posted September 20, 2016 05:28 PM            

I hope and say prayers that Life is Flowing goodness in your directions. Blessings and Health be upon your House and Heads!

posted September 20, 2016 05:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
"You make me feel like dancing..."

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Oh gosh Randall... You KNOW I'm taking that bait!

posted September 23, 2016 10:36 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Haven't forgotten you.... just taking a little longer to formulate thoughts.

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I find it hard too with these types of discussions and i think the reason relates to what you say about Taurus and seen/unseen, the affinity with Chiron. This may just be looking from behind the Taurus lens but often I think this sign has some block in expressing self in a way other signs don't - there's a muteness. But, unable to bridge with others as much, feelings curdle, they almost become material and are held & felt / communicated in a silent way. Which is painful & healing. That's probably why a painting could prise open such an unexpected outpouring (for me) .. It operates on the same mode

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I hope and say prayers that Life is Flowing goodness in your directions. Blessings and Health be upon your House and Heads!

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ameen ya rabbil alameen

and may God bless you Sister with good health and keep your spirit bright and strong.

I love you for God's sake first, and then I love you cuz I do

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(Just to let you know too-- we're having a few computer problems-- connectivity to internet sites again. Merc!!! retro, to turn direct later this week. Yay? j/k LOL)

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Oh I'm sorry about that. Hopefully things are better now.

posted September 23, 2016 10:59 PM            

these are a couple of my Kyanites. These two are the lesser in strength of the three stones I have. The third and strongest Kyanite stone is wrapped up separately and not in this picture. As a matter of fact, Kannon sent it to me wrapped separately, and now I wonder if he did it intentionally.? I take it out for short periods. I work with the two in this picture because I can work with them longer without getting overwhelmed by the energy. When I hold these stones too long I can get a headache, this is especially the case with the stone I keep separate. On the positive side; I usually need quite a bit of time, silence, and solitude to reach a state of concentration for prayer and meditation, but this stone is like an energy ablution...in fact I hold this stone right before making my ablutions with water. This stone helps shut down all the mental chatter, induces a state of calm and helps me to focus. A powerful stone. This is one I felt in a strong way and within minutes of handling it.

http://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/kyanite

The high vibration and rapid transfers of energy from Kyanite create pathways where none existed before. Like a universal bridge, it is an extraordinary crystal of connection, opening the mind centers, enhancing telepathic and psychic abilities, bridging gaps in all communication efforts, and providing a link for transmitting or receiving healing energy. It immediately aligns the chakras and subtle bodies, bringing tranquility and a calming effect to the whole being. It is an exceptional stone for transitioning into deep meditative states. [Simmons, 223][Ahsian, 224-225][Melody, 363-364]

Like Citrine, Kyanite is one of the two minerals on the planet that neither accumulates nor retains negative energy, and therefore never needs cleansing. Kyanite's energy is unlimited in application, making it an excellent stone for metaphysical purposes, and it may be used for cleansing and clearing other crystals. [Melody, 363][Eason, 225]

Kyanite is an aluminum silicate mineral, often occurring as long, striated bladed crystals that may be transparent or translucent with a pearly sheen. The most common colors in metaphysical use are blue streaked with white, indigo, green, and black, though Kyanite may occur in white, gray, pink, yellow, and most recently discovered orange. Kyanite comes from the Greek work, kuanos or kyanos, meaning "deep blue," and was once commonly called Disthene, which means "two strengths." It is also known as Rhaeticide and Cyanite. Its most identifiable feature is its anisotropism, the ability to cleave perfectly in two directions with two distinctly different hardnesses on the perpendicular axes. [Simmons, 223][Wikipedia.org]

posted September 24, 2016 12:28 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
I like to pray in the wind because the wind responds... or the wind is one of the voices of God. Unfortunately, my phone doesn't do well picking up the beauty of the wind song.

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posted September 26, 2016 04:50 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
I like to pray in the wind because the wind responds... or the wind is one of the voices of God. Unfortunately, my phone doesn't do well picking up the beauty of the wind song.

