posted August 10, 2014 08:59 PM            

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Originally posted by PisceanDream:
LMAO. Nice title. So you said you'd like to see my chart, huh? It's pretty weird, I hope you're ready!

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I have three children, each born in a cusp! My oldest and middle are girls and have leo moons. My son is packing an Aries moon.

Many gray hairs have materialized on my head over the years, let me tell you. Nothing you can bring at me will scare me, lol.

posted August 10, 2014 09:18 PM            

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Wow. Leo and Aries moon. I can imagine how challenging that must have been. I already feel my Gem moon is a bit much at times but it's a fun one!

How do you post the chart as a direct image onto the thread instead of posting a link?

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Yeah, I also bet that Gemini moon likes to get into fights with your mind. Plus, you are born on a cusp and a very famous cusp. Actually, you share the Feb 20th birth with the man who made this a famous cusp.

I use www.tinypic.com.

posted August 10, 2014 09:26 PM            

I am so ridiculously silly. I like to breathe sometimes... I guess I was trying to articulate that I'd have pulled up your chart from the other thread but I thought: "Hey, why not challenge myself to recall his placements!"

posted August 10, 2014 09:28 PM            

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"I like to use my memory sometimes."

I am so ridiculously silly. I like to breathe sometimes... I guess I was trying to articulate that I'd have pulled up your chart from the other threat but I thought: "Hey, why not challenge myself to recall his placements!"

Perfect example of how Retrograde Mercury in Pisces functions when they don't fully stop and think.

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Well, I have already replaced my friends chart with my own chart, so this should definitely make things a lot easier.

posted August 10, 2014 09:32 PM            

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Originally posted by PisceanDream:
You've got an interesting 6th house stellium. What's that like?

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I am definitely dedicated to my work. On a professional level and on task that I do for my own enjoyment. Like I mentioned earlier, I managed to make a Gemini mind, succumb to a Pisces heart. This was,in no way, an easy undertaking.

posted August 10, 2014 09:36 PM            

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Originally posted by Brobian:
I am definitely dedicated to my work. On a professional level and on task that I do for my own enjoyment. Like I mentioned earlier, I managed to make a Gemini mind, succumb to a Pisces heart. This was,in no way, an easy undertaking.

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posted August 10, 2014 09:47 PM            

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Originally posted by PisceanDream:
And what about your North Node stuff? It being in the 12th house... Are you finding it hard to redirect your energy there or do you feel that giving your Pisces Moon the space to fully manifest itself part of your NN path? I can imagine how difficult that must have been. My Moon squares my Venus and issues of love have always been quite irreconcilable for the most part. There is always a major flaw or dilemma that has no solution.

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When I finally gave in to the Heart, my mind and heart combined. You won't find a single trace of the battle that once was waged within me. All that is in me now, is acceptance.

posted August 11, 2014 06:00 AM            

I am quite emotionally unstable especially because I'm predominantly Piscean and in the core of me is a Gemini moon stirring everything up and "causing trouble". At times, I often feel particularly crazy as I would be in an elated and excitable mood, often verging on a subtle mania. And then a sudden crash immediately unravels. I hit a quiet melancholic low and I begin to feel the need to socially withdraw...

It's been difficult trying to understand myself emotionally because usually when I "talk" about my feelings, I seldom feel them. It even feels sometimes as if I'm talking about how someone else is feeling. Emotionally heavy matters can have the tendency of shutting me down. And yet I would cry watching a cat meowing for it's mother. In a cartoon. It's very weird. I feel both the deep urge to merge with world consciousness but I also just want my space and distance to curiously soak in and admire a specific thing say a person or a tree before I feel I'm bored and ready to delve into something/someone new. The Pisces in me what's what is eternal and transcendental while my Moon just wants to leave a miniscule print everywhere without getting carried away by the greater whole. I'm also very awful when it comes to love. So fickle and unreliable... Sigh.

posted August 11, 2014 11:42 AM            

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Originally posted by anonymidarkness:
^ lol, you and I were born on the same day. I'm Scorpio ASC though.

