posted October 16, 2012 02:52 PM            

hmmm do you have trouble to fully understand who or what you are? yet do you still wish to have a presntable image?

do you feel emotionally secure in relationships? do you "worship" your partner or want your partner to "worship" you?

do you belive your self expression is an important theme in your life? yet do you trouble with it? did major psychological changes in yourself were related to your personal way of expression?

do you like your partner to be able to make you feel "home" and secure yet allow you stimulation?

do you take frienship seriously? do you put effort in having an active social life or connection to like mined people? do you often have disputes with them?

do you feel sometimes that partners are able to satisfy one side of yourself but not the other?

do you have much restrain while having very strong feeling? are you not the type to "party hard"?

anwser these at first...as these are basic things one can see in a natal...if you wish you can ask me what placement i was looking at when i wrote a question

posted October 16, 2012 02:54 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
and by clues, i'm asking if a large portion of my focus needs to go towards my scorpio trifecta (mars, saturn, pluto)

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posted October 16, 2012 03:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
thanks for your quick reply - yes, that is definitely the exact birth time (i know it's extremely important) ... i've been messing around in my free time trying to figure out key elements, but i got sidetracked and started to become really interested in asteroids (got ahead of myself there) ...
in relation to my scorpio placements - sometimes i feel as though a HEAVY undercurrent runs through everything i do in daily life (up to and including weighty thoughts) - i have a hard time shrugging off minimal issues, and seem to take many benign factors and turn them into something way overblown .. make sense?

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i belive its your scorpy saturn effecting your sun

especially since your chart ruler IS saturn so the 2 most important planets in your chart are in a problematic aspect...i know how it feels ^^

also the 1st house neptune conjuncting ascendant makes you more sensitive thus everything has a stronger effect (even the minor things)

posted October 16, 2012 03:20 PM            

my understanding of myself (internally) is outstanding - or so i think -- my understanding of how other perceive me is greatly hindered by anxiety

in my relationships, jealousy is undoubtedly a strong issue and i would like other to put me on the same pedestal that i put them on (i exalt my friends and loved ones to the highest degree, and am quite upset when they don't measure up to my expectations)

my self expression has continually developed in a forward fashion since the death of my mother (december 31, 2006) ... i have become a calmer person without strong resentment.

i sometimes enjoy lighthearted challenges and arguments, although i can easily turn sour (never externally, always internal dread/worry) when too many of my viewpoints are overlooked or ignored.

in love, i tend to be attracted to many people on the surface, almost magnetically ... infidelity is not an issue, because i don't act on strong feelings outside of a relationship. i do feel that many people (on the initial meeting) are either scared to death of me, turned off, or pining to know all they can. even if someone doesn't come out and flatly say that they like/don't like me - i find body language says it all - never any slight feelings, always intense.

posted October 16, 2012 03:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
to answer your questions -

my understanding of myself (internally) is outstanding - or so i think -- my understanding of how other perceive me is greatly hindered by anxiety

in my relationships, jealousy is undoubtedly a strong issue and i would like other to put me on the same pedestal that i put them on (i exalt my friends and loved ones to the highest degree, and am quite upset when they don't measure up to my expectations)

my self expression has continually developed in a forward fashion since the death of my mother (december 31, 2006) ... i have become a calmer person without strong resentment.

i sometimes enjoy lighthearted challenges and arguments, although i can easily turn sour (never externally, always internal dread/worry) when too many of my viewpoints are overlooked or ignored.

in love, i tend to be attracted to many people on the surface, almost magnetically ... infidelity is not an issue, because i don't act on strong feelings outside of a relationship. i do feel that many people (on the initial meeting) are either scared to death of me, turned off, or pining to know all they can. even if someone doesn't come out and flatly say that they like/don't like me - i find body language says it all - never any slight feelings, always intense.

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that my dear... is venus pluto opposition especially since venus rules your 5th house (romance)

the fact that you think people are scared by you is related to strong aspects with pluto and saturn while saturn donates to the feeling of "they dont love me"

im not sure but ive read somewhere that emotional tension might be related to 12th house uranus

posted October 16, 2012 03:29 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
also - the ways in which i communicate tend to come across as shy (i've been told) or easy to tread on (will bear the full weight without running away)

i do believe i have scared others because while i SEEM shy, i am just waiting for the moment that i can open my mouth (bursting from the seams with language)...i think that's probably misguided anxiety working it's way through

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well neptune in 1st can cause someone to seem as the "shy doormat" but often they hide very strong personalities (especially with all your cap and scorp energy)

posted October 16, 2012 03:37 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
since i am new to actually trying to figure the configurations and planetary relationships ... i find myself drawn to the actual pattern of my natal chart (while i think it looks nice because of all the crossing lines, i'm starting to understand that all those lines create tension!)

i've skimmed some articles relating to 'rectangles' 'baskets' 'kites' 'yods' ... do you have an insight to the Yod? and if so, what about multiple Yods? and also, my Chiron/NN being conjunct?

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i have yet to take into consideration any aspect or planetary patterns and took time to learn different things ^^

a chiron NN conjunction might mean that during your own emotional/psychological development you will have to deal with your past traumas or hurts and reach some sort of conclusion with them to "move on" and achieve development

thus of course your NN will be harder but possibly more enlightning

posted October 16, 2012 03:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
by the way - thank you so much for giving your time and insight, this has already given me a wealth of information to ponder ...

surely you can understand that at some point, the enormous scope of all this information starts to get confabulated ... i'm trying to methodically sort through it all

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its my pleasure
thats why im astro for beginners in the first place

take all the time you need to sort out your info

posted October 16, 2012 04:32 PM            

venus opposition pluto might add some strong intensity and jealousy not all can deal with

posted October 16, 2012 04:37 PM            

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Originally posted by Rennin:
i am also curious about my mars in scorpio rx / venus in taurus- would that contribute to a fascination of all things sexual? and could that perhaps be preventing me from grasping the wholeness of any relationship? (ie- interested strictly in sex, or otherwise compartmentalizing/dividing certain aspects of love that should be joined together?)

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dont look at masr in scorpio as a sex hound as it is much more than that (mars pluto conjunct in scorpio here )

mars in scorpio are actually very emotional with sex and many wish for strong connection on the personal/emotional level as well as in a physical/sexual one

venus in taurus can be sensual but the strong pluto aspect assures you that there is much more depth to romance on your behalf

posted October 16, 2012 04:56 PM            

so, anxiety stemming from having intense feelings, but also having those intense feelings clouded by inhibitions ...

is there a solution aspect within my natal that could overcome those things(assuming they aren't so strong that it is not possible) ? or would i need to draw on outside influences to work through my inhibition/insecurities?