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I thought of a few songs to you WONDERFUL video. Thank you sooo much for making that. I just LOVE your Soul ...

No... the reason I haven't really responded is that I'm going through such agony deep in my soul recently. I feel like I'm walking on a beach that has a terrible undertow... trying to walk sturdy steps. Feels like everything shifting moving... trying not to get or stay stuck, yet it's dizzying.

Your question is actually a good one for me, making me try to clarify my vision of what I want in my life. I'm really good as a spiritual visionary, but suck sooo badly at 3D. You have to do the 3D thing... I mean, we have to survive?

So, I'm sorting out what things I can do with the rest of my life.

I DO need the tangibleness that your Wonderful Question asks of me (probably without your realizing it).. What a Gift.

Your a Blessing to me.... A tangible Blessing. {hug}

I hope all the details of your life are being better for you. And it was exciting to me that you will be hired into your father's business! WOW!! How Cool! Stability for your life??? (What industry?)

Oh. Here's that song. It's hokey. Just a blast from my past... I hope you regard it in a spiritual way, not so much the 'religion' always.

I never want to brow beat people, ever. I like the vid when it shows the power and majesty of the shores-- matches the music! *grin* It's musical and artistic expression from way-past times, that thrills me even today. Voice over the Waters!!

Thanks for the Wind!

(music) The Voice Of The Lord (Phillips, Craig and Dean; lyrics) [3:08] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQJPUPOYrXM

(music) Wind Beneath My Wings (Bette Midler) [4:35] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0iAzMRKFX3c

NEVER give up Being 'who you are', dear Venus2Tinkerbell... Time on earth-- so long, and so brief, at the same time. LIVE it, to the Best of your abilities...which are MUCH and Awesome, Tink.

posted October 07, 2016 09:05 PM            

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I thought of a few songs to you WONDERFUL video. Thank you sooo much for making that. I just LOVE your Soul ...

No... the reason I haven't really responded is that I'm going through such agony deep in my soul recently. I feel like I'm walking on a beach that has a terrible undertow... trying to walk sturdy steps. Feels like everything shifting moving... trying not to get or stay stuck, yet it's dizzying.

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Ya Ukhti I hear you Sis. You are not alone. I tend to go quiet when I struggle the most. I don't like to put my pain in writing until I have a grasp on the lesson, so I can put that in writing too.. Not that that is the best policy. I'm sure I'm missing out on the help others can provide, and maybe, in a way, I'm denying those that love me.

Let your heart cry Sis. Let her know someone (you) is listening, and someone (you) cares. Sometimes all I can do for myself is turn my massive feelings of love that I'm always sending outward (like radio signal from a Lost One) inward to my own self. Don't forget to consciously direct your beautiful Love inward Mirage

If our healing love is good enough for others it's good enough for us too, right? Give to yourself, Dearest.

As you well know I have a variety of contrasting influences in my life. I have always struggled to find and re-find myself in the mass of identities of the people I love and am connected to. I realized recently that the reason I keep getting lost and keep having to take drastic measures to define or redefine myself, is I won't let myself just Be.

I'm in a place right now where I understand that we don't need to fit into anything. We also don't need to make strenuous efforts to be inclusive, or be right or righteous, or any of the things we do our own heads in about. We just need to rest in ourselves and Be. I have also made a personal commitment never to deny me my love- for myself and others. Godliness, righteousness, success, accomplishment all come naturally to the human being, being human.

I love you. I'm crying with you. And at some point soon we're both going to wipe our eyes, take a deep breath, look around, and feel free to be inspired- new cycle

I just Love you Mirage

posted October 07, 2016 09:24 PM            

My story goes:

My mother loved me and taught me about Love that way. Then she told me, I love you but God loves you more. I heard her, and in love I started talking to God, and He always talked back. I know His language of Love in all things; religion, and science, music, eye contact with people, etc. My mother, bless her soul, loved me, redirected me, and I see love in everything.

posted October 18, 2016 02:02 PM            

What A Beautiful Soul in you.... And How Blessed that you had a Mother who taught you like that.