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posted August 11, 2014 01:28 PM            

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I see... With all the buzzing of the Gemini mind and ego, I can truly imagine how much of a feat that must have been. Congrats!

I am quite emotionally unstable especially because I'm predominantly Piscean and in the core of me is a Gemini moon stirring everything up and "causing trouble". At times, I often feel particularly crazy as I would be in an elated and excitable mood, often verging on a subtle mania. And then a sudden crash immediately unravels. I hit a quiet melancholic low and I begin to feel the need to socially withdraw...

It's been difficult trying to understand myself emotionally because usually when I "talk" about my feelings, I seldom feel them. It even feels sometimes as if I'm talking about how someone else is feeling. Emotionally heavy matters can have the tendency of shutting me down. And yet I would cry watching a cat meowing for it's mother. In a cartoon. It's very weird. I feel both the deep urge to merge with world consciousness but I also just want my space and distance to curiously soak in and admire a specific thing say a person or a tree before I feel I'm bored and ready to delve into something/someone new. The Pisces in me what's what is eternal and transcendental while my Moon just wants to leave a miniscule print everywhere without getting carried away by the greater whole. I'm also very awful when it comes to love. So fickle and unreliable... Sigh.

Sorry for the late response. I'm in Abu Dhabi at the moment and we're 8 hrs ahead.

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Your Sun square Pluto probably has something to do with the emotional aspect. The need to control them in you is powerful. However, actually controlling them is very difficult. In order for me to learn how to control mine, I first had to let them control me.

posted August 11, 2014 02:59 PM            

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^ Yeah, you're my astrotwin. *High Five!!*

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posted August 11, 2014 03:02 PM            

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Originally posted by Brobian:
Your Sun square Pluto probably has something to do with the emotional aspect. The need to control them in you is powerful. However, actually controlling them is very difficult. In order for me to learn how to control mine, I first had to let them control me.

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The Sun-Pluto dilemma is really draining because I also have Sun conjunct Saturn. It's almost as if I'm being tugged to opposite ends by two strong forces. In general, I'm good at containing myself but if I get heated and reach a breaking point then all the discipline and control just bursts through and I explode in anger/frustration.

posted August 11, 2014 03:42 PM            

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The Sun-Pluto dilemma is really draining because I also have Sun conjunct Saturn. It's almost as if I'm being tugged to opposite ends by two strong forces. In general, I'm good at containing myself but if I get heated and reach a breaking point then all the discipline and control just bursts through and I explode in anger/frustration.

Can you elaborate on your last point?

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Originally posted by PisceanDream:
The Sun-Pluto dilemma is really draining because I also have Sun conjunct Saturn. It's almost as if I'm being tugged to opposite ends by two strong forces. In general, I'm good at containing myself but if I get heated and reach a breaking point then all the discipline and control just bursts through and I explode in anger/frustration.

Can you elaborate on your last point?

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I had realized at a younger age, at least in my own perception, that I was much more emotional then most people. Due to fears of being teased or bullied I started to suppress my emotions or to hide them deep within me. Then, over the next 30 years, I kept my emotions pushed away, never giving them a chance to be me. Well, after 30 years of this, I was pretty battered and bruised. Then, early this year, some very amazing factors took place and the direct result of them was, me facing off to the very thing I was most afraid of, my emotional heart.

I had never in my life just thought to openly face them, not at all. I always felt my heart to be weak and worthless. However, as I stood there, face to face with my own emotional heart, I brought the past 30 years of my life into my recollections. I realized that hiding them wasn't getting me anywhere, not even close. My biggest fear was always how others would judge me, and as I sat there and stared at my life's biggest fear, I come to the realization that what others see in me doesn't matter. All the matters is what is going on inside my own person and that is where my attention need be.
I needed to control my emotional heart, not hide it or act like it's not there. I somehow knew, intuitively I believe, that the only way I would ever know how to control my emotional heart, was to first allow my emotional heart to control me. Then I just succumbed to them. I opened my heart and allowed 30 years of repressed emotions to surge out into my person, to take my entire being over. I forced my mind to take a step back and watch how my emotions acted, to learn every aspect of them.