reasons.

With that in mind, I would recommend reading
"NATURAL CURES 'They' Don't Want You To Know About" by Kevin Trudeau, which briefly mentions and explains a great variety of "natural cures" to choose from; from internal cleanses (colon, liver, kidneys, lymph, parasites, heavy metals, candida), to lifestyle and diet changes, to yoga, tai chi, and chi kung (just to name a few).

As for the psychic vampirism, I may know whereof you speak (after all, i AM a Scorpio!). It seems likely to me that you are a very intuitive person, and are simply (often painfully) aware of certain emotional undercurrents of which most of us are either ignorant or negligent. There is a natural tendency to fixate on these perceptions, and particularly the more negative ones, in part, because others are so oblivious to and/or dismissive of them, and this leaves you starving for validation; maybe wondering if its you who's crazy, or just everyone else who's in denial. The good news is, you're not crazy. The bad news is, you're not crazy. For what its worth, I get it, and I'm pretty sure I'm not crazy either.

There IS an old Buddhist proverb about the wise person preferring solitude, rather than to disturb, by his/her heady presence, the delicate sensibilities of the common folk. So, yes, solitude can be a good thing (whatever "they" say). Most people are too scared and confused to consciously experience these things, and it is given to people like us to encounter and make sense of them. Others will mock and dismiss your p.o.v., but they're just testing you; in reality, they want you to prove them wrong, and shatter their delusions. Unfortunately, it is difficult, if not impossible, to persuade the analytical mind of emotional, or purely intuitive, experiential truths. Hence, its important to keep silence, and "know your song well before you start singing". In the meantime, try to seek out true teachers, people who have known and made sense of similar experiences; who will understand you and be able to help you understand yourself.

Happy Hunting!

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With Love and Squalor,
HSC

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"My friends, how desperately do we need to be loved and to love. When Christ said that man does not live by bread alone, he spoke of a hunger. This hunger was not the hunger of the body. It was not the hunger for bread. He spoke of a hunger that begins deep down in the very depths of our being. He spoke of a need as vital as breath. He spoke of our hunger for love.
Love is something you and i must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint. Without love our self-esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer look out confidently at the world. We turn inward and begin to feed upon our own personalities, and little by little we destroy ourselves.
With it we are creative. With it we march tirelessly. With it, and with it alone, we are able to sacrifice for others."
- Chief Dan George

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posted January 11, 2006 01:37 PM         

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hi batgirl. if u send me a note of some sort, i can attempt to offer some assistance. i have counseled a few people into better health. feel better!

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posted January 11, 2006 04:43 PM         

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If all your tests keep coming back normal....
have them check you for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
B-12 injections help some folks.

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posted March 28, 2006 05:14 PM         

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Sounds like something that happened to a friend of mine. For many years he went through seeming healthy sometimes, then on the verge of dying at other times. We could not understand what was going on as it would come and go just like that. Doctors initially couldn't find anything wrong with him, and one even became convinced he must have had aids even though he tested negative for it, because that seemed to be the only explanation. Finally one year we happened to be in a different city where one doctor happened to specialize in Gall Bladders, and so he thought the symptoms sounded familiar and had our friend taken in to have an ultrasound. It took two technicians before they found anything, but after that it was a rush to get it out of him (doctor was very eager to use his new techniques, and scared my friend into it). I'm sure there were other options but at the spur of the moment it seemed like the best decision so it was done. (he said if it was an emergency operation, he couldn't do the 3 point micro-surgery system, and the normal operation would leave a very large scar, not to mention who wanted to be opened up like that when you could just have these 3 tiny insertions instead?) That was the end of those mysterious ailments, no more looking like he's dying in the tub or bed episodes. He was very young too, which is why most doctors did not even consider looking for gall bladder problems. It might not be the case for you, but just to be safe, why not get checked for it too?

On another note, I ordered that Quijong course from the link someone else gave you above, and it really truly is incredible.

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