Each Sunday Morning, when I shower, I think about your youtubes, and I thank God for you.

Life is still kind of rocking and rolling for me. Thank you for all that Love and Encouragement you sent.

Of course I miss you.... And it's good too that I would be able to have your email, as you can do the same with obtaining mine, in the right timing.

I think of your face, and your Beautiful Children, and your job, and Hope all is Well with you.

I don't expect a long response from you. It's okay to "just" leave a Heart.

Recently I had bought two heart-shaped-stones that go on a silver necklace (thanks to your inspirations here). I have thought of you when I see these Hearts in the mirror.

This song was written by a Christian man... I heard the story behind his writing it. It was written, originally, as a Love Song to God-- and the world has adapted it to the expression of romantic love.

I dedicate this song today in an expression of our Shared Love for GOD, and for appreciating your Beautiful Soul...

Till our next time....

(music) You Are So Beautiful to me (Joe Cocker) [2:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlDmslyGmGI

(btw, my access to email has been glitching again... just letting you know... I may also be Blessed with an opportunity for relocation (fingers crossed), so I may go into a non-comm mode for a while until settled with those things. I have no idea when (or if) it will occur. Just one of my longstanding hopes.)

posted October 20, 2016 12:42 AM            

I appreciate your pings Mirage. They're a reminder to come back to my friends and say hello and share some good ideas and feelings.

Yesterday was my uncle's birthday. He died when he was younger than I am today. He was my second spiritual guide after my mother. And his mother was born today. She has also passed.

My mother ran from this part of her life (her family) because of their dysfunction and I always felt grateful to her for not raising us in the environment she was raised in. However, now that my grandma and uncle have passed, I can understand them and embrace them, and I don't feel afraid of the darkness and the Scorpio energy I feel they represent in my life and past (lives?). Today, I met a friend who I felt hurt me a couple years ago. He asked to meet me and at first I said "no"- nicely. But I felt my uncle encouraging me to face my fears, so last night I agreed. Then today, I could feel my grandma's energy, encouraging me to enjoy life. He and I went to one of the many beautiful State parks we have here in NYS. I could feel my grandma directing me to the sunlight peaking through the trees, the magic of October foliage... She helped me find love in the moment, so that I had love to share and give to my old friend, who never intended to hurt me all that time ago- who was just reaching out. What he found was not his fault. Nor was it my own or anybody's.

I just wanted to share with you Mirage. Today and yesterday were beautiful days celebrating my family and friends and love in darkness and light.

posted October 20, 2016 12:05 PM            

October 30 there is a New Moon in Scorpio where the effects of sensing ancestors may be even stronger.

It's the anniversary of my dad's birthday then, and he too has passed. I'd had 'an experience' with his presence in my surround during Christmas week around 4(?) years ago.

I had felt a very strong impression during that week of time... It was as though he was apologizing to me for what happened. He had no clue inside him of all the things I had been going through. In a way, I always felt invisible to my family... They 'saw' me, but never really 'knew' me. I was never informed that he was sick nor even near his passing. I found out he had died FOUR days after the event...

In the past too (regarding close relatives) I had had three lucid dreams in one week, where I met with the presence of my paternal grandmother (a Nov 20 Scorpio, later degrees -- my dad was an earlier Scorpio Oct 27). I felt her hug me (the last moments of the last dream-event), and I asked why in a remark that I could actually 'feel' her embrace me in my body. (She was never a demonstrative person while she was in-the-body on earth.) ...

I think her answer reflected that she knew I had extreme hardships to endure just ahead of me-- and it was her way of saying a proper and final goodbye.

