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Topic: Empowerment...depression and the months of the yr...
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JustAmanda
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posted October 12, 2008 03:36 PM
 
I just thought about something... I have discovered that I have 3 good months of total empowerment in my life, every single year, from September to November. In December I become extremely nostaglic about the holidays and my late grandma and Charlie Brown...and as soon as the thing called January 2nd hits I'm depressed. And I remain depressed until mid to late May, when my enemy Winter lets go of his stranglehold on Spring and allows her to begin to undress for Summer...donning her bright green shorts and sunshine yellow tank top, painting her eyelids with swimming pool blue and her lips with shades of picnic watermelon and country fair pink cotton candy...tossing out her snowboots for her forget me not flipflops....Summer is such a beautiful palette...as is Autumn...but Winter, I only want from Thanksgiving day to January 1st...and then I'm done. I want my summer..I can even sprint over Spring really because I hate pollen. So this means that Mother Nature has split personalities...she's schizo! She's a warm, breezy night with eyes twinkling like fire flies, she's a cool, crisp morning, for football and pumpkin patches...she's a balance of good and evil as she springs forth to grab another golden ring of the year...and she's a beast in wolf's clothing, sneaking up on us when we least expect it...turning all things good to frozen pieces of what used to be. So, my empowerment is continuing but it will end soon. I need a hobby to keep myself from falling down into the abyss of Winter's Darkness again. Does anyone else feel this way and more importantly why would I feel like this, since I was BORN in the winter?! 12-16-1970
Roanoke, Virginia
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GemLover
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posted October 12, 2008 05:14 PM
Sounds like Seasonal Affective Disorder. We experience a drop in certain brain chemicals in the winter months and for some us that equals depression. IP: Logged |
SunChild
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posted October 12, 2008 06:16 PM
I was born in winter and I am much more alive in summer... most of my friends are the same. I thrive in the sun ~ I love everything about it, summer smells different, tastes different, sounds different.  As for winter, my personality hibernates a little.In winter I am inward and studious.
In summer I am outward and creating.  IP: Logged |
Azalaksh
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posted October 12, 2008 06:39 PM
JustAmanda ~I really liked your colorful description of Mother Nature  
What kinds of things would you want to do for hobbies?? This winter, you could try boosting your (possibly low levels of) serotonin naturally:
http://www.healthandnutrition.co.uk/articles/depression.htm You might try light-therapy:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/seasonal-affective-disorder/MH00023 I do beadwork with an Ott-Lite during the cold winter months -- that helps because I'm expressing my creativity (which brings satisfaction) and staves off the mopies, and the Ott-Lite simulates natural daylight.....
http://www.ott-lite.com/Cms/theottlitestory.aspx IP: Logged |
JustAmanda
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posted October 12, 2008 08:26 PM
Wonderful choices! I have heard of the 5HTP as well. I think I might try that...and I'd like to look into the portable OTTLITE lamp! Oh and Sunchild, oddly I write most of my poetry and stories during the winter months...it's as if Winter is my muse in some weird twisted fated way...even though I am mostly depressed during that time...Thank you for the compliment Az...
What do I like to do...well... I like to cook but I do this almost daily so...not much of a hobby in my mind... I like to paint like on a canvas...but I can't manage to get the visions out of my mind onto the canvas very good...it ends up looking like a 3 year old painted it...so I usually toss it... I would love to make pottery...but do I have the time or the willpower to finish at least a bowl? I like jewelry and love Victorian pieces, with beautiful gemstones and costumey feel but alas again, would I finish anything? Maybe I need to make a resolution for myself to start ONE project and FINISH IT. And stop worrying about it being PERFECT just DO IT. I am the world's worst perfectionist. If it's not perfect I will either throw it away and become depressed OR keep it and look at it's imperfections and become depressed. Heeeeeeeeeey..maybe THAT is my hobby! DEPRESSION! Why I can depress myself in a matter of seconds! And stay that way for days, weeks even years! Hmm....now THAT'S a feat not many can claim as a hobby huh? Or would want to I guess. What I do the best is writing...especially my stories about my nephew's daughter (my great niece) Gwen and her late mommy. Gwen's story is so much like my own except I lost my daddy at her age. So I guess I put myself into the stories....and Gwen is so much like ME when I was a child, it's kinda weird... I want to make Christmas cards too. I want to paint them. Handpaint. And then maybe buy a potter's wheel... IP: Logged |
bunnies
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posted October 13, 2008 03:45 AM
All creative people are perfectionists.
That's what makes them so
Can you imagine Picasso slinging out a piece of work and going "Oh that'll do!I am a house refurbisher and I have been known to drive people insane (and myself) with the search for the right shade for paint.
I now mix my own to avoid spending loads of money on testers. But I like being that way.
I know people say "Oh this is nice...it's green...
But I will know that "I" hunted down the EXACT shade of green that makes the room perfect and not just passable.
The same shades look totally different in north facing rooms so you have to take into account the lighting and......sorry....I'm off on one again!!! Just know that winter is naturally a time for withdrawing and semi hibernating and see it as a period for renewal.
Your creative processes are just that. What would be the process if you were happy with the first draft? When I look at some of the first houses I did which I thought looked fabulous I'm like "HAH!!! That's rubbish.....now if you want to take a look at my latest..! IP: Logged |
JustAmanda
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posted October 15, 2008 09:54 PM
Awesome thoughts to ponder Bunnie...thank you!!IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted October 16, 2008 02:12 PM
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"Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia." Charles Schultz IP: Logged |
BlueRoamer
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posted October 22, 2008 09:14 PM
Try vitamin D and fish oil...as well as vigorous cardiovascular exercise....if you can afford it a sun lampIP: Logged |
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