Now sometimes, I sense whatever part of her infused herself into me... She KNEW I am a keenly sensitive and open soul, and, that I'd had the tendency to keep going back to people who were just purely mean to me-- who would deliberately seized upon opportunities to just hurt me, over and over and over again. (These were relatives from the maternal side of the family. I wanted to feel loved and accepted by BOTH. They were my biology, my DNA, the people whose genetic materials helped form my body that I wear as I walk this earth....)

I think I have lived my entire life... just being slayed over and over and over again by people who have no idea what they doing. I mean, there are the 'normal' kinds of hurts that happen.... just from being natural inter-relating beings.

But then, there are those who just deliberately look for opportunities to hurt people, as a 'sport'-- just because 'they can'...

I subscribe to a writer's blog (Oriah). This morning I received notification of her latest post.

She is an older person... and in the past year had also lost her father and gone through all the mourning and grief involved with that.

She described being on a walk, enjoying the crisper autumn air, the visuals of the wind and leaves in her environment.

Her hair is grey, and she hadn't tied it up that day before going out. A group men in their young 20s hollered mean things to her, talking about her out loud, saying that she 'looks' like a real authentic witch with her longer grey hair blowing in the winds like that. (They were not being one bit nice about it.)

What a stark difference. Her inner world of sense and Beautiful descriptions of it-- only to be so rudely intercepted by the open expressions, the bold cruel comments, from the younger men she passed.

Reminds me of this poem by Robert Frost...

A Mood Apart *bheart*

Once down on my knees to growing plants
I prodded the earth with a lazy tool
In time with a medley of soto chants,
But becoming aware of some boys from school
Who had stopped outside the fence to spy
I stopped my song and almost heart.
For any eye is an evil eye
That looks in onto a mood apart.
-- Robert Frost

Anyways... I'm feeling the after-effects of being pummeled by sonics in my environment. There's a man living within a baseball's throw from my door, who had two recreation vehicles that he has souped up with GIANT woofer capabilities. He's been working on these for the past week... just when I think it's over?, he has only gone on errands or taking a break. He works from morning to almost midnight sometimes.

Then of course, there are the others who want to 'compete' with THEIR own systems jacked up 'in defense' of others that abuse.

It's not like we can call the police... My God, there is such violence (like guns, knives) being wielded that they must respond to). It's almost like 'we' don't have the proper right to call law enforcement, in the case that it could interfere with someone actually being killed.

No.... It's like being killed slowly, bit by bit, increment by increment, drop by drop, day and night here. (There are a lot of other sonics besides only the souped vehicles and engines... today also, we have jets taking off sequentially from nearby airport-- they fly straight over the building and the wake of their resonance can also shake buildings, in a fine way.)

I began getting these kinds of anomalous neuro-headaches from having been in some extremes with very-next-wall neighbors with giant sonics like foghorns just yards of measure from me.

I've been a 'good sport' about it... pleading, ~whatever it would take. Some don't 'hear' pleading... they only hear a further invitation to Harm someone.

So, I'm sitting here.... There has been a lull in the sonics, so I can communicate my thoughts today. I didn't expect to be here today, and I'm glad I checked LL-- I would have missed your postings.

As far as topics are concerned... I'm kind of a shy person about starting threads. And in the beginning of my being at LL, I'd "forget" to check the Notifications box BEFORE posting! ... oh no LOL

But I do have one ongoing longer term thread that I post in, and have had for several years now. It's kind of a mess of layers of topics in One. I describe my life, my dreams and fantasies, I do astrology and asteroid-stories related to my life or current-events. I try to weave the stories around inspirations, encouraging people with struggles around self-esteem issues. Some of my spiritual experiences are there-- both spirit and religious, over these past years.

Over these years, I've grown so much... so, you can almost read the Evolution going on within it.

Sometimes I am loath to mention or link to that anchor-bloggy writer-thing I keep there-- about my life, and My Life, and Life.

You know, now that I think about it... that blog there is hardly visited by LL'ers... and it has the 'feeling' to me of that Robert Frost poem.. A Mood Apart.

Ahhhhhh... The jets stopped, it seems. Just 'normal' house-type sounds. I can LIVE!!!!! *drama* omg, just ROFLMAO

Thank you for letting me share these things with you today....

Urano in the 4th natally?! Oh my. ... I have transiting Uranus traveling through my 4th House Aries, making a splay of aspects (some to last for years to come).

These are the 'elder' transits that people have a few years after 2nd Saturn Return. And mine are more-complicated because of how my natal chart is arranged.

A quote from a military group....
The Difficult, We Do Immediately! The impossible?? just takes a Little Longer!! ...

So... In the midst of things, I strive for maintaining an open heart, and open mind. I might get down every once in a while (especially with sonic discouragements), but eventually, I stand back up on my legs, my feet.... and I Thank God for the Day, and for Another Day of Life. And I only ask that He can Use me in a Positive sense and way, in other people's lives-- ~somehow.

(My 'blog' haha, is in Labors of Love, under the topic that starts with words "Good Performed by one...." It leads with a story of a good deed done and reported by The Carter Center people.)

Wishing for you to Find the Joy, and be able to minimize whatever pains you in life.

There's a Reason for Everything...

(music) Turn Turn Turn (The Byrds, lyrics) [3:56] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKP4cfU28vM

(music) Bridge over Troubled Water (Simon & Garfunkel, lyrics) [4:55] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjNgn4r6SOA

Sending a Rainbow Bridge to Remember Hope with each Storm in your Life...

You Are Beautiful...

Till sometime in the future when we will have the privilege of contact again... Be Blessed.

posted October 21, 2016 03:24 AM            

I just heard someone speaking about how we are a moment in time. We are as fragile as the flower...

I remember thinking how temporary it is to be a flower, but how the limitation of time and space intensifies the flower's moment in time..

The things you're facing; past family issues, and also living closely with today's world- basically being close enough to the human family so that it can touch you and affect you, are the two hardest and frightening things for me to handle.

I say I love people, but it's usually as long as I'm giving and do not have to receive. Receiving means real acceptance and a willingness to filter through other people's fears and needs- the compassion and ability to hear Love through it all. I interact with the world in short bursts of light and life, but cannot cohabitate in the mundane in patience and understanding. I can only do that with a very few people.

I heard a story once about two students who were given a glass of water to hold by their teacher. They were told that no matter how long he took to return they were not to spill a drop of the water. The student who seemed to be a favorite of the teacher took for the hills. He found a box like a coffin leaning against a mountain (hill) and thought it was the perfect place for him to meditate and protect his glass of water until his teacher returned.

The student stayed there in the box for years. I like to say 9. But when his teacher finally came to him to release him from his task, he found out that although he had not spilled a drop of water over the 9 years in the box, there was another student who had completed the task perfectly.

It was the shop owner, who was also a student of the master. He had a business and a family to take care of so he could not go off and meditate in the box. Instead he held the glass of water while kissing his wife, and playing with his children, while negotiating with customers, while crossing the street for a biscuit (the hardest thing).

I'm going to abruptly end here (not the best storyteller), because I know you get the point Mirage.

I hope you can enjoy a more peaceful dwelling one day Mirage, but until then, don't forget who and where you are in the present moment. Maybe one day I will really get a yurt, and you can be my first retreat guest.

I'm going to find that thread. It's so funny how I look forward to reading what you've written like I look forward to my sweet treats I tuck away for later

posted October 21, 2016 08:08 PM            

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"I say I love people, but it's usually as long as I'm giving and do not have to receive.
Receiving means real acceptance and a willingness to filter through other people's fears and needs"...

'as long as I'm [the one] giving and do not have to receive'

(btw... I quickly saw your thread on shadow work you're involved with. I wanted to wait a bit before responding.)

I've had giving and receiving trouble in my life too....

When I back away and look at the Big Picture-- seems to come down to Trust and Control Issues.

(Scorpio LOL... ?, if you think about it)
(astrological aspects too-- between Venus and Saturn?, harsh)

... You know yourself that you won't hurt someone else, but, you don't trust that others are 'safe-enough.'

Betrayals, trauma..., 'religious training' or parental training and/or abuse, can ingrain hurts and wounds and (frankly) harden a person INTO not trusting to receive in order to keep from being hurt, or humiliated with the gift given, or shamed that you got a gift, or shamed into not enjoying it and needing to pass it along to someone else instead. (sacrifice)

Some people can give with terrible strings attached. (manipulation, and creating indebtedness-- that you can never satisfy)

I remember last year listening to a video, where the person said something like, What would it be like to receive something and NOT feel that you 'owed' anything back to the giver. Given generously, with no expectations. They just want to Bless you because they Love you.

I was so surprised at the reaction inside me. ..... I mean, of COURSE it's normal to want to give back?? and to even want to give WAY MORE than what was given you? (Maybe for you and me, that would be true.)

BUT, 'what if' people weren't trying to 'extract' something from you? What if their gift wasn't some kind of 'trap'... which 'obligates' you.

I KNOW what you mean...

In my case, I'm excellent at offering and giving-- and it just bubbles and bubbles out. It gives me JOY to give and see the effects of my giving.

But I feel ABSOLUTELY ALIEN when the attention and spotlight to "just" Receive turns onto myself. It's like my mind goes blank. I freeze. I feel in a black void?? It might sting a bit...

And you may as well have just disconnected the perfect-order of all my bones, mix-up my organs, mess everything into a skin-bag of meaty chaos. It's disorganized feeling... and disconcerting. Lack of order and control.

I had to LEARN how to accept compliments, a long while ago. You say THANK YOU, when someone says something good. And you BREATHE and TAKE THAT IN, own it-- REALLY anchor it inside you!!

Ha... And if you think about it even further? ... Only being a Giver, in a kind of negative way, creates a Space between yourself and another person. A void... a deep lack of intimacy. You NEED to be able to bond with someone to be a healthy integrated human.

When I was a little child, I'd pick 'weeds' (pretty flowers) for relatives. I was cheerful and just wanted to 'give'... It hurt me that some people didn't want what I had to give them.

It hurt worse not to have my gift received! It was as though there was something wrong with me? ...

In fact, it 'insults' another person when you refuse to graciously Receive something someone has to give you. Not-receiving is a very very selfish (even cruel) thing to do to another human being.

So.. Think on that?

{{oh and btw, just to clear communications: I didn't want to give the impression I was asking you for anything more than just hearing me. I was REALLY having a very very bad couple of weeks with everything and it wasn't resolving itself.
In the practical-- Yes, of course I need better housing, I need that to get solved, so I can feel healthy and productive.
And-- No, my Sweetheart, I was NOT asking that of you... You are sooo automatically generous. I have no expectations at all. That might even be inappropriate?... but such a generous instinct.}}

*brightens* So! You're going to run a yurt retreat-center! How COOL!! LOL... That was soooo nice of you to invite me to that.... but, I'd HOPE to have my home-problem solved in some other way by then.

{{big hug to a generous Hearted Uhkte}}

Last minute thought--- You know, not being able to receive could qualify under the category of 'bad habits' you and I need to overcome.

And I hope that nice young man you met can make you fall head-over-heels in LOVE, and that you would HAVE a Nurturing Safe Relationship with a Great Man--- In God's Timing.

"You Make Everything Beautiful in Your Time" ...

posted October 21, 2016 08:37 PM            

You have small children, and several jobs you work outside the home. You're a single-mom. You've got a father you are trying to placate right now. You're trying to think of ways to supplement your income (small little businesses).

...... and then! --- A Man, who had been interested in you before, RE-enters your life.

Pay attention to how much energy that will pull from you, from your children, etc.

Make SURE he will ADD to your life, and not be a Cost and exact a toll on your personal management right now. .... Weigh it carefully. Stay in Balance. If you need to tell him you're busy, then do that. If you think he will HELP you (without strings attached), then accept his assistance?